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AniMeFReaK

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  1. AniMeFReaK
    So... @SoullessMarshmallow already did an entry on this topic, but thank god it wasn't copyrighted. So here I go.
    There was this guy I met online. He's an AWESOME friend, and when it comes to anime we're basically best buds. So I finally met him in real life after discovering that he was in the same school as I was in. So we kinda started talking, but the convo lasted only a minute. Afterwards I literally ignored him and he ignored me too. All he would do was stare at me. Finally, one day I couldn't take it anymore and asked him why he only stares at me but doesn't talk. And he just responded that he doesn't stare at me, but somebody else. Seriously, I mean, who  DOES THAT?!
    After that we kinda just ignored each other at school but online I was literally telling him EVERYTHING that has been going on with my life. And yeah, we were literally awesome friends online, but in real life... Well, it gets really awkward when he's even ten feet near me.
    Then this one day at school I confessed to him and like everyone, and I literally mean EVERYONE, heard my confession. Now I'm literally being laughed at and it's really hard to avoid those guys.
    So I kinda lost my Instagram (aka I cannot DM anyone anymore since I use Instagram on PC instead of my phone) and now I got "someone" (*cough* @I.Zara2006 *cough*) to talk to him. Now this "someone" told him that I want to talk to him in school. And... Things got REALLY out of hand. Everyday I'm LITERALLY playing Hide 'n Seek with him after we're done with our exams and everyone's just, like, milling around the campus. This was really embarrassing for me.
    After he rejected me I kinda backed out. But now, I feel like I'm not in his "friend circle" or "trustworthy circle" anymore. I just want to be good friends with him. But now, I'm so stressed out about this situation that I CAN'T. THINK. STRAIGHT.
    I did not put any "important" details in here, since he MIGHT be reading this. Who knows?
  2. AniMeFReaK
    Ever since I was a kid I've always had random thoughts swimming around in my mind. And some of them were darker than others... But let's not go into them. So, today I decided to write these random thoughts down. If I wrote them in a piece of paper, they'll always get lost. And since I want to record these thoughts, I'll make an entry about them.
    The most common thing that comes to my mind is the "Life" topic. Sometimes I feel like only I am the real one and everyone else is just an illusion. My life might be a test and everyone around me, they're just obstacles preventing me from getting full marks. There are times when I feel like I am just a character in a fictional book or a show. Maybe the characters in them feel like they're real, but we know that they aren't. Sometimes life feels really cliche, and this supports my theory well enough.
    Not only this, but the fact that I am a living person, how am I able to identify this? What if I myself am an illusion, and everything I'm doing is controlled by someone else? Controlled in such a way that I feel like these thoughts are actually mine?
    Where did I actually come from, if I'm an illusion? What if everything that I believe is a lie? What if all this was transmitted into my mind to make me believe these things?
    I'm feeling dizzy now after thinking about these stuff so much. Guess I'll just end this entry here and make a part 2 later on.
    -AniMeFReaK
    03/05/2018
  3. AniMeFReaK
    Common sayings, or proverbs, are wise sayings that provide advice about how to live our life. Every culture seems to have one. But proverbs are not always right...
    "Two wrongs don't make a right". Heard this one many times before? I did, too. But I am going to call this one wrong. I remember a friend of mine from elementary school. She was always bullied, but she refused to get revenge. She was really nice, you know. But when she didn't take revenge, the goons began to become worse. The knocked her lunch tray out of her hands, and she was forced to be in Plate Duty, which means that you have to clean the plates after lunch is over. They snatched away her breakfast. They ruined everything she owned or made. They started spreading horrible rumors behind her back. I caught a hold of one of them, which told me that my friend had "made out with Jaime (a guy I used to know)". Seriously, we were in elementary school back then! But the bullying didn't stop there. They started spreading rumors to the teachers too. The teachers, being dumb, believed them. My friend moved away after I told her everything.
    Now, if she had taken her revenge, she would've been fine. A girl told me that those goons bullied more people but stopped when their bullies stood up to them. They were very weak and crybabies, but they won't stop bullying you until you get your revenge. See what I mean?
    The next one is "An apple a day keeps the doctor away". This one is very common. But this one is wrong too. When I was 7 years old and in Singapore, there was a woman I used to know. Her name was Adrielle, and she was the healthiest person I knew. She always ate fresh fruits and vegetables. She exercised everyday, and never drank alcohol or smoked. She was really nice too. One day, when I went out to take out the trash, Adrielle invited me inside to have some tea with her. She gave me delicious cupcakes to take home and told me to visit her again. But two years back, I heard that she had died of breast cancer.
    But you tell me, why did Adrielle get breast cancer? She always ate fruits and vegetables, and exercised daily. She never drank or smoked. She was really healthy, and was ought to die at an old age, not at the age of thirty seven!
    My point is that the person who made proverbs are idiots. The real life is not cliche, it's blood, sweat and tears. It's not some fairy tale/tail where you just do the nice things and live happily every after. It's not like that. In real life you have to take ricks and trust your instincts. Only in that way will you be able to get a happily ever after.
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    I'm pretty sure you had a sleepless night at least once in your life. If you didn't and you aren't a dead guy like @Wodahs-oto sama, well, I envy you and you're sure to have a sleepless night tonight. Moving on!
    Sleepless nights are a pain in the butt. When you have a sleepless night and feel sleepy later in the day, well, anyone can get frustrated. Just like I am right now. I feel so sleepy that I'm practically yawning my head off. Anyway, sleepless nights. Sleepless nights. Sleepless nights. Sleepless nights. Sleepless nights. *keeps on repeating "sleepless nights"*
    Moving on!
    The reason people have sleepless nights is mostly because of high sugar intake right before bed or looking at your phone/computer/laptop/tablet computer right before bed. But there are times when you get sleepless nights from tension or when you think about something very...weird. Like sometimes before I go to bed I have a lot of weird thoughts. Sometimes i feel like I am the only on in this world who is real. Everyone and everything else is just an illusion. Whenever I think this way, yelp, hello sleepless nights! But sleepless nights aren't all bad. If you have had a sleepless night at least once in your life you'll be safe from the sleepless night I'll give you!
    So just remember, if you haven't had a sleepless nights even once in your life, I'll make sure to give you one! Always remember, if you can't sleep and are having a sleepless night, just get out of your bed and do something extremely boring. Studies show that you feel sleepy when you do something extremely boring. Oh, and never take sleep pills without a doctor's permission. And one more thing, sleepless nights aren't the same as insomnia. Now, have a very sleepy night! Unless you've never had a sleepless night before, that is...
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    So this one day when I was laying down in my bed, daydreaming, I suddenly remembered about my childhood passion of singing. I couldn't sing then, and now I still can't, but for some reason I had a thing for music, which hasn't changed yet.  I was, and still am, the only one who looked forward to our weekly music classes. For me music was, and still is, the key to life. We had an old busted radio when I was younger. Nobody even looked at it, so I was the only one to listened to the 1970s hits. I still remember that I used to sit in an old rocking chair and listen to the radio with a cup of milk in my hands (I was trying to act like a grownup!) while the radio blared some popular 1970s songs like "How Deep is Your Love" by Bee Gees and such. I listened to the oldies back then because I didn't know about the new songs like "Clumsy" by Fergie (it's one of my favorites now!) or "Bad Day" by Daniel Powter (This one's a golden!). But I'll admit that I soon forgot about all those songs after i tasted my first up-to-date song back in 2009. It was "21 Guns" by Green day and I still love the song. After that I thought that the oldies were disgusting and weird. But my passion for music hasn't changed, even though I have a few picks of oldies that I love now and hate the rest. But sometimes, when I come across "It's My Life" by Bon Jovi or "Summer of 69" by Bryan Adams I just can't help forgetting about all the new pop songs. I just sing along with the song and remember all those good ol' days of my old busted radio. My busted radio was just a start, I have a long journey ahead of music me...
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    We all have memories, don't we? Some of them are sad, some are happy, some are angry and some are embarrassing. When we remember a memory we become happy, sad, angry or even bury our head in shame. Memories are so much more valuable than you think. These golden things can change the way we feel. Say, for instance, that you're depressed and you suddenly remember a funny memory. Your expression changes from "Life really sucks..." to "WTF?! LMAO!!!" Oh. Wait. I just remembered a memory right now. I remember i was in 1st grade. It was raining and S (my so-called best friend) and I couldn't go play so we sat inside. Inside where we sat there were a lot of parents and some kids aged 4-6. I just took hold of S and started kissing her. On the lips. In front of those parents and kids. In our country being gay or lesbian meant that you had some kind of mental illness or you were harassing your partner. If they saw you do these stuff they would either take you to a mental hospital or to the police. And I kissed S in front of all those people. Think about that for a while.
    Done thinking? Okay. Moving on. So anyway, where were we? Oh yes. Memories. Okay, so what would happen if you didn't have memories? Well, one second you'd be all lovey-doyey and the next you'd be like "OMFG WHO THE HELL ARE YOU?!!" That would totally ruin your chances of getting married and having kids. But if you did get married, you won't remember how to have kids. So  you'd go around asking "Where do babies come from?" like a five year old. So let's be real, okay? You can't simply survive without your memories. Except I'm pretty sure I can live with the memory mentioned above.
    Is this how you right a blog? I really don't know how to since this is my first time writing a blog. Hey kids, I live in a cave and I'm your ancestor! Yay! Hello great-times-infinity grandmother! Okay. Shoo, get out of here!
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