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My romance life needs help!
Hello anime loves and otakus! Today we have a crisis if you have read the title todays topic is my romance life and it's a mess.
Now as a shut in that still goes to school I had made some friends and joined a club to try and make some friends to discuss anime with. Now this year I made a friend that recommended me to watch "Death Note" so I watched it and gave them an update with screenshots of me watching it so we could discuss their favorite show. This is how it started.
Now here is where we are now:
Our other 2 friends constantly say we would look good in a relationship because we like similar things and can talk easily.
We go out and hang out almost every week.
We hug and hold hands in the hallways and out side of school.
AND we tried dating before (for 1 day) but they said they where not ready. which is okay to have boundaries but LITARLY we are the exact same as before and I think we still have feelings for each other. Like I get it, it can be hard to be in a relationship you are not ready for but we are basically dating.
I don't know how I got in this Rom-Com anime-esk plot but please make it have a good ending.
Today they seemed less cheerfully then they usually are they said something about their phone but I could care less I just want to see them smiling again. No matter what I do I thought it would be easy to not think about them but every little thing reminds me of them. Even when I binge anime I think of them. Because of my past I did not think I could feel this way but I do and I don't know how to work through it because all I want to do right now is make them happy and I don't know how. I want to ask them about out relationship dynamic and see what we can do or when we could go to a café or a bookstore together but they keep saying they have plans. I don't know if it's because I'm taking up too much of their time or they don't like me anymore this has all happened within like the past month.
I thought I would be okay with not being in a relationship with them but I don't know anymore, I don't even want to do anything all I want to do is hug them and call them mine, Like I'm shy about other things. Every time I'm near them I want to smile so hard my cheeks hurt. when we hold hands I get all nervous whist they seem so cool with it. I can't even do school work without thinking about them. I want to tell them how I feel but I'm scared to loose our friendship, its like a delicate rose waiting to be picked but it has thorns.
I don't know what to do guys, I thought maybe I would not feel this way anymore I have not in years. Please reply if you have advice to give about this or romance in general. Thanks for reading and I promise I will post something on reviewing an anime I'm studying it right now. See you in the next one thanks for reading!
This is how my heart feels. Fuwa Fuwa.
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Unexpectedly...
Its been around three months since I updated this blog. And unfortunately I didn't get to go on the school trip to Japan last summer. I unexpectedly got sick a few weeks prior and was in the hospital recovering by the time the airplane left the ground. It really bummed me out since I saved a bunch of money and was super excited and all. I ended up having to quit my job too. Things were bad for a while which is why I didn't feel like touching the topic.
My friends went and had a nice time from what I heard. Moving forward, I decided that overworking myself to afford the trip made it so that I couldn't even go at all. Now that I've recovered I don't want to rush into anything. While preparing for life after highschool, I'm planning on working and studying for the JPLT N2 exam, so that I can increase my prospects a bit before deciding what to do next.
After all the ups and downs school has put me through, I'm still glad I tried and worked hard. I don't regret it, however I won't be pushing myself anymore. Might as well enjoy my last year while I'm at it. As for this blog related to the trip to Japan. Hopefully I can keep it updated with how I work on my Japanese proficiency and plans for going to school abroad there.
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