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Just re-watched one of my favorite found footage style horror movies, The Atticus Institute & seriously thinking of re-watching one of the scariest movies I've ever seen, Sleep Tight. Sleep Tight is a Spanish horror film from 2011 & it's about this guy who works at an upscale apartment complex & stalks this woman. The lengths this dude went to to put this woman through absolute hell had me double checking stuff in my place before I went to bed for MONTHS after watching it. To say this guy is a monster is the understatement of the decade. 

4 hours ago, Dark Flame Master said:

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Excellent choice. You will not be disappointed!  

Welcome in & nice to meet you, CatSoul.

Something else that stands out in this show is how every victim of Akito, even Shigure to some degree, will stand up for others while allowing themselves to get demolished in the process. What happened in this last episode with Tohru & Momiji is a strong example of this because they both literally threw themselves in harm's way for the sake of the other & did absolutely nothing to fight back. They both physically froze in place & just took the damage, whereas in Kyo's case, he at least physically made an attempt to defend himself. 

Another thing that I've been noticing is how dysfunctional Tohru & Momiji are when dealing with their pain. They bottle their pain up or bury it since it's so intense they just push those feelings away & pour all their energy into putting on a happy face for everyone else. At first glance, this might not seem like such a bad thing until you take into account that unacknowledged pain & grief doesn't just disappear, it builds up. And when left long enough, it begins to leak out & manifest in all sorts of destructive ways in various areas of a person's life. For example, none of these characters can accept or give affection in a healthy way & this is a result of not fully acknowledging & healing from trauma. 

Finally watched Spirited Away. I enjoyed but the lead character really annoyed the hell out of me. Even at the end she still got on my nerves lol. 

I just finished this week's episode & I had to stop for a bit because my anger almost boiled over completely. 

Momiji is the real MVP for trying to stop Akito they way he did. THAT ladies & gentlemen is what courage looks like: Being scared to death of the horrors before you but being so determined to do the right thing that you refuse to back down. He got hurt anyway but at least he stood up to Akito. 

I'm going to keep my thoughts on Akito short because during her entire interaction with Tohru, I just wanted to reach through the screen & kick her in the throat. I've suggested this before but perhaps I was not polite enough so I will ask again but this time with better manners: Akito, go die. Please and thank you.

The way all the zodiac characters are made to feel guilty & terrified of loving others as a warped means of protecting them is one of the most heartbreaking, if not THE most heartbreaking aspects of this entire show because that's the collateral damage of abusive relationships. Wounds heal & scars fade but when a person is abused bad enough sometimes they close themselves off & never let anyone else close, so the abuse not only robs them of peace in their present, it also sabotages potential peace in their future. 

 @Ohiotaku You are so right. At this point, I can't think of anything that Akito could even do to try to redeem herself. Releasing Kyo & apologizing to everyone would be a start but even that wouldn't be enough in my opinion because of the severity of trauma that she's inflicted on everyone. Let me use a real world example to better explain what I'm trying to say here. Let's say someone is in an abusive relationship & the abuser apologizes or dies or gets locked up for the rest of their life. None of that is going to erase the damage that this person has done to their victim. It may provide some closure or justice but those things in & of themselves do not equate to healing emotional, mental, or psychological damage. In this case, as you so rightly pointed out, Akito's abuse knows NO bounds. She methodically & insidiously selects a target, studies them, isolates them, & then slowly begins tearing them apart until there's almost nothing left. And if you pay close attention, every single one of her victims eventually ends up lashing out at others because of how she's treated them.

They instinctively become distressed when approached with any type of strong emotion whether that's genuine kindness or rejection or engage in unhealthy behavior in general. Akito has effectively destroyed their abilities to respond to stressors in a positive way for the most part. Some examples that come to mind immediately are Haru's rampage after getting rejected by Rin, Rin lashing out at Tohru when in her animal form, Yuki being at an almost complete loss of words any time he tries to express how he feels about Tohru, Shigure's delight at seeing other people in dismay, Kyo's feelings of total helplessness & how he puts up emotional blocks towards any form of love or kindness to the point that he is overly combative, Ayame's overly sexual nature & narcissistic behavior, & Kisa's refusal to stand up for herself yet she bites people when they get too close to her in her animal form, even when approaching her kindly like Tohru did out of just plain distrust & as adorable as this was due to her animal being portrayed as essentially just a baby, this just illustrates how the initial reaction is to protect oneself. 

This show has deeply impacted me on a personal level due to some things that I've experienced over the course of my life & has made me more determined than ever to find new ways to lend aide to the local organizations here that help abuse survivors. So instead of wasting money on a replica of Akito that I can break to pieces, I'm going to do everything in my power to help those within my community who have dealt with or are currently dealing with real life Akitos. 

You know, I've gone back to this episode & the one theme that I think rings out the loudest is the consequences that result from not addressing grief or allowing oneself to grieve fully. 

Take the situation with Kyo & Akito, for example. What happened to his mom is the driving force behind Kyo's determination to be accepted & beat Yuki, which has unfortunately been capitalized by Akito. This way, IF he is not successful, that hateful b*tch(I'm sorry guys but I've never hated a character more in my life & I just can't hold back) can not only imprison him for real, she can twist it around & make it all his fault, therefore effectively destroying the rest of his will & self esteem. 

Now, did Kyo have to agree to this? No, of course not. But let's not forget that he's still a kid & a kid who's grieving the loss of his mother & battling some very serious mental & psychological distress. Akito knows this & is preying on him because of it. That's simply evil & cowardly, in my opinion. 

The worst part of all is that right now, this same situation is happening to someone out there in real life. Real people get entrapped by predators like Akito due to their mental & emotional states ALL the time & it's just sick. This is literally the foundation of abusive relationships. 

A bowl of vanilla almond Special K cereal & 2 bananas. 

On Monday. Damn you, Fruits Basket! I've never been THIS emotionally tied to any show ever. 

Welcome in, new friend! Hope you have a great time  

Oh boy, where do I even begin with this episode? A few points:

Shigure-I think that Shigure is the type of person who when nothing's wrong, something's wrong, you know what I mean? There have been several occasions where he goes out of his way to create dramatic situations for his own amusement. Now, to him it's hilarious but Akito has not only mentally scarred people, she's also put them in the hospital so Shigure knows good & well how serious things can get. And I think that makes him the most damaged of all Akito's victims because he is knowingly passing down that type of antagonistic & manipulative behavior. Now do I think that part of him wants people to learn to stand up for themselves? Yes. But there's also a part of him that genuinely enjoys seeing others in dismay & I just can't get beyond that with him. Like, when he's walking people to go see Akito, he reminds me of Percy from The Green Mile because it just seems to really tickle him to see someone going to their doom. If he were standing up to Akito it would be one thing but he doesn't. He damn near melts into her arms whenever she wants him & the whole thing just makes me nauseous.

Akito-If she were a real person & in my presence I'd have no choice but to break her f*cking face open & level the rest of her because the things she did & said to Kyo absolutely had me seeing red. Like seriously, how dare you! Akito is the undisputed champion of projecting because she does completely deplorable things & then accuses the person she's doing them to of being a horrible person, a loser, a monster, etc. etc. And her reason for letting Tohru stay with them is just so sinister & twisted. Akito, just do me a favor & go die somewhere please. UGH!

Kyo-I re-watched a few parts & this episode explains a LOT about why Kyo behaves the way that he does & why he's so conflicted & angry all the time. It goes much, much deeper than the self esteem issues due to his true form. I mean, he is dealing with multiple levels of severe psychological trauma. If he were a person in real life, he'd probably go on to become a serial killer or something, like that's how serious all the grief & anguish & raw pain is that he is carrying around. Yet under all that, he still has a heart that desires to love & be loved. And he still has a lot of fight left in him. When he

, my heart soared because he is the ONLY one so far who has even attempted to defend themselves & that's at least something. 

Overall, this week's episode just rekt me to epic proportions. 

An egg white omelette sprinkled with garlic & parsley, 2 slices of turkey bacon(due to the sodium content I will not be buying any more of this once I'm finished with what I have), & a slice of whole wheat toast topped with seedless, sugar free, blackberry jam. 

This is killing me because I just watched a video on YouTube talking about how this is still coming out. *sighs* 

Last I heard, the second season is still set to come out this year. 

Looks like the last season of AOT really will be releasing this year. 

10 hours ago, Anime loveer said:

Drawings , Im better at drawing . ( i guess anime characters would come to life  ?)

Then you could bring Akito to life for me *evil smirk*

Would you rather be a professional dancer or a professional singer?

An apple, a banana, an egg white omelette, two pieces of whole wheat toast, & a glass of skim milk.

I don't believe we've met but welcome back  

On 5/22/2020 at 7:38 PM, Boarman11 said:

I watched the first few episodes of Tokyo Ghoul

I love the concept but I haven't had time to watch it

After I finish Hunter Hunter I will look into it

For me, I loved the 1st season of Tokyo Ghoul but I only got a few episodes into the 2nd season because it just didn't do it for me. 

I swear, if anything horrible happens to Tohru I will lose my mind...just leave her alone, Akito! Geez! 

Welcome in & that sounds awesome. Looking forward to getting to know you  

This is awesome @snowkettle !