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so fair warning, this is a fanboy/girl moment

AHHHHHHH I GOT ML ANGELICAAAA

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

*breaths*

...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I CANT BELIEVE SHE ACTUALLY CAME HOME, I ONLY DID ONE ROLL AND SHE ACTUALLY DID COME HOME, AND I WASNT EVEN THINKING WHEN I PRESSED IT AND
SADKOASDASD "girly screams"

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

also, before ML angelica/sinful angelica, S. tenebria came home, but i wasnt really aiming for her, but its still nice she went home, but i really wanted ML angelica more than ML teneb, couse, i mean

my team set needed ML angelica more than S teneb,

so yea, i still invested on S. teneb, BUT NOW I GUESS I DONT NEED TOO ?! (still will to respect mai waifu >.>)

this day cant get any better can it ?

quarantine in PH got extended to may 15

not that it bothers a closet freak like me much, tbh >.>

didn't feel like scripting today, was in a bad mood, so decided to draw one of the characters in game im trying to make

also, 

this is a pudding commercial song

and its catchy >.>

su- sugoi~

but yea, daily song posto~

is what i wanna say, but im gonna sleep >.>

just finished editing some script for game i wanna make, couse the beginning was blegh-ish, had to proof read my stuff too

it was badly written it was perfectly fine though~

also did few arts for it, and by few, i mean like two sketches >.>

#flashakiddydrawingofPeRMiT

but no for reals, ima get my daily nepnep >.>

still, my sched keeps flying around, im playing touhou labry, story making, studying, YT, daily eroge (latest one has given me some good ideas too) and stuff

how do people do everything >.>

just here to post a song~

as per usual~!

i got no stories to share, if your wondering >.>

miiiitsuuukeeetaaaaaaaa

idk im just singing along with a song in my mind

right what was i gonna write here again

huh, i totally forgot, but im sure i was gonna post something, or share >.>

welp since i cant remember, have this eirin song post

edit: oh right, i forgot i did blue background, but i already uploaded it everywhere, and i dont wanna be assed on re-uploading...it will have to do >_>...

But yea

Went outside to buy paymaya load for my gacha phone load needs

And recorded a bit while heading home

(edit; last vid wouldn't upload properly and gave me black screen, so i just recorded from phone and BYPASSED the SYSTEM

#hackerman)

Dozo~

hope everyone's doing fine under the quarantine, remember to wash your hands!

and not just opening faucet, few rubs with soap, and then turning faucet of, nay!

remember the happy birthday song!

sing it twice while washing hands

and you should be clean as a birthday boy's innocent first birthday cake

(i dont really know how innocent they are >.>)

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but yea, been writing script for game project i been wanting to make since who knows how long ago (but it's been longer than a year, that's for sure!)

aside from that, there is no new updates from moi amore~

also also also also

obligatory song post that i dont remember if i have posted already but will still post because

reasons : D

atashi no done with comic~

i-i was gonna redraw yukari, but

i totally didn't get...lazy >.>...

first comic i ever did, since i started my lame artist hubbie~  

though, tomorrow, i plan on writing a script on the game i wanna make

should focus on that before characters, but i already have some characters, and i drew what they look like, like chest-chan (i posted what they look like here xD)

as for the story, i just had an idea while taking a poop in the booptroom (bathroom)

sooo, yea

DOZO~

also, hope everyone's doing well in the recent events of NCOV-19

i sure am, i would do my part in helping, but im unlicensed, and i fear if i go outside, i wont be coming home anytime soon (which i dont mind tbh)

problem is, SOMEONE decided to sell my FACEMASKS

so yea, going outside naked feels bad (being maskless, is pretty much like going outside naked, especially since we dunno' if someone sneezed in an area and stuff)

but yea, my best part is, just staying home, studying, playing, and rooting for the front-liners safety

but yea, semi played a wierd touhou game, by wierd i mean, eroge-ish, but dynasty-warrior-ish, that's text base

it was fun to complete it a second time

which derailed me from the comic i was making

sooooo, posting a partial of it, im remaking clothing, and size couse i screwed up on the head size/body >.>

for some reason, the panel 1 has right body stuff

but middle went tiny

and i am triggered if i upload such acts

give take, new clothing design, mainly collar

its still funny couse, i swear to god, i was making a male character, based on me, it ended up becoming a girl

...so in a way, i guess i drew a genderbent me ?

now that's messed up

ncov status in PH: 800+

its not as bad as other countries, e.g. USA (who just got reported to have 85k Ncov peeps)

but i mean, i also saw on the news, one american guy going.. "if my time has come, then my time has come" while drinking some shots and being near other people in the beach

man talk about being a dum-dum, its a live virus we talking about that has no cure, thats like saying, "im gonna have smex with this STD + girl, and if i get HIV, then i get HIV"

no wonder US got more cases than china >.>

but yea, not what i wanted to say, just wanted to report that ncov in ph is pretty much 850+

aside from that, lesseee, i finished Touhou Mother, and it was fun as hekk, especially the ending, which im drawing a 3-page drawing of my reaction on it (couse i felt it would be fun >.<)

and...thats about it ? <_>

remember minna-chan~, practice social distancing, practice your happy birthday song while washing hands, and if your hands are visibly stained, throw in -OH in it (alcohol)

DONE!

that was a fun experience, i learned a bit on art, and improved on it

it toke me a week, and and

last night scared me couse, 

MY FILE GOT CORRUPTED

LIKE NO JOKE MY HEART STOPPED  FOR A MINUTE AND I DIED INSIDE

luckily i was revived when i saw they auto backup stuff >.>

so i didn't have to reset it 100%

now that this is done, i can play touhou mother, im taking a break today, so yknow, 

#relaxationfromstudies

so doing the "favorite operator" drawing thing that's somewhat famous in reddit /ark/ place

saw it months ago, but didn't have time to do it, couse yknow...

boards

but with boards canceled, i now have time to draw my favorite operators

was thinking of making a thread about this, but decided not to, couse i might be the only one who plays arknights, and its a draw-your-favorite-operator >.>...

nonetheless, just wanted to say im doing this

heres the template incase anyone wants to do it too

i guess you could also change it to FGO-servants if you wanted too, like, favorite servant ?

just a thought

im doing favorite operators tho' ;o

so my boards got postponed due to the COV-19 

goddemet im so ready to take boards and it gets delayed >.>
PRC has yet to announce the new schedule for my boards

incase you didn't know, one im taking is for RMT (medical technologist, or to quote a exam question i had in the choices, the R stood for....REENGINERED 

but yea, if my calculations are right (which they are usually wrong), itll be around a month or two for new board exam sched (assuming i count it with how long others got postponed aswell)

but it could also be sooner, officially, we still have to wait for PRC's final call

this is balls though, i was so ready to take boards, now i gotta keep studying for longer q^q

someonekillme.meme

on the side note, ima just study chillaxingly, doing Q and A's, couse thats the part i need to study the most atm, just question and answers >:o 

obligatory post song share~

animation is top tier though, holycrap

OH AND WHILE WERE ON THAT TOPIC

i got Ch'en on arknights, while in the bathroom, (few days ago)

and im unsure if i shared it, but ima share it again, IM SO LUCKY TO GET HER JESUS

currently; gonna throw all my resources onto her E2 upgrade

then ill throw all my exp items on maxing my current units, so they can be more better

i still have yet to get ptilopsis, warfarin, skyfire, and eyja (and i rolled on eyja banner, alas, she didn't come home, ch'en did tho <3)

i must share my current squad >:o

Im lucky enough to get both skadi and specter, funny thing is...i didnt even roll on their banner, yet both of them came home

This seriously scared me, but also made me scream >.>

May aswell drop these too

the main lounge of base, because why not (funny thing is its not the highest ambiance buff)

2nd room (also highest ambiance/morale restore) i just threw stuff from event here

okay, i never really wanted to do ch'ens room, and even if i did, i didn't wanna do an exact replica (ruins the edit if i just copy others)

BUT WHEN I GOT CH'EN I JUST MADE IT, THE POWER OF COMING HOME IS STRONK

and this is the penguin logistics base

because

#penguinlogisticsbestlogistics

frostleaf is still bae  tho'

this turned from sharing my cancelation of boards, to a game share

jesus ryu, wtf >.>

But yea

2 weeks for boards

#hypetopassandgetmylicense

Also i got fat :s

i stopped jogging a month or two ago, to focus on studying, and well

I GAINED 10KG, THIS IS BLASPHEMY

i was 70kg, now im 80kg, gimmebackmyweightmeeeeeeee <anger>

Also cant sleep, shoulda been asleep like 3hours ago, but i got the cold feet syndrome/restless feet syndrome

Atleast, my cure for this is staying up all night and morning so that next night, im knocked out

But, well, thats a risky move, seeing as boards is so close...

So ima buy some heat pack or something, or borrow dads >.>

Gonna try AC (aircon) whole night for two days too, if AC helps, then ima pay dad for electric bills that will increase from me abusing AC at night (electric bills aint cheappu >.>)

On the fun note, CHECK OUT THE GOODIES I GOTS

2HOU STICKERS AND ACRYLICS

ALSO TEXAS (from arknights) ACRYLIC!

Especially the koishi and kokoro stickers, they are mai waipu

feel so happi :3

p.s. Dont mind the dirty stuff in background, it comes with studying >.>

I HAVE MISCALCULATED

TOMORROW IS THE SIMULATED BOARD EXAM

AND 18TH

LMAO im effed

and also,

there are more, but for now ill post these two

1st one is really 10/10, sisterly love, BUT DONT BE FOOLED, PROTAGONIST-KUN WAS KILLED BY THESE TWO CUTE DEVILS

would die in their mansion/10

2nd is, youmou fighting herself because work requires her to, is some real sh*t

10/10 nonetheless

recently got into touhou <again> (after what i just said, it probably is obvious >_<)

because of a game, that i wont be mentioning

but it helped me understand touhou better, and i am now officially a fan <again> >.>

though, this time i have a better understanding of it

best girl's are still kokoro, and reisin, fitemi

but yea ill probably read some novels/games of touhou after boards, its on my list now >: D

aside from my randomly getting into touhou, im still studying hard

i feel hella ready, unsure if i posted it before, but my scores are nice-nice-nice-nice-meme tier

2 day's from now we also have a simulated board exam (its just a simulation on how real boards will go, i know the feel so it doesn't bother me as much, what im after is the exam they will give out, i wanna ace that, it'll tell me if im really ready or not, but i feel i am, compared to last year >; o)

anywho, that's all i wanted to..share i think !?!?

cant wait to end these soon, just one month to go -=\^_^/=-

first thing im doing, aside from downloading some touhou games, IS FIX MY OC SHEETS

oh and, for those playing arknight's, im also playing it

add me 

「チョコレートミントアイス 」! ! !

{chocominto iceeeee}

lowkey kinda fun so wanted to share it >.>

onee-san got mad at her though  

Tomorrow is last day of review center !

So far, based on scores i get on exams, i feel confident ill pass this time, compared to first time (50-90/200), i always get 50-70% now (100-150/200),

With the exception on parasitology, seems to have been my lowest in the review center, following isbb (cant remember, but i didnt get 50%, rather 40% ?)

Eitherway ima keep studying to pass boards this march

Also bought some jackets, couse, jacket is laif for a hikikomori

I cant be the only one who feels naked, when im not wearing one outside, right ?

I feel protected when i wear a jacket outside (like how a kid feels protected hiding in their blanket xD)

Also UV light protection, muh skin needs to be protected after allll >.<

Started playing arknights too, not fully focused on it, im still 100% studies, but its a fun tower defense game so far, i get the kancolle vibe, but with tower defense mechanism rather than no control on shipfus

Also no permanent sinking/death if you push through (they should do a mode like this, it would add more pressure >.>....)

So lost a close friend

Got blocked and all

And...it would have affected me badly, sadly, i made my best friends worry too much

So i decided to forget her, she didn't cherish our friendship enough as much as i did

And if a mere confession destroys our friendship, then she aint meant to be my friend >.>

Funny thing is, when she said, *she never disowned me as a friend*

Yknow, that says allot when you suddenly block me, after 1 month of not talking

Sure my actions were a bit drastic (like burning my cosmatsu ticket,) but what did you expect, you didn't talk to me or assure me, i was left hanging/ditched, and whats worse is when i dmed her, she just *seen* it, she didnt reply back, until i actually texted her

Funny thing is, if we were still friends after my stuff, that would make us hella closer as friends, couse she knows me so much, and i know her allot, and we fought with one another but still ended up as friends

But nope, thats not the case, when shit hits the fan, she just ignores me for a month, i panic and do stupud shit, she tries to defend herself, and then i feel bad about what i did, and then she ignores me till we met up, and then after meeting up, blocks me

Well

Not gonna let her shenanigans bother, im not dissing her btw, shes by far the best girl i met

I just have to tell myself i hate her, to not feel anything

Also on the way home, i kept repeating to myself, *you cant break something, that is already broken*

Couse i mean, im already broken, so losing a friend, being rejected, that wont destroy me more xDDD

Also also, the omamori thingy ?, i toke it down, it didn't work at all, i wished for *things to go back to normal between us*

WELL IT DID THE TOTAL 180DEGREE OF MY WISH

cant say i expected it to work, i rarely believe in things nowadays <.>

but anywhooooo

Daz all

I got

To share

For today

Im off to sleep, couse review sentar calls theeeee

Naito everyone☆

Anyone got an idea on how makeup shiz works ?

Not gonna do it anytime soon, but im gonna cosplay in next matsuri, and ill need some makeups for the cosplay

And your boi got no clue how make up work

Incidentally, if your in ph, hit me up so we can both go to next matsuri

ITLL BE A PH-AF MEETUP?!?!?!

Toshi is the character i plan to cosplay as BTW

Did some stupid shiet outa anger from a friend i wanted things over with

And man, was that the f*ckiest f*ck i F*cking did

Ended up burning my cosmat ticket (was gonna burn it at jan 1 anyway, time just accelerated couse of anger, plus i wasnt gonna go couse id see friend im not in good terms with who i wanted to end it)

But man, i did a f*ck up as i usually do

Anyway, now im stuck in house studying

Did want to do whole charm wall stuff (aka image below)

But now thats impossible aint it

Soooo, i compromised and made use of my omamori, <which shouldn't be opened> but i still did to put a note with my wish in it.

And then placed it on our lemon tree

Hope my wish comes troooo

If it does, ill post what i wished about

Edit: that charm is clearly doing the opposite of what i wrote holy crap

Then again, i didn't think my wish was gonna come troo

What's been destroyed, can't be fixed >.>

MERRRYYYY sexmassss everyoneeeeee

HAVE SOME ABBY !!!

so yea

So i forgot what i was gonna say, HAVE SOME KAWAII POKEYMAN STUFF

So i was chillaxing, after studying for a bit

When all of a sudden I GOT ABI

IN ONE ROLL

I WAS JUST LISTENING TO HER SONG COUSE ITS HELLA FUN AND SHE SUDDENLY POPPED AND IM LIKE WTF

needless to say, this is why i avoid games, it made me sleep early and skip studies a bit >.>

It made me smile after so long tho >...>

Oh and i donated blood today, posting image

So allota sh*t happened, both good, both bad news

Ill start of with bad news so i can end stuff in good news

Dewa dewa, hajimemashokaaaa ╰(*°▽°*)╯

Bad news (may or may not be rant ?)

1.) My pc is slowish and needs upgrade, but i wont be upgrading it until after i pass board examination (which is scheduled at march 18th and 19th, if im not mistaken

2.) I lost a really close friend (who i treated as a senpai) couse i sortaaaaaa fell inlove with her, and then she rejected me (big surprise there kiddo), we haven't talked since, and well, if things keep up, i guess im not going to cosmania (couse i initially bought ticket, since she invited me, but, i cant go there if she hates me, ill feel too wierd, so unless we be friends again, im cancelling, and most likely burning the tickets if it passes deadline of cosmania (28th and 29th)

After losing a friend, i semi became depressed, welllllll

i always had semi depression, but it has now escalated to the point where, when i think about it, i cut my own hands, but not feel any of the pain, i-ts pretty emo

But, i feel its a way of atonement for the stupidity i did, begging is the lowest of the low a person can go, and i feel until we be friends again, doing such stupid acts will be a fine ass atonement (but im sure ill stop someday even if we aint gonna be friends again xD)

Also yea, i know, its stupid, (especially knowing IM IN THE MEDICAL FIELD ?!?!) if i wanted to kill mah self, id aim for vital organs, or the artery to bleed out, wont lie, i have imaginations of wanting to experience it, but i stop mah self couse, it aint gonna be atonement if i fawken game over myself 

4.) I also HAD a hallucination

It started when i cutted muhself, i could see blood clearly in walls and stuff; but after a few days, the hallucinations disappeared after 2-4days (day one it was clear, day 3 it was minor, day 4 i could faintly see them, and 5th i could no longer see them)

I had a similar problem in the past (hallucinations), but it wasn't blood, rather, it was minecraft blocks, i termed it *MC syndrome*, i had the urge to punch walls couse i could see everything as blocks, and my mind kept telling me if i punch trees or walls repeatedly BLOCKS WOULD FALL

but, the same as blood syndrome hallucination, MC synd. Went byebye in 2-4 days

So in conclusion, i am hella prone to hallucinogens, holy crap >.>

5.) I have stopped playing games (even mobile games) to focus on studying, and only turn them on if i have nothing to do and cant study (e.g outside), but most of the time, its reading a manga now, currently reading nozaki-kun mango xD)

THATS ALL THE BAD NEWS, YAAAAY ꉂ(ˊᗜˋ*)

Now onwards to good news

I only have a few as opposed to the bad news

1.) My scores so far in the review center is high (its not the same as when i first started, being 50/200 or 80/200, so far my scores have been pretty nice being 100/150, 60/100, or 143?/200

But the tests so far was minors (CM and MTLAWS), they aint 75%, but they are higher than my old exam scores, im also able to catch up and answer question the professor says

ヽ（≧□≦）ノو

2.) We changed internet providors, and our internet speed is now 80mbps dl speed, and 80mbps upload speed (shimakaze says; *OSOIIIII*, i say HAYAII DESU WA NE ?!?!)

3.) I got a new phone, i gave my s7active to my dad couse he wanted it, but mom bought me a brand new note10+ as an early x-mas gift (andholysh*t i love this phone, ITS LAGLESS SO FAR ON ANYTHING I DO, EVEN FGO ISNT LAGGING, EVEN AF IS LAG FREE HOLYCRAP

AND THE STYLUS, I LOVE THE STYLUSSSSS OH MY GOD I FEEL LIKE A WIZARD WHEN I WAVE THIS SH*T AROUND AND PHONE REACTS

ehem, anways, mom was suppose to give me ipad air 3, but i told her, i cant use an ipad air 3, how do i use something so big ? I DONT EVEN APPLE PRODUCT

So thats why she bought me a n10+ >.>

In the end, the ipad was given to my dad (where he will watch movies at, and his overjoyed at it

And my brother was give a s9 (which was my moms old phone) 

My mom went and bought a s10, thats why she gave her s9 to my brother

And yea, dazaboutit

Gonna donate blood tomorrow, ill post a pic about it tomorrow

Im semi-back guiz ( •̀ᄇ• ́)ﻭ✧

(Still more focused on studies tho, but browsing af aint a pain couse of lagless fone xD)

Stat update; Still no converge (internet)

And im gonna have to load my data soon

Ahh ahh, i wanna post whats been happening, but i gotta hold off till they connect our net <_>

Reading kimetsu no CRYba though

But majority of time im still studying