SleepyLeoulf

Happy thanksgiving to you as well!

And the same to you!

Time feels a bit slow to me right now, but it has definitely flown by. I hope things go well for you too.

One things that helps me to enjoy things is to just expect the very minimum and determine if it met that or not.

@brycec I see and thank you. 

You’re welcome.

@Vivi Hyuuga I see, I have bad night's pretty much ALL the time since I suffer with insomnia and take medication for it but also have chronic nightmares to do my past and just also my strong imagination. It really does suck but I've been dealing with it my whole life. Though it got more intense after I finished high school. But I'm learning to live with it since there really isnt much anyone can do for me for my dreams that is.. But I try to do positive things and also think positive during the day so I don't dream too bad of stuff, It works sometimes.  My step cousin is Autistic and he had a rough time when he got adopted from my step grandparents but improved a lot these past years. I was thinking about getting a hedgehog once but they seem like a lot of work so I deiced not too. That's cool though you have some though. Well I hope your day improves and becomes more relaxing for you. Take care and thank you for the comment. 

That type of severe insomnia sounds so terrible. I have a friend who has it that severe. I have dealt with insomnia some off and one, but with the help of a sleep specialist, I was able to figure out a sleep schedule that my body needs, and since then as long as I stick to that I do fine most of the time. 
My younger sister started having nightmares due to her worsening health. It's really sad, she's had to sleep with Christmas lights on for over a year now. I feel bad that on top of all her other issues (she goes into anaphylaxis frequently) that she has to deal with that. I can't imagine.
Yeah, actually my ISFP sister had a really rough time with her autism after a difficult family situation. It's been four years now and she's made a lot of progress!
Hedgehogs do take a lot more work than people realize! Three of the hedgehogs I have I was given because people could no longer give them the time and attention they need. 

@Vivi Hyuuga Yeah it does suck and its hard for me at times, I wont lie. But it is what it is.  I'm sorry about your younger sister that must of been rough. Also good for your other sister that she made a lot of progress that's always good. True, I read up on them but they are cute I think. I have a big heart for all small animals, and owned a lot over the years. My pet rats ( bless them ) had to be put asleep due to tumors and they just got weaker so it had to be done. It was really sad for me to lose them since they helped me a lot they made me smile and laugh but it was there time. But I always remember them each day and what joy they brought me even in my darkest hours.. And very kind of you to take some in since people couldn't care for them. 

I feel very bad for you but I wish you the best, you seem to be taking it very well and you are a kind and understanding person; You inspire me with your attitude, we all go through bad days, some more than others, but you are strong and inspirational. I am glad I met you, thank you for posting everyday and letting your friends and acquaintances alike know how you are doing. I never intend on leaving you and I enjoy helping out or trying the best I can to do so. We all can learn from our experiences but I know some of us waste the chance to do so, I am glad you learn from things especially bad things that happen. We must become stronger from what we experience, I will pray for you and be here for you, have a fantastic day you sassy She-wolf you.  

You don’t really need to feel welcome anywhere. You just need to be happy with and accept yourself, because not everyone will. We all might be deeply flawed creatures that complicate matters because of our emotions and we think there is more to something, but we are all perfect the way we are, even you.

It does help to have some outside help though, so I would be willing to listen if you need it. Just remember that there might be others that will accept, regardless of whether they just want to remain friends or not.

Speaking as one who has been on both sides of this, (I've been abandoned by people and I've abandoned people), I must say that sometimes, the people who does the abandoning feel like they are doing what's best for the person. With me, it's usually that feeling that "they'll be better off without me" or "they don't want my friendship" Doesn't matter if it's true or not. I'm well aware of how much it hurts. You'll eventually move on.

Out of everybody I've abandoned and who have abandoned me, I have never regretted meeting any of them. Each person had a profound effect on my life. I wouldn't be the person I am without them. I'm sure the person who left you felt like they were doing the best thing for you. Not to hurt you but to help you.

When I got to my darkest place and wanted to end it all, I came to a sudden realization. I don't need anybody to be happy. I can be happy and love myself all on my own. Sure having somebody else is nice but how they treat you shouldn't affect your sense of self-worth. You are special even if the world tells you that you aren't.

Here's some advice, start your day off with a smile. Read a joke, look at a picture you like, do something silly like pretending your spoon is an airplane. Think about the good things instead of the bad things.

People are as happy as they choose to be.

@Ryuji @brycec I appreciate you both and your advice and take on the manner and you are both right and I agree and understand what you are saying. I had a lot of conversations with people last night about the issue my older sister included and all of you are right. I'm just now going move forward and put this behind me. They did what they had to do and also said what they had to say. Some of it I don't agree since it could of been done a different way but... it was said and now its done. I wont speak ill of them ever and never did. ( If I did somehow I deeply apologize ) but just was hurt since I thought they were my friend or best friend they said to me and would be there even in bad times.. I guess they weren't ready or ready for a friend like me. Again all my opinion and I can be wrong, It's just how I feel is all.. But I did before make myself happy by doing stuff I love so again I'll do that and I don't always need people to make me enjoy my life. True, I wont lie I like having friends still since people can make me happy as well but I know I don't always need that. It will be tough but I know I can get through this and just move on from it. Again thank you all so much for your advice and also trying to help me. Just going do me for a while and if I make another friend then awesome but if not I know I can enjoy life still with not one right away at this time.