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Since the think tank is empty I don't actually know what to write. But, writing is so fun. I used to run a meme page back in my first year's of high school. It was overly edgy and had like 1k followers, Most amount of follower's I had ever had in my life. It felt nice to create (Yes I would sometimes create my own memes) after a horrible high school relationship the account got compromised and I had to delete it. Now writing and posting on this blog feels like the same as posting those memes. Bogus as hell I know, think tank only works when I am comically depressed. I struggle sleeping and tend overthink. But ever since I became an adult It has felt so much better. Honestly because I rely on myself and I try my best not to be home. I am actually just really lazy and don't like doing chores. I was born too Late, I woulda been one hell of a cowboy or something. (I'm a Wuss.) It's actually crazy I wrote something without intending to write about it. I will not overshare though! (TAKE WHAT U CAN GET) I was also part of a JJBA community during the meme page years, seen some heinous stuff in my life. Those Instagram group chats weren't a joke. The internet is not a good place to share your private life ammiright guys!? Other than hanging out with my friends once a week and talking to my fiancé, this forum is my only socialization. I HATE THE SUBURBS! Shorter less meaningful work thought rant. I am currently just studying the history of my ethnicity (riveting stuff) Thanks for tuning in!

I have been in a relationship for about 3+ years. I am engaged! Really feel like I found my other half. Someone who takes my attention the second I see them. Love is Real!

You noticed!? Yes I am the fnaf guard. Jokes aside, yeah I tend to be a perfectionist meaning my work is never perfect. I have a battle with my inadequacies. But, I will keep trying. The post originally was talking about how paintings aren't really my favorite form of art, and that I feel like a poser if I were to say the paintings actually make me think. I think the art I really want to do is filmmaking and writing novels. But a man can dream!

I usually get on the forum after 2pm EST and I assume most people on the forum in other countries or they just don't visit as often. But when I do check the active users. I have noticed that they tend be "[Insert name]88[random letters]". They seem to be bot accounts linked to online gambling sites, all of these sites seem shady as hell and I was wondering why they were even on THIS forum specifically. I know the number 88 is linked to Nazi dog whistling. but in this instance I don't see that to be the reason the number 88 is involved. it's more like the BET88 thing going around. Any further research will be added on.

Thanks for the advice. Appears me n the flintstones have something in common. Thing is I've taken art classes, art history classes. I pay attention and I care. But it's definitely not my thing. I do have a perfectionist mindset that is very hard to overcome. But, it is something I try to combat every day. I am learning to be ok with my self.

I recently watched this movie called "The Sixth Sense" and in the movie one of the characters said to just write without thinking and you'll end up writing stuff you didn't know was inside you. I like that kind of and wanna bite his style. For these I am just gonna think "out loud" in a sense. I realized maybe I am not educated enough to really appreciate paintings. Like I recently went to an art museum and none of the paintings really spoke to me. I did like the religious stuff even though it's not the religion I follow, That probably means something. I mostly enjoy sculptures, I think they are the closest thing to encapsulating the true beauty and individuality and similarities between all people. They are made with the intent to preserve and they are to be taken kind of at face value while still giving me the narrative that its trying to push. I don't mind having to think when looking at art. But something about paintings just don't stick with me. I realized all my blogs have been one block of writing and maybe that's not normal. In school they made us write big ass paragraphs. sometimes my paragraphs in essays would be 2-3 pages long. but the professors didn't care the grade was still A+. thanks for tuning in today's work rant was lowkey not that serious.

I love writing too, as a hobby. But i think i need to read more books to get better. Hope u can become a writer!

Hey man welcome to the forum! Lets be friends! you got cool interests and I cant wait to tune into your posts!

That job sounds awesome. The world does scare me. But we have no real hand in it all we can do is hope for the best. I am glad you do something you enjoy. A truly respectable profession. I want to at some point in life be able to teach history to the next generation. Nothing is more important than those who come after us.

Thanks for your thought out comment. I agree with you heavily. I am glad you found my blog interesting. I feel so helpless in combatting the social decay of our society. But, I know every little helps. I try to stay optimistic and push my social boundaries. I want to create the change, because tech is awesome and It should bring the world together.

That’s interesting I’ve always been told only how kind they are. Makes sense they gotta be rude somehow. Aksum empire is cool!

Pagodas are beautiful architecturally, and Beaches are awesome too!

The obvious answer is that it is probably because it has become so easily available. It feels like the previous blog topic and this might tie in, in the US that is. The American Suburbs have made it harder for the younger generation to connect. Growing up there was never a third space and there was never anything close by to do. You go to work/school go home and stay home. in the Past people used to go outside because there was more community and less Internet. Now people don't go out as much and don't express themselves as much. It feel's like the world wants you to be boring and not get along with anyone. I was looking at the "indie" web recently and it was cool to see people actually being themselves and proud of it. Our websites are usually just big organizations making everything competitive and into a monetary thing. Why is Individuality being stripped like this? People are too busy working 2 jobs and going to school and It is like to fit into the system you need to constantly be moving! Is this the society we want? The rising costs in the U.S and horrible work life balance is making the interenet the only escape when people are home and they are too tired to put effort into themselves and be themselves. I feel like a conspiracy theorist, and these takes seem so obvious. I looked into the site called spacehey which is kinda like myspace. I grew up with facebook and instagram where customization is limited. At most you could have cool highlight covers and a nice bio, It's all about pictures. Back to the topic at hand though, how does this tie into how the internet changed? well people tend to stay home more now and play games, doom scroll. before you would go out and loiter without being hassled by security and stuff. Enjoy your community. The internet was secondary. Now the closest thing to this is like going to a Sheetz and chilling there. I try to make the internet as secondary as possible despite being a IT major. I dont want it to consume my life. (thats why I am only on this forum at work). P.S sorry if I complain about the U.S a lot I know there are countries struggling 10x worse and my heart goes out to those who suffer. But my feelings are still valid! Thanks for tuning into another rant/conspiracy.

Welcome to the forum! (this is my first time in a forum too)

I am currently watching "Eden of the East" found it randomly while scrolling on my anime streaming site. It caught my eye. I am only 2 episodes in and still have no clue what its actually about! (Also watching Kaiji Simultaneously!)

Is there anyway you can elaborate? what about it's history. I love hearing about other countries history and what not!

Happy new Year everyone! yes 4 days after new year. But it is because I had work off! anyway's back to the grind. Life has been so chill I have no serious thoughts just been on my toes. It is shocking how being an adult changes everything. 2 years ago I had so much spare time on my hands and I did nothing. But life isn't about delving on the past but looking to the future. This is years gonna be better than the last one! Moving out is a must. Realizing how freeing it is to live on my own/friends helped me see how much I enjoy life when not home! The Independence is awesome. I hold myself accountable more and actually get stuff done. Speaking of moving out, what is the deal with the US suburbs? why do they genuinely suck. I want a walkable half affordable city with ACTUAL jobs! not some town on the outskirts of a major city where rent averages around $2000/month its NONSENSICAL! It is like the US just copied south korea's idea of having actual livable space outside the cities and then traffic is heinous! and there is no changing this we are so deep in. The country needs changing and it needs changing soon! (PLEASE I YEARN FOR A WALKABLE CITY AND A STABLE JOB MARKET)!

That is AWESOME. Its great you got to do what you wanted to do. I am sure it is really difficult. I took theater in senior year and loved it but never had the courage to go further. Even theater was nerve racking for me. You are a brave soldier. I hope your passion is rewarded!

I am from the US and my favorite thing about my country is BURGERS AND BRISKET!!!! what about you? what are your favorite foods from your country and favorite features from your country?

I understand shounen being for teenagers/younger boys. As a former teenager I never liked the bogus amount of freakiness going on in my shows, yet I have to skip through or watch through it to enjoy the meat and potatoes of one piece, bleach, naruto, etc. like IT CANNOT be that good! like do these creators and studios think we are like knuckle dragging dimwits? It feels like the show is insulting my ability to consume media. It dangles its nonsensical "FAN SERVICE" over my head like a carrot infront of a pig. "Here piggy piggy here is your bogusly drawn naked anime girl". God forbid a man want to see a show with actually well developed female characters that aren't overly objectified. Like shoujo anime do a good job with their depictions of women. I feel like if you grow up on anime and all you see is bogus depictions of women it'll genuinely warp your brain into more wacky stuff. Look if you like it you like it. But man those are kids! this should be illegal!!! Seinen does a good job of making great and better depicted women too. but they incorporate an obtusely gross amount of SA material like yeah IK the real world is horrible and I understand that art reflects life. But dude some of these themes arent even explored it just kinda happens. this whole topic has probably been rinsed to extinction but it is a genuine frustration I have had for a while. At that point am I supposed to create the media in this vacuum of imperfection?! And now a lot of new age Shounen don't even try to make a good story. Honestly baffling how this is the most popular genre and it doesnt even require a compelling story! Thank you for tuning into my Rant Blog of the day! hopefully I can post something more positive without infringing on my own privacy!

thats awesome dude hope u enjoy Comiket 107! fingers crossed u get to see everything you want!

My fav psych manga/series is probably kaiji. I haven't even finished it but it is genuinely so enticing.