Hey guys todays post will be about my experience at high school and what my life is like:

Every day I wake up at 5 and get read for school. I brush my hair, put on a t-shirt + pants + glasses, and brush my teeth

I ride the bus to school so I try to sit close to the front since non of my friends live in my area.  I get to school and wait for one of my friends we typically get breakfast together. after that we meet up with 2 of my other friends. 

I go to classes they are okay non of my friends take the same classes as me until later in the day. I go to lunch and eat with my friends. The studying aspect of school is not that bad for me because I sit in my room a lot, I don't really like when it takes away from watching anime or playing games. 

My friends typically make fun of what anime's I watch, my appearance, and the light novels I read. I ask them to stop many times but they choose not too. They are nice friends and we will be starting a DnD campaign soon. 

I typically don't like to go to school because I don't really like to leave the house. Going to the store is always a pain. Going to school is too there are too many people and its allways distracting to see people and hear people doing other things. They have rules about doing things like listening to music and being on your phone.  They also have these tiny desks and chairs that you have to fold into; they really make my knees hurt. 

By definition I would classify myself as a shut in because I would rather stay in my room then leave the house and watch anime rather than hanging out with friends.  I do my best to interact with my friends but I worry alot about if I'm a bother so I try to stray away. 

"Personality type - a person who is secretive, brooding, and withdrawn, and tends to avoid social contact." 

Now sometimes If my friends would like to go out I do and I have fun but I whilst out I wish we could return to my house and spend time there. Hear me out I do like to go out with my friends when its not busy and it's just me and another person. I find it difficult to connect with a large group of people that why I choose to spend most of my time inside the house. 

It also might be hard to hear a boy say this but I have always had low self esteem and no confidence. So a couple years ago for my first year of junior high I gained a friend that liked me they where an upperclassmen so they where about 1 grade level ahead of me and about 1-2 years older than me. We became friends with some other kids in their class forming a cute little friend group. Eventually we envied 2 of the boys I knew from my grade school class into the group. One of the boys watched anime so he introduced me to anime like High School DxD and Domestic Girlfriend. I found out the upperclassmen I became friends with liked me so we dated for a while, they introduced me to a lot of things and promised to do things with me, luckily we never got there. After we broke up over the summer (we where still friends due to there suggestion) they bullied me about using anime as an escape. So every time I opened my computer to watch anime they walked over and lectured me about an unhealthy obsession and closed the laptop.

So after like a year with dealing with that I make new friends in my last year of junior high. I can only remember one she had the total personality of a tsundere which was probably a bad thing because one of my top 2 favorite character tropes is a tsundere. To put it lightly I was in love with her, which was okay because she totally played into it with not only play flirting but like holding my hand, egging me on, and resting her head on my shoulder. But the only problem was I was taking her meanness as sign she liked me. She told me to do some interesting things because I watched anime, I was the scum of the earth to her. She was my second reason why I have such low self esteem and consider my self a shut in and continue to watch anime.   

My friends currently are a lot better than the hardships I faced so many years ago and I'm proud to call them my friends (most of the time). Today whist we were on lunch break we played a game of cards. 

A lot of these experiences make me realize it's so much easier to stay home and be trapped in my room. But I always try to push through because of somebody I hold dear in my heart as cheesy as that sounds.  Being a shut in has made me realize how much anime is present in my life to say the least I watch on average 9.6hours of anime in a week.

It has been taking longer, because I'm writing out next blog entry on an anime I'm thoroughly watching and doing research on the upbringing and documenting every important moment in the show for a full series review and recap. 

Thanks so much for reading my fellow otakus and anime loves hope to see you in the next one!

 This is how we be feelin this week. Its Monday and I'm already tired and jumpy. lol