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Thank you so much! Getting to this point in the fundraiser it can feel like a dead end with raising so much and still a bit to go it feels like you've run the well dry so donations like this really help and I am very appreciative!

I am one the calmest people you'll ever meet. I've had customers nearly shout at me at work and I've kept my cool and never gotten angry. Put me in front of a video game however and you will see a side of me awaken that you couldn't believe existed. I don't what it is about those things but they bring something out of me lol.

These all look amazing. PLEASE PLEASE keep working at it. Everyone starts somewhere and has the ability to improve our find their own style. I can tell you've been putting a lot of focus on understanding dimensions in face proportions, hair and are working at finding your style when drawing eyes. Keep at it and you'll find it will pay off in the long run ^^

I certainly plan on updating it! About your fantasy, I've heard a little from my Japanese friend who's studying to get into a good company, and she said that working in Japanese workplace can be very rewarding because of how great some can be at teamwork! Although there is black companies and also karoshi (death from overwork) problems in Japan. There are also many companies that are great to work in as well! Other than that, my least faborite part of working would be the commute... most communters are packed into the densha (trains) like sardines, plus the perverts who take pictures. But they usually target high school girls. So it might not be all warm and fuzzy, but there are also many ways it can be fulfilling as well!

First off YAY! that is so cool, I hope that you post updates on how your trip goes, I would look forward to hearing more about your experiences in Japan. I have an aunty who lived and taught English there for 10 years and she loved it. I often fantasize about what it would be like to live another life as a white collar in the city, going about day-to-day life in the Hussle and Bussle of city life. I am sure I am just romanticizing a warm nostalgic feeling associated to the image I hold in my head and that reality is much different but I kind of find a comfort in it all the same.

I encountered the "Ad-blockers are not allowed on YouTube" pop-up yesterday evening and found that if I just closed the pop-up window, by using the normal red X 'close window' method, the pop-up closed and the video played as normal without ads. YouTube/Google will probably fix that 'bug' soon.

@Wild Emotion& @Animedragon Thank you both for your words! Once again, extremely sorry for not being too active, I had a LOT of issues going on, causing me to get hospitalized. But I'm back! And hopefully for a good while <33 Much love!

Enjoy your Final Fantasy experience!

Thank you so much for the support and donation, I really appreciate it! I'll make sure to keep this blog updated with progress and in the end will hopefully have an amazing video of the final journey to share here and with everyone else!

Thank you. As well as watching anime I've got a couple of hobbies that I can now spend more time on I'm also involved with my local church so I keep fairly busy and don't have time to get bored. I was fortunate to have a job I enjoyed doing, I did it for 48 years so I must have liked it . But I don't miss the daily commute into central London.

exactly how i'll be doing it!! sheesh man, well, at least you get to relax after working hard for so many years, you deserve it. i'd probably pick up some hobbies, do what my grandpa does and shoot some hoops at the park, or go on a walk. find some things that you might enjoy,...don't be afraid to spoil yourself either man. goodluck.

god, I miss summer breaks

that's actually the reason i deemed myself the title of "lame artist" it's because, i felt unworthy, bad at what i did, and felt like i could never improve besides, i never studied anything in the art-field, (sure, i look at referrences, but i dont look up tutorials, i used too, but now a days i dont TuT anymore), almost all my life has been thrown on playing games, surfing the net, and as of the recent year, just studying -- but i did notice, i got better at drawing, comparing it to my old drawings (i did a 2 year-gap difference on my first OC), the style, the lines, it all feels different from when i started but yea, long short, i can safely ditch the "lame artist" title, couse i feel like a worthy artist but i wont, because its a memento of what i used to be

oh jeez i didnt think anybody would actually read this stuff i want to believe that, but ive been seeing a lot of people being turned away from urgent care lately. i already have a thing called Care Credit which is supposed to help cover like, copays for smaller medical emergencies, but ive also needed to get oral surgery for a while now and my care credit isn't enough to help me cover the copay for that. i guess it depends on how good your credit is as to how much itll do for you. i had enough faith in my family also, that if they found me unresponsive or something, they'd take me to the hospital regardless and wed just have to deal with the financial consequences, instead of just leaving me here like a bunch of jerks. like, they're jerks, but i hope they're not that big of jerks. thats kind of how my sister is, she works as an aid at a nursing home and i guess shes considered an "essential worker" or whatever the hell people are calling it, not that anybody really chooses to be. its kind of just youre too weak and feel so crap you cant even do anything to pass the time, so the only thing i could do was just sort of lay here every day, or log on and gripe about it to get it out. nobody really comforted me tbh, it was mostly just people yelling at me "go to the hospital!" and me going "nO!" which was kind of funny, but i wish someone wouldve just respected why i didnt want to go, and wouldve just tried to help me feel a little better. LMAOO. gotta love skyrim. youll be pleased to hear you can, in fact, divorce people in stardew valley without having to kill them. the mayors got papers for it in his house or something, i think. i honestly didnt know you couldnt divorce people in skyrim?? that's so weird. you know like, the cultists guys that show up in whiterun that attack you? once they ended up killing lydia because shes a useless sack of bricks. her body wouldnt despawn, so i ended up throwing her into the whiterun river so she'd stop blocking the road. somewhere, maybe, shes still trapped under a bridge. RIP lydia it's really not that impressive! im just a beginner at python, i think. it basically just has some input commands and when you put in certain commands it can generate games or open random webpages and stuff, or reminds me to do things. theres also a note command where i can write a reminder and it'll save it to a file on my desktop for later, so i dont forget things. which i could have just done myself, but thats not as fun as making a program do it for you ive always wanted to grow pumpkins! oh my god, and there is nothing better than a homegrown tomato plant. those tomatoes they sell in stores are a crime against humanity. i dont believe anyone if they say they dont like tomatoes if theyve never had an heirloom tomato. you cant say you hate tomatoes unless youve had a real tomato. everyone who hates tomatoes fight me. idk what it is about the smell of them too, its so comforting. i keep going into my room full of starters and just sniffing the tomato seedlings, is that weird? also did you know turnips, radishes, and onions can all apparently outlast a winter? i went out there with the cultivator today and a bunch of healthy turnips, radishes, and onions were out there to greet me, completely unperturbed by the freezing weather all throughout winter. weird. i guess thats somethin to plant in fall

I took a speech class in university mainly because I too HATE public speaking. Make sure to practice your speech, it will make you more comfortable. Before you do your speech, take a moment to help get rid of tension in your body (such as squeezing your hands into tight fist and releasing them). Try not to fidget or cross your arms during your speech too its hard to do, but that's what practice is for. When you write your speech try to make sure you bring up points at least three times to hear your speech's goal. A well written speech is memorable. Social media influences people globally, there are a lot of pros and cons to it. How long does your speech have to be? Because you might need to pick a more simple statement to discuss that narrows down your topic. (Be more specific about what you want to discuss - then bring up 3 points almost are arguments or information, then conclude by re-stating those points briefly)

I think I changed the categories now to where you just type it and it suggests genres. Over time listing all the categories on screen just took up too much space. I actually get your suggestion. It's like putting weights in which you want it to be considered more. I'll give it a shot. Hope I can do it though. haha @Seshi thanks a bunch for using the site. I really appreciate it. It's been awhile since I used the suggestion feature. I will use it a couple of times and see how to improve it.

I also like this community and feel that many other forums are missing exactly that, a community. Great job breaking down these points, I really like that you take the time to share your perception with others in such detail. I do hope to see you around the weekly anime discussion threads we have quite a good time there.

Well said. I’m definitely going to have to give OPM another look. I appreciate the time you took to write all this up. I like character interaction and depth I love that you recognized the comparison to Japanese working conditions in the anime. That’s intriguing all on its own but it seems there are even more reasons to love OPM. Thanks again for the write up. Im going to have to think a bit more about my fav characters in MHA and give you some feedback there though. I feel like there’s got to be something I see in these characters relationships that is worthy of being considered.

sends chills down my spine everytime

Hey there! Nice to meet you! You can call me Rye if you like Welcome to the forums btw! It's nice having you introduce yourself in a blog entry. Is this your first one? Waaaaah, I should have thought about this. lels. Anyways, I'm a lil bit older than you so maybe you can call me Nee-san or something. I'm not much of a loner but I'm not a socialist either so maybe I can reach out to you. I love Fairytail and tbh it was the main reason why I started reading mangas cause I just can't wait to see what would happen next I like black too tbh. I'm the oldest child in the family and I have an ototo which is 16 years old as well and a kawaii imouto which is still 8 years old. I love pudding Anyways, nice meeting you again!

@Mars Terra, @Roxeg, you all are so sweet! Thank you for the support, it means a lot. Thankfully I'm not beating myself up over it, that time was just even more emotionally draining than usual, and it triggered some PTSD from my childhood. Lately, while she has had some pretty serious attacks we've been able to calm them down with her emergency meds, so no recent ER trips! Also, regarding my own health, we're trying to get me into a local pulmonologist to help with all my breathing treatments, so I'm praying that will help! I have an asthma specialist, but he's four hours away, so having someone local who could help with this would be great. I'm hoping I can catch up on the forum after I can get some sleep today, I've been up all night. I miss being able to chat with everyone. Anyways, I'm off for now, I hope you're all having a good morning! See y'all later. P.S My sister, INTJ, finished catching up to the current Boruto episodes! Which means she's going to start season 2 of My Hero Academia with me now! I'm so excited to show it to her.

Lol, @SleepyLeoulf, I don't think that's too cheesy! My sisters and I call it the same thing. I'm a rather sentimental person so I like to express my love for those around me frequently. Sucks to hear about your nightmares! My sister has them frequently and it's really hard on her, she's not been able to sleep with the light off for about a year and a half. She keeps her room lit with Christmas lights at night and also puts a movie on, which helps her. But it's still not easy. Especially because her medical conditions are so scary, so sometimes she'll have a nightmare about going into anaphylaxis and she wakes up not knowing if she actually is or not, since she does frequently have strong allergic reactions. @Rudilla, @Mars Terra , I'm so sorry to hear of y'all's sleeping troubles, too! They really are a pain. It's almost 5am here, but here I am awake. At least I got a good two-hour nap in before my lungs got too bad. Asthma is known to get worse at night. Also, I just finished the first episode of How To Raise a Mummy and it was just so kawaii! I used to have insomnia, but after following some advice from a sleep specialist that's usually under control, thankfully. @Baku, I'm surprised you haven't heard of it, it gained popularity quickly and has won a ton of awards! It even aired in some theaters in the US and you can find it at Walmart. It makes me happy seeing it do so well, it truly is a masterpiece. Please let me know what you think when you see it!

@Mars Terra @Rudilla Maybe you both have some sleeping problems like Insomnia. I have it myself and before I always thought it was just normal to wake up at those times sometimes or couldn't fall back asleep. Maybe check it out with a doctor if it gets worse, just a thought is all. You don't have to listen to me or take my advice, just trying to help is all. I take medication for my sleeping issues plus for other reasons since I suffer from chronic nightmares but a lot of the time the medication does not always work for myself and I find myself waking up around 4 or 5 AM. Sometimes even being up at midnight staying up till 4 or 5 AM then getting only an hour of sleep again. For me it's different like everyone is different but doesn't hurt to check with your guys doctors if maybe they can help you both out. Also there is no shame in taking medication even though it sucks taking a pill a lot but if it helps you then it's worth it.

I'm sorry to hear you've been sick and you've been having trouble sleeping as a result. I personally have trouble sleeping, often waking up in the middle of the night and not being able to return to sleep or do much of anything since I'm so tired. It's not fun, to say the least, so I can somewhat understand your pain there. But anyways, please enjoy your return. ^^

Feeling a little down. Had to put down two of my animals this week luckily i have anime and friends.

@Nectar thank you! I would love to hear about your insights too though @SleepyLeoulf arigatou sleepy wolfy san! Your entries are much more brilliant though

Brilliant I love this entry~

I hate those nights! For me, they are usually caused by anxiety or health complications. I remember one time I had a sleepless night due to pain (I had a torn tendon) and anxiety about the doctor appointment I had the upcoming morning. I did not sleep at all. What made it worse was that the doctor appointment I was having anxiety about? It was just as bad as I had been worried about. I was miserable so afterwards I just got a doughnut from my favorite local place. Though the pain didn't stop there. I was told to take Aleeve. Which I did, and it ended up causing me to have gallbladder attacks for a week, such terrible pain. Sometimes when I'm so sick I'm delirious and feverish in bed unable to move but also unable to sleep, and those times I usually just have a movie on repeat to help get me through it. However, the method I have found most helpful is if you can't sleep is to get up for a bit, do something distracting, and then go back to bed. Studies show if you can't sleep but you keep laying in bed that it will actually just keep you awake longer. So sleep specialist recommend if you can't fall asleep within 20-40 minutes to get up and do something else for a bit.

I'm happy to hear you've not been feeling as down lately! I have depression, so I can empathize on how hard it is to deal with those emotions or lack of any emotions. It can be hard to get motivated some days, but you can do it! Please keep us updated!

Hmm.. I think its pretty good and cute to me to be honest in my opinion. I tried making them myself before, but was never good at them so I don't now more. Also true practice makes perfect, heh. But not sure If I can afford software for that to make them, but over all I like what you have here.

Nice post, Rye. I am not really depressed, though I do have times when I feel down, but I too am tired of this mentality that positive outlooks will fix anything, so I do not go for that. There is a blogger I found over on Tumblr who has suffered from depression and talks about it and one of the posts he made said that the phrase “you will not always feel the way you do now” has helped some people with their depression.

That's really helpful! Working has been a challenge and I'm glad to learn more skills from it like this. I'm taking a child development course at school right now, so hopefully that will improve my skills. And even more so, trying my best to communicate with my coworkers. I tend to ignore and avoid people I don't like, so I could defintely work on pretending that I like them since working with kids requires a coordinated team. Maybe then I wouldn't be left out as much and feel more comfortable talking to them about work related things.

This is amazing!! I can’t give money but I will share it

This is an amazing thing you're doing and an appeal I'm happy to contribute to. Peter B.

I don't have a guitar but I'd be totally gutted if anything happened to the model railway I've spent the last 4 years building, many of the locos are scratchbuilt by me from plastic card and thus irreplaceable. So I understand your pain and distress.

Really beside just enjoying my summer watching anime, reading manga, playing video games and doing other stuff I don’t really have any plan and probably won’t have any in the future. Just a nice and relaxing summer even thought I might also work.

I feel that man, honestly. I love Fruits Basket, even the remake. 3gatsu no lion IS a great Anime, I think you would like it. If you are into a light yet heavy setting, the anime would be perfect for you.

Wow! Sir ur project sounds very cool , where do plan to publish this project of urs? I'd really like to read it soon. Also do u have a youtube channel irl?

Shikamaru is a close second favourite for me, I'm loving him and Choji's relationship in the Sasuke retrival arc.

Even though I enjoy Konosuba, I get what you’re saying about it being overhyped. Whenever I’ve tried to analyze why I like it as much as I do, I’m unable to come up with a satisfying answer (the only thing that really stands out about the series is how the main characters are jerks to each other most of the time ) Also agree that Overlord is the most refreshing reimagined as a parody/comedy considering how dark and down right disturbing the main series can get at times. I haven’t seen Tanya the Evil or Rezero but still seem to get the gist of the jokes and definitely want to watch them now.

Oh thanks @ArchieKun I actually had a tough time writing it. haha Man writing is hard. Respect to writers and authors everywhere.

I assume these things are mainstream crap said around just to try to feel accomplished whenever they do a minimal positive change... Besides, I don't see the point of starting doing this in "new year", why not months ago when you knew you could have? New year means nothing, it's just a label... If it was your birthday and you want to celebrated how long you've survived, then sure, you might try to do something to improve yourself on the occasion of being good at keeping yourself alive, but new year...? It's also just the excuse for people to do stupid things and later pretend they never happened.

Whoa! Very nice.

I am as well! It’s why I like adding them to my little writings.

Been there, done that. Never did get the hang of it. (Hope that's not too discouraging.) I can make a sandwich. Sometimes I can even successfully heat soup in the microwave. Beyond that.. best not push it. I don't even have the BBQ gene that a lot of guys seem to have. My ancestors must have been the fruit-eaters because that's the only way they could have survived.

Dunno what to say anymore. It's really unfair you have to go through this when you've done nothing to deserve any of it. I'd find whatever makes you happy and enjoy it to it's fullest right now. At least you have a great family to support you. Pets are cool too....I guess I never had any. If I had to deal with all that in my current situation I'd have given up on everything long ago.

That's great that you could write 37 pages in just a few days! I've been turning over a story in my head since high school and I only have a document of rough notes and a few pages of prose to show for it; I keep telling myself that if I wait to write stuff down I can think things over more and make it better, but it's slow going.

You're absolutely right, you know, one of Abraham Lincoln's famous quotes says "Don't get angry, get revenge" and this is my life code. I sum up everything people do to me, I try to add to my mind as many plots as I can think of to have a decent vengeance, but most of the times I end up having mercy for them unfortunately, they didn't deserve it and I regret it often. That ended last year though, and I've been much more firm about this, I always take revenge on someone who's disturbed on purpose either me or someone I care for, that's the only language bad people understand (≧∀≦) . About the second one, it's kind of yes&no... In fact having a healthy life does in fact help you live more comfortably and with less stress, less problems to care about ●﹏● but it does have its limits like everything in this world. You won't become immortal, and dying young is rare but it does happen because certain illnesses are very dangerous and often lead to death no matter how strong your immunitary system is ╥﹏╥ . But please do care about health, as it is literally what allows you to be yourself and show your ideas to the world. Sayonara! （＾∀＾）ゞ

Whaaaaaaaaaaat? Honto? Yeaaaaah, a big sister of one annoying 16 year old and a sweet 9 year old A little mature? Hmmmmmm, maybe Totally agree with this one

Awww Arigato Sleepy Wolfy san! You stay sugoii and well too