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ncov status in PH: 800+
its not as bad as other countries, e.g. USA (who just got reported to have 85k Ncov peeps)
but i mean, i also saw on the news, one american guy going.. "if my time has come, then my time has come" while drinking some shots and being near other people in the beach
man talk about being a dum-dum, its a live virus we talking about that has no cure, thats like saying, "im gonna have smex with this STD + girl, and if i get HIV, then i get HIV"
no wonder US got more cases than china >.>
but yea, not what i wanted to say, just wanted to report that ncov in ph is pretty much 850+
aside from that, lesseee, i finished Touhou Mother, and it was fun as hekk, especially the ending, which im drawing a 3-page drawing of my reaction on it (couse i felt it would be fun >.<)
and...thats about it ? <_>
remember minna-chan~, practice social distancing, practice your happy birthday song while washing hands, and if your hands are visibly stained, throw in -OH in it (alcohol)
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probably art, and making games those two are my main passion ..maybe playing game's and animu too as for activities, i think im an expert at being average at anything i do, gimme something to do, ill fail it, but i also will pass it, im an averagist (that's a new word now xD), being the average guy who can do anything -- but not excell at anything, is what i am made for ;o
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DONE!
that was a fun experience, i learned a bit on art, and improved on it
it toke me a week, and and
last night scared me couse,
MY FILE GOT CORRUPTED
LIKE NO JOKE MY HEART STOPPED FOR A MINUTE AND I DIED INSIDE
luckily i was revived when i saw they auto backup stuff >.>
so i didn't have to reset it 100%
now that this is done, i can play touhou mother, im taking a break today, so yknow,
#relaxationfromstudies
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so doing the "favorite operator" drawing thing that's somewhat famous in reddit /ark/ place
saw it months ago, but didn't have time to do it, couse yknow...
boards
but with boards canceled, i now have time to draw my favorite operators
was thinking of making a thread about this, but decided not to, couse i might be the only one who plays arknights, and its a draw-your-favorite-operator >.>...
nonetheless, just wanted to say im doing this
heres the template incase anyone wants to do it too
i guess you could also change it to FGO-servants if you wanted too, like, favorite servant ?
just a thought
im doing favorite operators tho' ;o
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OH !
i almost forgot to mention, our current status in PH, atleast in my area status,
we are in a 1-month quarantine (due to there being 3 case's of NCoV-19), our area is now under lockdown (though, perfectly correct time is, quarantined for a month)
everyone has hoarded alcohol, toilet papers, and is mostlikely panic-mode
meanwhile im here, chill af >.>
its not like stores will be shut down at the moment, so there's no real reason to panic, yet
and as for alcohol stock, i could always go to the hospital i intern'ed and help a bit, and ask for some for house
they are understaffed, though thanks to lockdown, im not sure if i can even reach there yet ? (its somewhat far)
maybe army will listen if i say im a volunteer, maybe they wont, eitherway, there's no real reason to go outside yet
especially for a hikikomori like me <_>
just wanted to update you guys of my current status, aside from cancelation of boards
ofcouse, im still studying, this morning i just answered 100+ questions on hematology, out of 300 questions (im stacking it all), i got 170/300, i say this is good, seeing as the questions was
holysh*twhatthef*ckisthis
like it felt harder than board exam questions >.>... was able to translate hard questions too, so theres that
some questions though, some were just wierd as hell
asking about ""color plate" stuff.. >.>
heres an example of what the questions was like ;o
notice, question #193
how do you answer that, like, what am i suppose to look at, what plate >.>
there was like 20 questions of those, that i had to guess smh
so yea, i take that score as a win, especially how hard this exam was
im gonna study more tomorrow, gonna go ISBB next >:o
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so my boards got postponed due to the COV-19
goddemet im so ready to take boards and it gets delayed >.>
PRC has yet to announce the new schedule for my boards
incase you didn't know, one im taking is for RMT (medical technologist, or to quote a exam question i had in the choices, the R stood for....REENGINERED
but yea, if my calculations are right (which they are usually wrong), itll be around a month or two for new board exam sched (assuming i count it with how long others got postponed aswell)
but it could also be sooner, officially, we still have to wait for PRC's final call
this is balls though, i was so ready to take boards, now i gotta keep studying for longer q^q
someonekillme.meme
on the side note, ima just study chillaxingly, doing Q and A's, couse thats the part i need to study the most atm, just question and answers >:o
obligatory post song share~
animation is top tier though, holycrap
OH AND WHILE WERE ON THAT TOPIC
i got Ch'en on arknights, while in the bathroom, (few days ago)
and im unsure if i shared it, but ima share it again, IM SO LUCKY TO GET HER JESUS
currently; gonna throw all my resources onto her E2 upgrade
then ill throw all my exp items on maxing my current units, so they can be more better
i still have yet to get ptilopsis, warfarin, skyfire, and eyja (and i rolled on eyja banner, alas, she didn't come home, ch'en did tho <3)
i must share my current squad >:o
Im lucky enough to get both skadi and specter, funny thing is...i didnt even roll on their banner, yet both of them came home
This seriously scared me, but also made me scream >.>
May aswell drop these too
the main lounge of base, because why not (funny thing is its not the highest ambiance buff)
2nd room (also highest ambiance/morale restore) i just threw stuff from event here
okay, i never really wanted to do ch'ens room, and even if i did, i didn't wanna do an exact replica (ruins the edit if i just copy others)
BUT WHEN I GOT CH'EN I JUST MADE IT, THE POWER OF COMING HOME IS STRONK
and this is the penguin logistics base
because
#penguinlogisticsbestlogistics
frostleaf is still bae tho'
this turned from sharing my cancelation of boards, to a game share
jesus ryu, wtf >.>
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not joking, I was actually asking myself about whether or not your board exam would be postponed just today! (was thinking about the two deadlines that are coming up and was reminded that you had the exams as well)
Anyway, on the one side it means more studying, but then again now you have a bit more time to study as well, if there are areas which you haven't covered thoroughly
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it sure got postponed, which is a double dagger, it sucks, but it also is good news for other's who are not ready to take it and require more time to study (i know a few)
two deadlines ?!, so like, you have two exams to take ?, aww crap, im wishing you luck (assuming it is exams, if not, im still wishing you luck >.<)
but yea, i pretty much covered majority of the stuff i need to study
(not minding for the other minor topics...like semen topics, fungi's, virus's and that's some huge mathematical stuff that will most likely not be asked, or if asked, only once >_<)
so im only doing Q and A's now to get better at eliminating question's that are clearly not right
i will probably continue onto this path of studying too, with sometimes reading my notes, but just a really quick read on the notes
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But yea
2 weeks for boards
#hypetopassandgetmylicense
Also i got fat :s
i stopped jogging a month or two ago, to focus on studying, and well
I GAINED 10KG, THIS IS BLASPHEMY
i was 70kg, now im 80kg, gimmebackmyweightmeeeeeeee <anger>
Also cant sleep, shoulda been asleep like 3hours ago, but i got the cold feet syndrome/restless feet syndrome
Atleast, my cure for this is staying up all night and morning so that next night, im knocked out
But, well, thats a risky move, seeing as boards is so close...
So ima buy some heat pack or something, or borrow dads >.>
Gonna try AC (aircon) whole night for two days too, if AC helps, then ima pay dad for electric bills that will increase from me abusing AC at night (electric bills aint cheappu >.>)
On the fun note, CHECK OUT THE GOODIES I GOTS
2HOU STICKERS AND ACRYLICS
ALSO TEXAS (from arknights) ACRYLIC!
Especially the koishi and kokoro stickers, they are mai waipu
feel so happi :3
p.s. Dont mind the dirty stuff in background, it comes with studying >.>
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I HAVE MISCALCULATED
TOMORROW IS THE SIMULATED BOARD EXAM
AND 18TH
LMAO im effed
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XII360 changed their profile photo
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and also,
there are more, but for now ill post these two
1st one is really 10/10, sisterly love, BUT DONT BE FOOLED, PROTAGONIST-KUN WAS KILLED BY THESE TWO CUTE DEVILS
would die in their mansion/10
2nd is, youmou fighting herself because work requires her to, is some real sh*t
10/10 nonetheless
recently got into touhou <again> (after what i just said, it probably is obvious >_<)
because of a game, that i wont be mentioning
but it helped me understand touhou better, and i am now officially a fan <again> >.>
though, this time i have a better understanding of it
best girl's are still kokoro, and reisin, fitemi
but yea ill probably read some novels/games of touhou after boards, its on my list now >: D
aside from my randomly getting into touhou, im still studying hard
i feel hella ready, unsure if i posted it before, but my scores are nice-nice-nice-nice-meme tier
2 day's from now we also have a simulated board exam (its just a simulation on how real boards will go, i know the feel so it doesn't bother me as much, what im after is the exam they will give out, i wanna ace that, it'll tell me if im really ready or not, but i feel i am, compared to last year >; o)
anywho, that's all i wanted to..share i think !?!?
cant wait to end these soon, just one month to go -=\^_^/=-
first thing im doing, aside from downloading some touhou games, IS FIX MY OC SHEETS
oh and, for those playing arknight's, im also playing it
add me
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had s5 had s6 had s7active and now im skipping and went straight to note 10+ because having the latest phone for once isn't so bad <_> i even customized its case dozo, an image of my phone's case, yes i placed 3 straps in it, ITS STYLISH also comfy tbh
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「チョコレートミントアイス 」! ! !
{chocominto iceeeee}
lowkey kinda fun so wanted to share it >.>
onee-san got mad at her though
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Tomorrow is last day of review center !
So far, based on scores i get on exams, i feel confident ill pass this time, compared to first time (50-90/200), i always get 50-70% now (100-150/200),
With the exception on parasitology, seems to have been my lowest in the review center, following isbb (cant remember, but i didnt get 50%, rather 40% ?)
Eitherway ima keep studying to pass boards this march
Also bought some jackets, couse, jacket is laif for a hikikomori
I cant be the only one who feels naked, when im not wearing one outside, right ?
I feel protected when i wear a jacket outside (like how a kid feels protected hiding in their blanket xD)
Also UV light protection, muh skin needs to be protected after allll >.<
Started playing arknights too, not fully focused on it, im still 100% studies, but its a fun tower defense game so far, i get the kancolle vibe, but with tower defense mechanism rather than no control on shipfus
Also no permanent sinking/death if you push through (they should do a mode like this, it would add more pressure >.>....)
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So lost a close friend
Got blocked and all
And...it would have affected me badly, sadly, i made my best friends worry too much
So i decided to forget her, she didn't cherish our friendship enough as much as i did
And if a mere confession destroys our friendship, then she aint meant to be my friend >.>
Funny thing is, when she said, *she never disowned me as a friend*
Yknow, that says allot when you suddenly block me, after 1 month of not talking
Sure my actions were a bit drastic (like burning my cosmatsu ticket,) but what did you expect, you didn't talk to me or assure me, i was left hanging/ditched, and whats worse is when i dmed her, she just *seen* it, she didnt reply back, until i actually texted her
Funny thing is, if we were still friends after my stuff, that would make us hella closer as friends, couse she knows me so much, and i know her allot, and we fought with one another but still ended up as friends
But nope, thats not the case, when shit hits the fan, she just ignores me for a month, i panic and do stupud shit, she tries to defend herself, and then i feel bad about what i did, and then she ignores me till we met up, and then after meeting up, blocks me
Well
Not gonna let her shenanigans bother, im not dissing her btw, shes by far the best girl i met
I just have to tell myself i hate her, to not feel anything
Also on the way home, i kept repeating to myself, *you cant break something, that is already broken*
Couse i mean, im already broken, so losing a friend, being rejected, that wont destroy me more xDDD
Also also, the omamori thingy ?, i toke it down, it didn't work at all, i wished for *things to go back to normal between us*
WELL IT DID THE TOTAL 180DEGREE OF MY WISH
cant say i expected it to work, i rarely believe in things nowadays <.>
but anywhooooo
Daz all
I got
To share
For today
Im off to sleep, couse review sentar calls theeeee
Naito everyone☆
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Sometimes we meet someone truly great and we think we're meant to be together. But we then find the gears just don't line up. That doesn't mean anything is wrong with either of you; some people aren't as compatible as they might appear, and although the gears might turn a few times together, eventually, they become so unaligned that they risk destroying one another. In that case, it may be best to separate so that you can repair the damage, turn freely a while to reassure yourself that you can, and try another gear when you're ready.
I'm sorry for you losing a friend, especially in the way you did. Nobody deserves to be treated so harshly with no explanation. But give yourself time to grieve and give yourself time to heal. Hurting is part of healing, and it's okay to feel hurt, anger, sadness, all the emotions that come with it. Let yourself feel it. It's the natural course. Don't force yourself to undercut that healing process by forcing yourself to feel any one way, or forcing yourself to "forgive" or any fluffed up bullcrap people like Eva Kor preach. You are valid, you were wronged, and it doesn't mean anything is wrong with you for having feelings about it.
Stay in touch my dude. You help heal people for a living. Give yourself that same care. You are a badass.
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@WedgyI mean, yea i felt hella sad the first day it happened, (first time she told me to not talk to her) depression actually toke a hold off me, to the point i started cutting myself
(see spoiler, not gonna post old pics of where blood is fresh, its too graphically grotesque, unless...people wanna see it...?)
But after december, (well, more of around december 28th) i noticed my best friend (both online and RL classmate) got worried about me, which they dont usually do, and seeing them worried and saying stuff like *stop being stupid*, *dont die*, it kind of woke me up from depression, which in turn, helped me stop hurting myself, and also lead me to the point where i told myself *i did my best, if she does not want to be friends, i want to end this friendship*
10% of me was still sad, but 90% was me having made up my mind that *i made my real friends worry too much*
And then the designated day happened where she met with me IRL, returned some of my stuff, gave me a note, and suggested i read it in house, and while walking home, got blocked
I did tell her personally too, that if we cant go back to being friends, then i want to officially end it,(and man, did i inhale, and exhale allot just to hide the fact i kind of wanted to cry that day ?, and also the power to tell her i want to end things if its impossible to mend things)
she didnt give me a straight answer (since her answer was already written in the note), and yea
Thats where i just spam told myself, *i cant be broken further, im already broken*, while walking home/running (since i needed a huge distraction, and what better way than to fatigue myself, by way of "pushing it to the limit" ?
And i mean, i may have then started thinking, *why should i help focus on helping others, i should focus on myself more, after all, the groupmates in internship dont even remember me, i gave everyone a keychain in hopes for better bond, but i then i got forgotten,
During christmas party in hospital, i asked for a old groupmates pic, to which everyone seemed *too busy* to stay in one place for the group picture, to which i just got semi mad and left, (they probably didn't notice i was mad, couse i didnt show it, i just *acted cool and left*
couse i mean, i kept going room to room, calling them, and when i come back, i find the guys i called before current one's, have already left and are talking to other people, and i felt like i was the only one who cared and wanted a group picture
So yea, i just left it, out of anger, i decided that i would away my group 3 keychain (which is the very thing i gave everyone, the customized keychain with *their name, and group 3*, spoilers for image of keychain
But yea, one thing will never change, i may focus on myself more often now, and wont randomly help people as often as i used too, out of fear that ill just be used again
But
Ill still give a helping hand to those that <actually> need one and to those that im close to
Otherwise, as big as my heart is, im gonna have to close this to avoid feeling more betrayal feels >.>
And, as much as possible, i wanna avoid anyone from the group i used to be at
That is, the main reason i threw away my keychain anyway, to throw it all away and start anew
But yea, i just closed my heart on her, if i ever see her in cosmatsu carnival (since i plan to cosplay, theres a chance ill see her), im gonna go ahead and ignore her
I dont wanna feel the pain again, not after i escaped it and is able to tell such tales >.>....
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Anyone got an idea on how makeup shiz works ?
Not gonna do it anytime soon, but im gonna cosplay in next matsuri, and ill need some makeups for the cosplay
And your boi got no clue how make up work
Incidentally, if your in ph, hit me up so we can both go to next matsuri
ITLL BE A PH-AF MEETUP?!?!?!
Toshi is the character i plan to cosplay as BTW
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Sekiro Just sekiro Need i say more ?
they were just too weird and everything was too similar with fungi
