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A psychological pattern in which one doubts one's accomplishments and has a persistent internalized fear of being exposed as a "fraud". (Wikipedia)
To anyone who has made something or attempted to make something, you know this feeling too well.
"Can I really do this? Who am I kidding? I don't know what I'm doing."
I dabble in a lot of things. From web development, video editing, animation, web comics, making games, photography etc. But I never called myself a web developer, video editor, animator, artist, game developer, photographer. Because I never really felt I was one.
I thought since I was a beginner and not as good as others, I shouldn't call myself a (insert title here). As it would be insulting to the REAL (insert title here). No matter what my accomplishments were, no matter how much experience I got, I was just a wannabe, a fake, an impostor.
But then I realized.... you are what you do.
Some people talk the talk and some walk the walk.
Some think they are cool while some ARE cool.
If you made a website, you are a web developer. If you made a web comic, you are an artist. If you took a photo, you are a photographer and so on.
Many if not all veteran creatives went through this stage. Where they doubted themselves. But chose to keep going.
And in the end, the feeling of being a wannabe disappeared. They became a real legitimate (insert title here).
Have you ever felt impostor syndrome? How did you overcome it?
If you use social media, you’ve probably heard that most people are getting pretty sick of quarantine, which is something I just can’t relate to. Anime, reduced school, forum use going up. There’s so much anime to watch! So much manga to read! Even if you’re not into that stuff, you can get a free ebook app and read novels, which I did. Anyway, the last time my class had a video chat (to talk about George Floyd).
Oh, yeah, side note, please don’t track me or anything, but I’m going to say where I live: the great state of Minnesota. More specifically, Saint Paul. Other side note, if you haven’t checked the news, some white police officer kneeled on this black dude’s neck and suffocated him, in Saint Paul. Now, we have protests. And riots. At night, sometimes, I can hear people shouting. That’s part of why we have a curfew. My friends closer to the action have had to move into their relatives houses at night. Which is fine, even with quarantine, considering the way the riots could hurt them.
Okay, so, my class do the video call, and I learn something. Apparently a few kids, and our teacher, are doing a thing called “expanding the bubble”. With kids, mostly it just means they’re bored of missing relatives so they’re adding them to their bubble. What’s their bubble, you ask? It’s their parents and them, their house. If you still live in your parents house (I do), then that’s your bubble cause they’re still hugging you and stuff. Expanding it to fit relatives just so you can see them sucks, right? But we haven’t even gotten to the worst part yet: how my teacher “expanded his bubble”. In horror, I listened as he told me he invited five friends over to play and hang out. Not one, not two, five. Not even family! AND HES THE ONE WHO KEEPS TELLING US THAT DISTANCING IS GOOD. Apparently, what he tells us doesn’t apply to him. I retaliated, but he handled it like “you’re younger, I’m older, that makes me right”. Do you know how absolutely wrong that is? Who cares if you’re getting bored? Better than breaking the law. Actually, a few months ago, some dude got arrested for playing cards with five friends during quarantine. My teacher broke the law BECAUSE HE WAS BORED. I could report him to the police, but I won’t. Let this be an example of why distancing is so important. I think I’ve never been more horrified in my life.