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   the last lost continent

   A blog by PKPICO in General

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   • stuff im thinking about right now
   • stuff i thought about tonight
   • the return to school
   • the new year
   • my day, and the day before

   

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   stuff im thinking about right now

   it’s 12:40 AM, i woke up at 11:40 pm. since the beginning of last week i went back to taking my melatonin which i did four or so months ago when school first started. i’d come home and take it an hour or two after getting back and doing everything i felt i needed to. there was never really a particular reason, i just like to wake up really early and do things by myself before going to school.

   finished the perks of being a wallflower, that book is the first to make me cry i believe. and it changed me, which some people would probably find funny but it made me think that i wanna live a lot longer. i really do see myself in charlie. i’m re-reading it after taking a three day break and i’m already back at page 19, i ate a mango while i read and realized mangoes are my favorite fruit. on the topic of ‘consuming media’, i am reading volume 1 of happy lesson. it’s okay, it’s another harem with an odd premise. i was watching to loveru over winter break but haven’t picked it back up. i’ve sort of pushed anime away because i’ve become really sad lately, but tonight after i finish part 1 of the perks of being a wallflower i’ll get back to it.

   for a blog on an anime forum i have yet to really talk about anime. my tastes are weird. i feel embarrassed talking about them because some of my friends think i’m odd. i watch a lot of anime for moe, which most of the time end up being ecchi and that is quite literally out of my control. it’s something to turn your brain off to, if i want to think then i’ll watch something that forces me to. i haven’t watched a truly thought-provoking anime since NHK ni youkoso, or enjoyed anything thought-provoking til the perks of being a wallflower.

   my favorite movie is donnie darko, i want to watch it again but i don’t know any movie piracy sites and i can’t get the HBO max password from my sister. so i’m just sad, because i really like that movie and it means a lot to me. jake gyllenhaal is my favorite actor, i believe he was 19 when he played donnie and really his appearance hasn’t changed much since, and i like how he looks because i think if you didn’t know jake gyllenhaal was an actor he’d just be a normal guy to you. i like when people just look normal, i usually find normal looking people to be the most beautiful someone can be.

   listened to a lot of new artists lately. the cocteau twins are very good, i started off hearing one song from head over heels and then i decided i’d find time to go through their discography album by album, i forgot i like music like that. some bands i listen to are just more songs into my spotify liked, and then some are songs and albums i actively seek to listen to in moments.

   i did end up telling that girl i like her, but did it in the most horrific way possible. the circumstances as to why i told her are messy and a lot. but since the one time i did confess to someone was when i was 11, i’ve never learned how to do better than how an 11 year old could confess romantic interest. sometimes i feel like i’ve only just begun maturing. i looked at my shoes the entire time, scratched the back of my head, and said “i like-like you.” and meant it, because that’s the only way i know how to confess. i told her why i was telling her, she told me it was okay and to not rush anything, and i said okay and walked away from her without doing anything else.

   i’m scared to see her today, i hope she keeps cuddling me. if she still does then she might be into autism.

   this is all for now, this is a whole bunch of nothing but it’s more for you to read.

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   Life of an Otaku

   A blog by Otaku in General

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   • Hello I'm kinda back but not really
   • Happy Hearts Warming and Happy Crismas!
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   • Day in My Boring Life

   

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   Hello I'm kinda back but not really

   Hello, anime loves and otakus today's topic is burnout and all that, take care of yourselves. Idk if I should be writing about this I want to be like hey I'm okay just tired you know. 

   So as you might have known or noticed I have been slightly or drastically less active at the start of my holiday break which started on the 21 or something. I did post and respond in the forums for a bit but it was hard to keep up so I stopped I didn't go outside or talk to anybody for about the majority of the 2 weeks that we got off. Near the end of the break, I was forced to go out and some family came down to wish us a happy new year and holidays (Btw happy new year, I Can't believe it's 2025 it still feels like 2019). We have been back at school for about a week maybe a couple of days I'm not doing well at tracking the time right now. 

   Over break I just isolated myself by playing games, watching anime, and streamers to the point where I would stay up all night to finish an anime or continue my game I started to slowly forget to do important tasks and became sucked into the reality of my computer. I mostly stayed in sweatpants and a hoodie as well it was cold out but it never snowed or at least I never noticed it did.

   I don't think I have agoraphobia I just don't like to leave the house or being contained in a space with lots of people, cons are fun even though they are busy. I like to go and interact with the community. 

   So I'm currently struggling to connect with my peers and I suppose my friends. Not only that but I'm starting to get behind on my studying and school work not significantly but as I'm writing this at 3 in the morning I have 4 assignments not started all due by the end of the week (Dw I probably will get them done). My family is starting to get annoying again they said it's normal to be like this and I should go to social groups and get a job to help fix it (I don't think they get the point of why I'm struggling). What can you do at this point? Luckily none of my classmates has noticed or paid attention to me and I'm pretty sure my friends don't care. 

   Don't worry If you're taking this as me leaving or taking a break from the forums you are incorrect, I love the community and would love to keep interacting with you guys, and playing forum games is one of the joys of my day. I will not be responding or playing games as much until I get caught up with my work which should be maybe a couple of days or even a month. I still will be active on here just not as much. 

   Thanks for the support - Otaku 

    

    

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