Tefutakato

There was something called "getting out of the comfort zone" i believe, I have been reading a book lately named "Do the work" and it covered about how we get tired mentally when doing the same things over and over kinda like a routine. Perhaps a change towards a new field could help you, like idk swap games for a bit with watching a sport maybe? Sorry if the recommendation bothers.

@Kurosaki27 Not really a sports guy. I appreciate the recommendation though.

@Tefutakato was gonna reply yesterday, but i lacked sleep, so i left it for tomorrow (which is today) to reply 

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Sometimes I think to myself if I’ll ever amount to anything. Nothing is really happening in my life, almost everyday I just stay on social media and play video games. 

i too, used to always have this feeling, while i was in school, i would hate how i always had no money, how my father always loaned my allowance due to lack of finance for other needs in our life, had to just focus on my studies that i didn't even want to be part of (i never said i wanted to be a scientist, i wanted to be an IT >.>)

and the ever so feeling of while studying

"am i really learning?, how sure am i that what i'm reading is sticking to me?"

"can i pass the national board exam?" 

"will i ever get a job and be allowed to live the life i wanted?"

and look at me now, after a VERY long time, i finally have my license, meaning im a professional,

i can also finally draw art that takes me a whole day if im trying to do something im not used to (when before it would take me ~3 days)

and after such experience, i can safely say that

"i had character development"

going a little off topic there, but yea,

its fine to have such thoughts, we all have our flaws, motivations, weaknesses, strengths, doubts, and certainty in life, no one is born perfect, even "the best of the best" at some point in their life, had a rough time in life in which they could not control

after a few years, you will look back at yourself, and laugh at how you used to think like that, and tell yourself

"man, i really had developed as a character in life"

...though as @Kurosaki27 said, 

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"getting out of the comfort zone"

it all depends on how badly we, as individuals, want to develop, but the problem on developing character is, we have to take risks, we don't have to do a really big risk which involves money

and the risk's ain't even a risk, its just "scary" to do, but once you do it, and get used to it, its pretty much like riding a bike with no hands

(notice; please dont ride a bike with no hands, your mom will most likely not be looking, and you will most likely have an accident)

but yea, as patrick star once said to rocky..

the more they shoot you down (reject), the more you get used to the rejection, until you become the embodiment of rejection

...and then you get stronger from all the experience earned on getting rejected, and either become a better person, or turn onto the dark side

in my case, i reject the dark side, even if the world we live in, majorly favors them >.>

@XII360 I almost let complete darkness take hold of me but I fought it and I fought it hard. Reminds me of the Batman Begins quote “Why do we fall, so we can learn to pick ourselves back up”. 

Nah, I'm a student, I live on noodles and coffee.

I only have a PC. good enought to play games, but I'm focusing on studying and watching anime. I can chat on discord if you want to, fine by me,

I have a PC too, I have a few Steam games maybe in the future we can play a game. The family PC is very old though. As for Discord, I rarely use it. If you want to add me just ask.

Mastering one's feelings is the greatest of virtues - Some old man (probably).

Don't think about the overcome, most of the time you just go with what's on your mind. I've also heard a theory from called a book called "The last night of love, the first night of war" which states that a trauma (not necesarily a trauma, it can also be a problem or stress) will become insignificant once you face an even bigger threat and you win. On the same concept as it's easier if you jump directly into cold water than getting in slower I guess.

Don't listen to me, I'm on a couple of beers rn.

Remember the Golden Rule #1: "You can't be bad at something if you succeed at least once", and to my knowledge there's 7,500,000,000 people out there, give them a try before quitting King.

i still have my best friend, and we been friends since i was a kid, like, 2009? or somewhere around that year

we had a fight once, longest fight we had, where we ignored one another, but after 3 months or 4months of no communication, he apologized, and i cried and apologized too and said

"i been waiting for his apology so we could be friends again" >.>

needless to say, best friend-ships dont happen in a day, it takes a long time, lots of bonding, and trusting and other stuff

just be sure that the friend, isn't someone who is just "befriending" you, due to fact they get something from you

those aint best friend tier, those are opportunist-tier

@Kurosaki27 It’s pretty personal stuff, some of it is medical, fears I have and mental stuff. 

Wish you the best hommie, God bless and stay tuned. There's always light after dark.

PS: tag me whenever you want to chat if you wish, I'll try to respond as soon as I connect.

@Kurosaki27 Thank you. Although I prefer to DM you if I do decide to talk about it since some of what I have going on is embarrassing.

as for me, no cakes, only pizza

10/10 though, bbq pizza best pizza 

Dude don't mention food I failed my PT test lol

I never got along very well with dating apps either.  Then again, it might have something to do with the fact that I just don't get along with -people-.  People are exhausting.