Soramee_

I know this is weird of me saying this on here since nobody really know me and but I just feel like I need to say it out. I'm passing trough a hard phase right now and I just want to say what is on my heart. recently I've been starting to feel pretty much nothing at all. For example when I watch anime, read manga, play video games, interact with other, listen to songs, just live a normal life, I can't feel happiness, sadness, anger and pretty much every sentiments out there. Even hope. It's as if I was a moving human shell or a robot. I've always been hard on myself and I've never tried to fix this so I don't remember how to not be hard on me and actually feel like I got weight took of my shoulder. the problem is that I'm totally lost. I don't what I should do, what I shouldn't do, how I should act, etc... and as a plus I can't stop always thinking about it. At school I always feel out of place, I'm always stressed and nobody resemble me. Even thought I'm pretty much friend with all the guys in my class. I'm sure one of you would think I should maybe do nothing so that I can resolve that problem but I know that I will regret it for the rest of my life if I do nothing. I don't want to just accept it and do as if nothing happened because for some reason I totally despise that. I don't know why for now but maybe it's because I feel like I just evaded the problem and didn't actually fight it. I don't know if it's the right thing to do or not. maybe I'm just being to hard on me again for the hundred time and it's just me not accepting reality again. When I do something good I don't feel good and when I do something bad I don't feel bad. I hate that completely and I just want to resolve my problem so that I can feel emotions again... really.