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  1. 19 hours ago, IIVIsouljam said:

    Speed Grapher! 😍 It's so difficult to find fans. 😭

    One of the most messed up series I've ever seen and that's why it's awesome 😅

    19 hours ago, efaardvark said:

    That's kind of hard to find anymore.  I went looking for it a few years ago to add to my plex collection but nobody had it in stock.

    It's only Blue Gender: Warrior which you can find on amazon pretty cheaply. The TV series is harder to find but I think it might be on Ebay. 

  2. 20 hours ago, Illusion of Terra said:

    Interesting story and interesting topic!

    Although I have heard similar things from others as well as you describe about Neon Genesis Evangelion, I do not know why, but it didn't have as much of an impact on me as on many others. I still think the symbolism of the show is uniquely interesting in quite a few ways and it captures inner mental turmoil in an intriguing way, but it did not resonate as much with me personally. This might be because I only got to watch it a year ago, i.e. after I have had my fair share of experience when it comes to psychology and especially philosophy, and am already old 😂 

    The question is quite difficult though. I can't say that an anime has had a sudden/discrete impact on me compared to unexpected events such as the death of a friend. But at the same time, I think there are many anime that have had an effect over time. Something that got me to think about something in a different way which later led to more substantive changes. This does happen quite a bit since I tend to over-analyze anime or at least see this as an example to a more general philosophical question which on the face of it is not related to it.

    To give you an example. I watched a part of Attack on Titan (I didn't continue it since it was too much gore for my taste). When I saw the whole Titans eating humans thing, I did start to think about vegetarianism and cannibalism. Now, vegetarianism is something I had thought about before quite a bit because of a colleague who has worked on it, but cannibalism not so much. So when I now think about cannibalism (which granted does not happen too often unless I think/read about lab-grown meat), Attack on Titan might be one example for it.

    Apart from that I would say that all of my favorite anime resonate with me in one way or another and have influenced the way I see or think about things for years.

    I had a similar ponder about vegetarianism and the meat industry when I first started watching Seraph of the End. Sadly the show didn't really explore the aspect of humans as "cattle" as much as it could've, going down the root of Human vs Vampire instead. I haven't read the manga so maybe that's a different story. I've had similar philosophical thoughts about Psycho-Pass, Lain, Ergo Proxy, Shinsekai Yori, etc too, so it isn't uncommon. 

    This is probably why NGE sits so highly for me as an oddity and a masterpiece. I've never come across another anime or piece of media in general that has had that level of impact. Not that I'm a total fan boy though. The show has a lot of problems that I'm just good at ignoring :D

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  3. It's a typical evening, lying in bed, getting ready to sleep and I decide to listen to the piano version of Jesus Bleibet Meine Freude.  I glance up at my End of Evangelion poster (the one with Asuka and Shinji looking over the LCL ocean with giant Rei on the horizon) and perhaps unusually, gain a sense of tranquility and calm. 

    Neon Genesis Evangelion was one of my first animes and changed my life permanently. It sparked an interest not just in anime, but in psychology and more pungently, philosophy. Without NGE I would have never discovered the works of some of my favorite philosophers like Schopenhauer, Cioran, Nietzsche, etc (OK, I might have found Nietzsche unaided :D). I would also have never been able to reconcile many of my negative feelings of social anxiety, loneliness and the depression that can accompany them. Despite the month of emotional turmoil that proceeded my first viewing, I know feel happier, more certain of myself and more at peace than I did before.  

    Has anybody else had this kind of intense life changing experience after watching a particular show? Or at least has an anime introduced you to a subject you otherwise may not have stumbled across? (history, politics, science, etc)

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  4. 6 hours ago, Illusion of Terra said:

    @RZ. I have played/tried Fortnite for about an hour. I found it to be a rather run-of-the-mill shooter generally, i.e. I get the general appeal of it. I don't get all the dislike for it. Yeah, it's not a particularly great game but I don't think it aims at the same stuff as Battlefield or Call of Duty. What kinda bugged me, but I suppose that depends on what you are used to, was that you could build structures everywhere you wanted. Kinda defeated most of the whole strategic planning.

    Building is the main pull factor I think which separates it from most battle royale games, even though they keep adding weapons that just shread builds anyway. But building is what defines the strategy as you have to make sure you have enough materials, get adequate weapons for build battles, be able to build in general, etc. I understand why a lot of people don't like that sort of thing though, especially when you have these 12 years olds who build like their fingers are hooked to a car battery lol 

    Honestly though, I play it primarily because my friends play it :)

  5. 2 hours ago, IIVIsouljam said:

    For the longest time I let someone convince me that the advice they were giving me was going to benefit me in some way. In reality, this person kept me in a negative place. With the feelings of being too dense or not good enough. When all he had over me was a couple of more years worth of experience. I looked up to him at the time because I thought he had some wisdom that I just couldn't grasp. Thinking back, there were a few people I communicated with that completely treated lack of experience as a lack of sense or mental ability. Maybe it's an ego thing or maybe they authentically don't see what they were doing. It can make situations difficult and confusing. Especially when their instructions start to become a full-on beatdown of pure degradation in the guise of guidance. While raising any objection is further labeled as a personal weakness or intolerance.

    It also gets kind of annoying when older people instigate things or become a bit of an antagonizer towards you. Then try to justify any response by giving you a lesson on being the bigger person (AKA- telling you to shut up, move along with the abuse and never question any type of missing professionalism). Yikes!

    Lastly, my own shyness annoys me. It's not often and I'm not entirely sure why I have anxiety-filled episodes but when I do it effects a lot of things. Mainly my own body—stress and general exhaustion. 😱

    Age indicates very little, that's for certain. Members of my family have been giving me advice since I was little thinking it would be beneficial. Sometimes it was, often it wasn't, but advice is cool, because you're not obligated to take it. Some people in my family have a tendency to intervene in my proboems on their own however, purely out of love, but usually making things much worse because they don't fully understand the issue. 

    Explaining my existential crisis and subsequent depression to my mother for example, proved to be a bad idea the second she started listing potential solutions, all of which showed that she'd completely missed the point. I had to tell her bluntly that that's what she'd done and that she should leave it to me. Thankfully she did 😅

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  6. Rurouni Kenshin, Fate/Zero/Stay night/apocrypha, Black Lagoon, NGE, Seraph of the End, Madoka Magica, Violet Evergarden. 

    Magi is also on there but not sure if they've put the 2nd season on. I'm sure there's others I haven't seen as well. 

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  7. 1 hour ago, The History Kid said:

    I've been selling all of mine lately.

    I probably will as well years down the line. Right now I just have a thing about having physical copies of stuff. I'm the same with books. 

  8. Found this bundle of DVD's on Ebay with:

    - Ghost in the Shell: SAC (All 7 Volumes)

    - Speed Grapher (All 6 Volumes)

    - Erementar Gerad (All 6 Volumes)

    - Moribito Full Series

    - Air (Full Series)

    Plus a bunch of movies: Vampire Hunter D (Special Edition), Patlabor, Blue Gender, etc. 

    I'm an absolute sucker for DVD's and 2000-2007 animes. Only issue was that they're R1 imports and don't play in my portable player but oh well. IMG_20191211_150937.thumb.jpg.9ee94e7629bfdfdd63ffaba4c2120488.jpgIMG_20191211_152016.thumb.jpg.e93356478fb8580454a7c504e006539a.jpgIMG_20191211_151936.thumb.jpg.9d370a740dc15df4fcdd892ee491dd99.jpgIMG_20191211_152208.thumb.jpg.c379f8a27c480d60fb2eec97872cba9e.jpg

  9. Hello there and welcome. I had a similar experience to yours (though not as extreme) when I watched Neon Genesis Evangelion (I really don't recommend this show if you're having a tough time with your mental health. It is possibly the most traumatic thing I have or will ever watch and it's not something to watch in the wrong state of mind). It was actually the show that got me into the anime and it sent me into a serious existential crisis and depression for about a month. I almost failed my work experience module at university because of it and it seriously changed my outlook on life. Mine was more a sudden realisation of nihilism - which wasn't nice, and would've been quite disturbing if I didn't find these sorts of things fascinating. Nevertheless, I did eventually get through it. 

    It sounds to me like your depression is connected to an immediate loneliness, mainly from the fact you say that getting attached to characters and wanting an "anime relationship" are primary contributing factors. Believe me, I understand this all too well. It was something I experienced a lot when I was your age (I'm nearly 22 now) as a below-average looking, socially anxious teenager. I remember always wanting to have a relationship similar to characters from my favorite shows, anime or otherwise. It caused me to take actions in pursuit of that goal which were totally unrealistic. This is stating the obvious somewhat, bjt imagine if Tsundere's, for example, really existed - it would go very differently to how it does in anime.  I'd like to say that it's easy to break out of, but it isn't. All I can say is what helps/helped me - focusing on that which I had in the present, not placing too much importance on the perceived NEED of a relationship (especially one similar to that shown in anime), but also a general acceptance of myself for who I am. 

    Hope this may help you a little bit. If you want to discuss further please send me a PM. My name is Michael :)

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  10. 10 hours ago, The History Kid said:

    Ruh roh Raggy! Chinese Spies!

    Google Pixel 2 XL.  This phone will have to be totally broken before I'll give it up.  Love this phone.

    The thought that a CCP lacky somewhere in Guangdong province has all of my anime memes saved to a government computer fills me with joy :D

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  11. 5 hours ago, EnviousEnvy said:

    Gotta say the one anime series that hit me the most (but I absolutely love) is Wolf's Rain. I still cry everytime I watch it. 

    Tsume used to be my favorite (I was always obsessed with the bada** type characters when I was a kid) but in recent years I've come to love Toboe because of his caring, gentle and innocent nature. He always found the good in even the most cruelest of people. 

    For an anime movie it's definitely a cross between When Marnie Was There and The Girl Who Leapt Through Time. It pulls at my heart strings every time I watch it.

    Wolf's Rain is such an under appreciated masterpiece. The ending is awesomely gut wrenching. 

    Casshern Sins is a pretty depressing one as well with the whole show basically being about death, or the value of it. The twins arc from Black Lagoon was tragic but also flat out disturbing as well. 

     

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  12. I think anime has gone the way of most other artistic mediums, music especially. The increased production of different shows, movies, OVA's, etc means that the field gets saturated with crap. That doesn't mean that there's any less GOOD anime out there (in fact, there's probably more), it just seems like there isn't because it's part of an even bigger pool.

    We also only tend to remember the good shows from the past, and there were definitely shows back in the 80s and 90s that were as garbage as any fan service-filled, dilluted isekai harem from today. 

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  13. 2 hours ago, Seshi said:

    If you want more inspo, check out the "DemonWars Saga" by RA Salvatore! The world building for this fantasy series is so immersive. By far the most creative I've read so far for this genre. 

    Also, as a child I remember my brother going on and on about the "Redwall" novel series, and his imagination for writing grew leaps and bounds. This is a childrens fantasy series by Brian Jacques, but Im sure he has more grown up series as well, so maybe you've heard of him.

    Thank you, I shall defintiely check them out! I'm more of a watcher/listener than a reader so my literary knowledge isn't great. The only book series I've ever read in its entirety was the Alex Rider series by Anthony Horowicz. Taking up writing probably wasn't the smartest move, all things considered, but I don't care :D

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