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oookaaaayy, just a rant post, be warned, its a long post!, iz really really long couse, seriously, screw my group... atleast the other group, being GROUP 2 accepted me, and im not even part of their group, meanwhile my group...even my partners..."dissapointment increases" welp, my grand duty got ruined thanks to some f*ck face, trying to make me look bad again, even though i went through the f*cking trouble of using my own money for our grand, to make it the "best" grand, and final duty, f*ck face still went and got me pissed basically, we got a weak junior in warding, and me, being helpful before just made her mad at me, so i chillaxed on helping anyone since then our last day today, i wanted to go morning pick (which means we extract people's blood who have went fasting, or not eaten/drank water in the past 8-12hours), and teach her some few tips and tricks she said "ok", and mind you, i told her this really early, like, sun is still up-early (and were night duty) time by 10 hours, i got stuck with CBG/HGT test, thats about 30+ patients, even though we had 3 machines, juniors felt lazy, thus i toke it, and didn't go along with her on the morning pick i wanted to go with no problems there so far, couse to be honest, im fine with that anyway, i mean, i wont be losing anything if she doesn't want to learn from her seniors the problem starts AFTER our duty, like, end of duty i told her, she needs to improve more, couse, well, seniors are gone now, theres only 14 of them left, and not many of them are good at extraction, but this f*ck face went and said, im being "rude", or "boasty" or whatever nigga, when our seniors said sh*t to me, no one f*cking said anything, i was as bad as her before too, heck, i was worse than her before, but i improved, i got better, im one of the best now too couse of my own determination to "git gud" it really hit me so hard when, even after all the shit i did, all the fucking shit i did for this group, buying them gifts, taking on their endorsements without second thought (endorsement, as in, they couldn't obtain blood from Px. due to "hard to extract"), buying everyone a keychain with their name and a "GROUP 3" keychain tag in it, and even trying to make our final day the bestest, by giving everyone that was about to leave, minus me, a gift, and even foods, i used 3000php (58$!) just to make it the best, the f*cking best and then i get hit with the "STOP BULLYING MY PARTNER, SHES DOING HER BEST, YOUR HURTING HER FEELINGS" well excuse me for not being fucking hurt by what the fuck you said, i fucking did everything, im even thinking of her well being, but then got said im being boasty and or rude what sucks more is, even though they know im getting depressed, my partners didn't so much as to try and cheer me up, other guys of group 3 went and tried, but well, when im depressed, i get really numb, and i dont think well i sit down and think, and once im alone i cry and since i got better at extraction, i even dont mind doing self-extractions on my self, whats worse is, when i did it to myself this morning, i didnt feel the needles pain, guess thats what being numb means... still really dissapointed my partners didn't cheer me up, oh well, im used to being alone anyway~..."sigh" but yea, rant over, tldr: fuck group 3 smh CHEERY MOODO ONNOOO OBLIGATORY SONG POST~! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4v7B_J1NQbQ