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Yesterday was kind of a crazy day. I went out with @Zeref and my friend from school who is known for being a little.. interesting lol I know I'm crazy but she's next level. Anyway, the plan was nachos but we ended up on about 10 different side quests. One of those side quests ended up with us in a graveyard so we walked around looking at old graves (some were from the early 1800's) and I took some pictures. That was actually kinda nice because graveyards are a nice place to take pictures. I'd have preferred to do it at dusk for the darker aesthetic feels but I also don't really want to be in a graveyard at night lol At least not in the particular neighborhood we were in. Here's some pictures from the cemetery: We also ended up hanging out on my roof for awhile and I took a few pictures there. You can see the river and all of downtown from there. I personally prefer it at night with all the lights twinkling but it's harder to take pictures at night: The next ones are from today. It was raining all day which kind of matches my mood tbh ~ I mostly just laid in my bed and stared out the window watching the storm moving in. There's been a lot of stuff I'm working out in my head recently and I know how to fix it, but it's also not that easy. Well, maybe it would be, but then I overthink it and I talk myself out of it. There are times I wish I could turn my emotions off and simply not feel anything, for anyone, ever again. I think it would be much better than whatever the hell I'm feeling lately. Well, that rambling aside, it's really kinda nice to watch storms here. We are so high up I can see really far in the distance such as the storms coming in and even rain falling far away. Being so high up is also a really great place for taking pictures of the storms since you get such a good view and when I'm laying around in bed it's nice to cloud watch and think. Last one is still just the rainy pics but you can see that little street better where all the pretty white trees are ~

I've had a great day today and I'm feeling really good about that. With what you're going through it's no wonder and to be expected. Like Lillie said though you're going to get through it.

There will be days like that and it would be weird if there wasn't. Just keep going forward and looking for the happy moments.

Yeah no it's very hard it's something I have to force on myself.

Maybe I should try harder to do that lol but when I get in this mood it doesn't seem I can get up and do almost anything though maybe I can make myself x.x

Honestly............ that's prolly true lmao @.@ There is nothing normal going on there

That's cute sis and the colors suit you so perfectly too I hope it reminds you that more good things are going to happen and this sad girl era isn't going to last forever!

Made a new thing I actually like. Trying to give myself positive thoughts so I thought making art about it would help lol ~ writing & making graphics usually helps me with whatever I'm thinking about at the time.

Nice photos Serey. I really love the ones you took from your roof and these stormy looking ones. You do have some amazing views and you capture it so well. The things that have been weighing on your mind lately I believe that you'll be able to figure them out. You know what to do and I have confidence you'll have the courage to do it. Whatever happens after you'll be glad you did it because you took that step and that alone takes bravery.

That's an awesome GFX work Serey. Glad you could channel some positivity into your art.

I wouldn't say that exactly lol. But I can do it with you. There's a lot to it however so I advise you watch a tut video prior. I'll still explain it as we do it but it's a good plan to have some idea what you're doing beforehand too.

That's a really nice new signature. I like the bright colours and the happy positive vibe it gives out. The wording is great too. I hope this marks the end of your sad girl phase and ushers in the happy girl phase that you really deserve. KEEP SMILING.

Ty Ori <33 But no, not really, I don't think. She still has the book lmfao ~ Most likely her ghost will come back screaming about this haunting is not on schedule LMFAOFMAO

I've always wanted to do some photos in a cemetery too after dark but in the fog and just capture the total creepy vibe. You know Jake I think? He takes the best photographs that he puts on DA like that and it's always motivated me to want to do the same. Maybe I should start a photography blog :V Great pictures though I was dying when you were telling me about the events bwahahaha but the nachos looked good. For the sad stuff.. I'm calling you tomorrow after classes and we are going to work through talking about it because I think you need to. You need a solid way to fix this and I've got your back even though this is a little rough at first the ending is going to be worth it.

Chaaa make him go he loves it lmfaoooo

Oh okay alright @Sasuke is going to do this with me because I want to do a boss :V

I don't recommend it at your combat lvl I don't think you could I mean if you had someone that mostly carried it yeah lmao like do it with @Sasuke and NP prolly

Thank yewwwww I know it won't lol I'm trying to do things to cheer myself up honestly but some days are harder ~

You can beat it. Sad girl era doesn't last forever and you've got this. I was feeling similar earlier but I decided to get out of bed and occupy my mind instead of focusing so much on the bad and I feel better now. Tomorrow we need to have a phone call and talk this out once and for all

I blame our DNA just look at our family :V

Currently under a tornado warning

My emotions have been all over the place today and I don't know why ~ well actually if I think about it I have a very good idea why lol I feel bipolar some days because I go from being really happy to spiralling and overthinking the next and kinda mad. There is a particular thing that is causing it that I just can't sort through that hits me with overwhelming feelings at random times so I know it's not really a mental health thing, though this is taking a toll on my mental health. I know how to fix it but at the same doing that seems more overwhelming than the thoughts on the situation itself so I'm just stuck X.X

Mostly stayed in bed tbh I didn't feel like doing anything ~ I only got up now because I'm being dragged to go to a clan war on RS that I don't really feel like doing

It's thunderstorming here now .-.

Bruh that's weird LMFAO Idk where she gets this from it's certainly not me LOL

It's rained a few times today with big storms expected to be in the area around 8.

My today wasn't as interesting as yesterday it's mostly been spent at home playing games and snacking. I thought about going for a walk but the weather has been looking questionable and I was thinking if I did that I would get rained on.

After church this morning the usual group of us went out to the local pub/restaurant and had lunch together which was very enjoyable. I'm quite happy eating on my own at home, but it's always nice to eat out with friends ever so often. In the afternoon, since it's Mothering Sunday (also known as Mother's Day) here in the UK I went to the cemetery to place some bright yellow daffodils on my parents grave.

That's what it sounds like to me too :V I'm just spending my day in bed doing nothing and living my best life.

Thanks ~ definitely working hard on it. Some days are hard but I try to keep searching for positivity. Thanks Ori <333 Felt like that was a really good way to remind myself to keep trying if I can see that type of message and work on something that makes me think happy in the moment.

Thanks ~! Yeah I thought about that. I haven't had the chance to really sit and mess with them much yet but I could prolly do that in PS. Might be something I try over the week. Also, true, it just feels like it would be easier sometimes lol Ty I'm definitely trying and I'm not giving up yet ~ I just get in my own head and I make things much more complicated than it has to be

Thanks Ori <333 Today I feel a little better anyways it seems like it comes and goes but I'm working on it ~

It's still great you managed to get up for this. Even if it's just a small thing doing little things still counts.

Cloudy but fairly warm today.

I just use my phone camera and I don't even use the latest iPhone lol ~ I still use my purple one because I like it and don't want to switch. I think you have the newest one dad got you? It prolly takes way better pics tbh so you could prolly get some really great stuff Just take pictures of whatever you like, whatever catches your eye I guess. I mostly stick to nature and architecture because I like take pictures of stuffs like that but it's different for everyone. Maybe you could do photoshoots with your rats lmfaooo AAA yes okay maybe throwing glitter will help XD Honestly though, I do too because there's a part of me that wants clarity more than anything and the fact that I don't have it is mostly what's on my mind and bothering me x.x

I like you because you smell good lmfao

I finished work for the week. I do have to say that it wasn't all too bad; I had a pretty light load. It's always nice feeling satisfied knowing that I put my all into something. (Don't worry, I'm not breaking HIPPA...) I had a patient today that was actually interested in becoming a nurse, and the charge nurse asked if I could talk to him. With no hesitation, I introduced myself to him and had a very nice chat. I told him what it was like to start off as a nurse's aide, and then to progress through the program until I earned my RN license. The whole time, he seemed excited the more I told him. I felt honored that I was able to ignite the fires of his enthusiasm. While he was in his late-30's, I admired his determination to change career paths. Nursing certainly isn't for everybody, but I could tell that he was all for it. Most importantly for him: it wasn't too late. It's never too late for anybody! His family had come to visit, and everyone was thanking me for giving him the support to get started. Again, I was truly honored. I'll remember him now, and I wished him luck as I left for the evening.

Thanks, usually I really don't try to write poetry but I guess it comes out that way lol I mostly just write whatever I'm feeling at the time I can't process any other way than to write. Thank yuu I'm really glad some people enjoy it or can relate to it.

Dumbest lmfao I tried it today with Cammy and I wanted to throw myself off a bridge about 2 minutes in ._.

Don't you think it would be weird to have her without that?

I like you for spreading awareness about falling meese.

That statement is weird lol.

I disagree, you write really beautiful poetry.

You can still do it with one of us Serey it's not a set in stone partner lol plus it's going to take me a long time to get all the drops I'll need so I'll be doing it a bunch.

He's banned in all the chats related to that site that I've been in.

He should have let you free the fish, what kind of Saturday is it without that? So a normal day with Serey? My own day wasn't nearly as interesting. I did some wash and had lunch out with a coworker. Since then I've been around the house doing little things that needed to be finished such as dishes and vacuuming.

I've had a relaxing day and feel good.

I don't think it does

Please don't bang on things anymore when I am sleeping I just had a wild day and I am feeling in a good mood. Hanging out with @Sakura is never boring.

That's a great series. I liked it soooo much that I bought the Blu-ray box set.