Soramee_
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I just wanna have a break. I don’t want to go to school tommorow
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could you tell me what is the name your waifu comes from, im sure i know her
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I wish my school life was more exciting. I watched this series right before entering high school and now my year as a freshmen has ended. I wish I could have gone somewhere else. On top of being boring, I hate my school life. I just want to have a life like they did and be happy. On top of that i got depression. I will genuinly do anything to make my life more exciting but it's nearly impossible. On top of having a complicated family situation, my school has no club system or anything really, i have to fake my emotions and fellings at school and everyone of my "friends" became toxic. I hate this all. It's as if all my motivation disappeared for no reason since i got depression. I just want to be stronger like haruhi and chase my ideals like kyon. I just want to be happy for once... I don't know what to do anymore. I'm completely lost. Even when I want to change it doesn't work. I really hate this. shit im starting to cry. Been a long time since I did tho... My parents keep brushing off what is happening as a normal adolescent thing and doesn't help me when i need help. I've always been alone but I wish I could at least get a real friend sometime. I really want a life like kyon. I really really really want this to happened. I know I have to put a lot efforts but I don't know what to do. I was seeing a light of hope recently since I could go to japan as an exchange student but it seems it won't work out... why can't anything go my way. this song really makes my real self get out uh. To think i was so close to being happy... The only thing I can think of doing right now to help myself is to finish my audition for an haruhi abridged series. it hasn't started yet and actually I don't know if they terminated the project since it has been a year, I was so scared, i did absolutely nothing, but I guess haruhi made me a bit more motivated lol. I honestly still am scared but I want to get out of this loop once and for all. Dammit I just want to watch anime and play video games without being depressed like konata. I love haruhi and I want to be part of this abridge series but I doubt the creator would be happy with what I send him or the fact it took so long to send it. I just wanna fool around and have fun like any teenagers do before i have to go and find a job and have a repetitive life. please help. Honestly this song is very important to me and I love it so maybe that's why I started writing that full emotional paragraph lol. At least it's finally summer now and I don't have to deal with school. but i also have to deal with even more work now. Especially since my parents are forcing me to do it. I know having an early job experience is beneficial but do you ever think about me like i am or just as another kid, also I just want to take my free time to get out of this depression or try to be happy for once. I don't even trust my own feelings anymore. It just hurts. it's to the point where I can't express any emotions when doing what I like. I actually feel like a robot at this point. Is this what an existential crisis is? nothing makes sense anymore. I have zero self esteem too so this isn't helping. On top of that I have some trauma that I had to live all my life with. this may sound as weird or non trusty but these are all my real thoughts. I really want to work on this audition but since I have to speak loudly i can't wake up my parents too or else they will get pissed and ban me from using my computer for some time lol. At least my mom understand me a bit more than my dad. why did I wrote that.
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Sadly there is a huge difference between an anime school and a real life school.
I didn't like school. School in the 1960s involved sitting in rows at desks while the teacher talked at you, the teachers often had no real interest in the subjects they taught and were thus unable to impart any enthusiasm for the subjects to their students. In short, school was BORING!!!
Did I mention that for my entire senior school life I was the target of choice for the school thug/bully and his little gang of followers, which went a long way to destroying, or at least undermining my confidence and self esteem.
I had to stay for the fifth year if I wanted to sit any exams and gain some qualifications, but I firmly turned down the offer of a place in the sixth year and went out and got a job. Amusingly, or not, none of the qualifications I'd got were any help or use at all in my job.
I believe that, almost, everything we go through in life happens for a purpose. Those bullies who made my school life so miserable taught me how to survive the much more subtle bullying of managers later on, some of whom resented the fact that I'd been in the business longer than them and had more experience. I didn't always like the things my parents nagged and plagued me to do, but once a month I go to the cemetery to place flowers on their grave and silently give thanks for everything they did for me.
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Finally, my freshman school year is finished. I had hope but it was mostly nothing all year. Happy it ended but I would want to redo it. Now I want to transfer school
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Congratulations on finishing your freshman year, but are you really sure you'd want to do it all again? Redoing a year sounds like a pretty bad thing. (In most high school anime having to repeat a year is presented as the worst fate you can suffer).
Transferring schools isn't always a good thing. In my final year at infants school my parents had to move house and because our new house was in the catchment area of a different school I had to go to a new junior school where I didn't know anybody.
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It’s time, I’m gonna do another try and I will do everything so that I can come back to normal
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i don't want to go to school... i wish i could be reborn into another world lol
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I wanna go home…
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please help her!!!
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I've been sick for 2 days straight tasekete
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she is singing magic knight rayheart op right now. come check her out!!
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@Animedragon you should be supposed to see the live now
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