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Spring is coming soon, and while it's not exactly my favorite season (much more of a Winter person), I am looking forward to seeing all the flowers. You really can't go wrong with flowers as the subject of your photos' or take a bad picture of them. Nature is definitely one of my favorite things to photograph and Spring always creates the perfect backdrop for any photo in my opinion. With so many parks around the area that I'm living in right now I'm hoping to be able to get out and take some walks and a lot of new photos this season. When I think about Spring the #1 thing that also comes to mind is new beginnings which is kind of where I'm at in my life. Working through a lot of different feelings and emotions and trying to let go of the past and work on my present & future. I'm hoping to start a new chapter in my life in more ways than one. There are some days when that feels more difficult than others, I suppose today would be one of those days but I'm trying to deal with it as best as I can. The beginning of things can be scary, whatever that is, whether it's a new chapter in your life, new love, new school, new whatever. With me, there's just a lot I need to process for this next chapter of my life but I'm hoping it blooms into something beautiful that I can look back on some day and be happy that I took the steps that I'm taking now. Here's a few photos I took last Spring to look back on ~ The butterflies are from the Chicago Butterfly Gardens that you can walk through and most of the flower pictures I believe are all from my Dad's yard.

I think everyone feels like that at sometime in their lives and it's often easy to think that your friends aren't interested in you any more and when you're talking to them you feel like their minds are actually somewhere else and they're not really paying attention to you. This often happens to me and when it does I usually find out later that they had something going on in their life at that time that was occupying their mind and while they appeared not to care about me any more it's just that they'd got things weighing on their mind at the time. You're not alone in sometimes feeling that it wouldn't matter if you weren't there and no one would miss you if you left, and would only miss you when they wanted you to do something for them. I get like that sometimes, but I know it's not true and that it's just me being miserable, I think it comes with being single in a world geared to couples. Anyway, enough of my rambling, we would miss you @Sakura and we did get worried when you went totally off-line a few days back.

Honestly if we hear nothing from you for a day we probably would get worried LOL. I mean we did last time lol. Hope you get better soon, idk if i can play games today or tommorow but I’m mostly free anytime

I did nothing in my room today too. Tried to make an utau cover but encountered a problem and now need to wait for my question to be answered on the server… I guess I did play a bit of ssbu and Taiko no tatsujin but that’s it Now I’m just surfing the internet again

Made something new for a friend ~ been a little while since I've GFX'ed anything but I figured I felt like trying something tonight

Valid questions honestly, if someone wanna give me free stuff, then like.. where do I sign up lmAO anyways that was Lucky saying he has one not me Vitur plz lmAO I haven't actually played RS today, I might get on a bit I don't know ~ I'd like to get 99 tomorrow but we'll see

We'd notice. Probably immediately. I hope that what I said before when we argued didn't start any of these doubts in your head and if it did then again I'm sorry, I really could never express to you how sorry I am. If you need anything I'm here to talk. Your messages don't bother anyone and it makes my day when I see I have one from you as I'm sure it does most. You're a big part of the community here and we like you being here.

Thank you. I like it here.

Yeah no as Soramee said we noticed within hours last time and went into full meltdown mode and would do it again :V I get how it's easy to feel this way because I do it too sometimes. Just gotta keep reminding yourself your head is lying to you. Listen to what @Animedragon wrote because he is wise and knows what he's talking about. We are enjoying getting to know you here Cornedbeef

I feel the same. My friend never initiates contact but strangely enough he often replies. And it hasn't been long since I got here so no one knows me deeply and I feel left out sometimes. But I would worry if you stopped posting here. I hope you feel better, Sakura.

Sometimes I just feel like deleting everything, deleting my discord, removing all my contacts, deleting everyone's phone number, deleting all social media, and cutting all contact with everyone I know. I feel like I bother absolutely everyone and no one really wants to talk to me. I usually have to call or message people first and when I'm talking to them I feel like they don't really want to be talking to me and they just kind of humor me for a few minutes before they go back to ignoring me. I don't want to make any of my friends feel bad by saying I feel like no one cares about me, but somedays it feels like that. I know it's just me in my head and I'm aware of that, but I don't know how to get out of that mindset some days and a lot of the times lately it feels like it wouldn't matter if I was here or not & it would probably take people days or weeks to even realize I wasn't here anymore. There are some days such as today that I honestly don't feel like trying anymore and being around just feels like it's pointless.

Other areas like that can be hotels, stairwells, empty parking lots, empty theme parks, abandoned malls or classrooms in school when no one else is there.

99 FM party tomorrow? Lucky has enough from streaming he always gets free things from others lol If anything I would be hers because how much free stuff I'm always give to her

It's important we take the time to do these things with someone while we still have the chance. I believe we realize that more after a death.

Good job, congrats. Almost there. They are asking the same questions I have. Are you & Lucky in the market for sugar daddies?

Why the heck are you talking about sugar daddies LOL

Sup ya'll? Serey told me to join here

I like the idea of Spring being your new beginning this year. It's the perfect time for it and I'm proud of you and glad you are doing things for you to open your next chapter in your story it'll all work out. Lovely pictures too I like how you can see the water drops on the flowers. You take really good piccys.

Probably because it has gotten me feeling reflective about many things and wanting to take more time to slow down. We forget about how important little things are in the busyness of every day life.

And I'm the opposite because I like to stay in one area and familiar places.

Thanks I won't forget these this time because I DO listen I just can't do them all yet, then I forget the ones I need to do :V

It's nice you guys got to do that ~ sometimes mornings like that are honestly the best I'm really glad I'll get to see you both on Wednesday but I wish I was coming home for better reasons x.x Today yeah I haven't done much, I haven't felt like it. I went grocery shopping as Pessi mentioned and that's about it.

I told her this like 9 times she isn't gonna get it x.x

I've been working on an Esdeath x Tatsumi project that I think is going nicely. I'm happy with it so far. ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^

I have heard the details of "The Plan" and I somehow agree with it. It's simply for Serey to take the time she needs if it was any other reason I would say stuff it and do it but it seems important in this instant.

Did you know that the Eiffel Tower can be 15 cm taller during the summer? That's due to thermal expansion, meaning the iron heats up, and the particles gain kinetic energy and take up more space.

There is a term for that it's because airports are "liminal spaces". Liminal spaces are transitional places or states that can be physical, psychological, or emotional. They can evoke feelings of uncertainty, disorientation, or tension. Psychologically, airports are often considered "liminal spaces" - places that are in between states, like not quite at your destination and not yet back home, which can contribute to a feeling of disorientation.

It sounds like a nice moment you were able to have with your dad. I am glad that you have each other right now. Today I slept in and than went grocery shopping. We also ate out at a restaurant before coming home and now I have just been doing a few things in the house such as taking garbage out and cleaning the bathroom. @Sakura and I also went for a walk to the park and only just got back now.

Trapped Soul - The Ascent of Arceuus Count Draynor - Vampyre Slayer Sand Snake - The Depths of Despair King Roald - What Lies Below The Kendal - Mountain Daughter Finish these quests to get these bosses for NMZ and that is all you need.

What the hell is the plan? Why is there a plan? it feels like you both are making it more complicated than it has to be.

Airports make me feel weird.

No she has to stick to the plan, the plan is all!! THE PLAN!! STAY TO THE PLAN!!!! Only because it's for you to finish what you need to process. @kyson I'm glad it worked out for you that's awesome. Good luck in your new relationship

I got up early this morning and made pancakes for myself and my dad and we sat on the porch and watched the sunrise and just talked. It felt kind of nice because I haven't sat down in quiet with my dad for a long time maybe not since I was a kid. Everything in life always feels so busy but it's weird how things seem to slow down after someone passes away and you suddenly have time for little things and sitting down and talking to someone suddenly becomes a priority.

Good job sis What is this convo about sugar daddies ssdafassssssss

Thanks you guys It was nice to make something new for the first time in awhile ~ Thought I still feel a little bit uninspired lately x.x He seemed to so I hope lol Oh and he joined AF

I agree, I'm always happy when I receive an email saying "Sakura has sent you a message"

At this exact moment I'm at Wintertodt but I'm at 522k to 99 ~

Ran some errands, shopped for the week, dropped off some things at a friends house. Mundane and quiet day but I've enjoyed relaxing. Played a little Runescape and after I finish checking out the forums I'll probably wander off to turn in for the night. I've an early start tomorrow morning.

Very cool stuff. I like how bright and warm it is. Colours are great and as usual you blend everything into a perfect GFX piece.

A harem would definitely ruin it, Gojo and Marin are really cute together. I see you also like Sword Art Online? I don't really know anyone else who does.

It's really warm and sunny today. It's been a long time since I've seen 18C on the thermometer.

Wow that's really good sis I bet Lucky loved it :V

Those are really beautiful photos, I really like the bright colours and the butterflies are a bonus.

Very pleasant! I love it!

I need to level up more didn't you say I should do Nightmare Zone?

I looked at this today. "Nissan Sakura" toy. it reminded me of Sakura. :^ D

I had class which was about it .-. I ordered Arby's when I got home and I've been snacking and watching TV mostly ~ also took a nap. Thinking about making some GFX I sort of have an idea in my head, but I'll prolly just end up staring at the wall most of the night then being mad I didn't do anything tonight lol

Yeah a bit but mostly because all my friends are on there and it's a distraction more than anything for a little bit ~ Also thanks @Sasuke & @Zeref I kind of feel like I can't do or say anything right today, I feel like I keep saying the wrong thing because I don't know what to say when things happen x.x

YASSS LASSSGOOOOO REEEEEEE I'm sooo glad they'll be having a duo boss but I guess it'll be a lot like COX or TOA? I mean I'm assuming something similar because I was reading up on it and it sounds super complicated x.x You can expect Yama to pull out every trick he’s learned in his long existence: powerful magic, bloodthirsty minions, manic cultists, good old-fashioned fireballs - you get the gist! Like idk it sounds like it's gonna be really annoying lmao but the proposed rewards sound pretty worth it tbh especially with soul armor that's proposed being better than Torva in some ways