Soramee_

It's ok, it happens to me too. Can't figure out why I'm depressed but I am when it hits. I hope you feel better soon.

I understand how u feel. It happens to all of us, I just try and focus on other things, Remember that you're doing your best and that's the best you can do! I hope you feel better soon!

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the problem is that I don't know why and the only thing I know is that it makes me have less emotions. sorry for the late reply

Could it be seasonal affective disorder ( aka "SAD" ) possibly? Maybe a potential side effect of one or more of any SSRIs you may have been prescribed? Although it is hard for me to be sure exactly what is wrong, I am going to suggest an ambient environment of calming music to encourage meditation, and if your stomach can handle it some green tea - the type infused with jasmine is the best tasting of those in my opinion. A lot of people like to sweeten their tea with sugar but I would recommend powdered Stevia instead...careful not to put too much, a little goes a long way in any beverage ( it's very concentrated ). The important thing in all of this is to get that amino acid L-Theanine into your system to help your body produce more Serotonin. Additionally, I would suggest maybe taking a 5-HTP supplement in conjunction with L-Tyrosine every morning for a synergistic effect. L-Theanine itself is also available in the form of capsules. Please run this idea by your parents and try to get their approval. I don't mean to play backseat therapist here, I am only trying to be helpful. And last but not least, it never hurts to drift away in a romantic fantasy involving your best girl ( whether 2-D or otherwise ). I think it can be good medicine for the soul. I hope this holiday season finds you in good health.

@Animedragon Thankfully the worth of yen has reduced by a lot. Now if something cost 1000 yen it will be equivalent to around 10$ CAD!  

But the shipping price also went up a lot and it has nearly double so... rip my wallet. 

Yes, the shipping cost can be high. But I often found it was cheaper to buy direct from Japan and pay the shipping than buy the same item from a local Sci-Fi & model shop.

@Animedragon that’s true and most of the time the figure will always look unused!

It's not like kids actually learn anything that's useful in school...save for maybe Home Ec and Shop. I guess Advanced Algebra ( I & II ) has its uses if you're planning to go into literal Rocket Science or Engineering.

I know this isn't really the place for this but, author and former educator John Taylor Gatto's main thesis asserts that school does the following to children in his book, "Dumbing Us Down":

1. It confuses the students. It presents an incoherent ensemble of information that the child needs to memorize to stay in school. Apart from the tests and trials, this programming is similar to the television; it fills almost all the "free" time of children. One sees and hears something, only to forget it again.
2. It teaches them to accept their class affiliation.
3. It makes them indifferent.
4. It makes them emotionally dependent.
5. It makes them intellectually dependent.
6. It teaches them a kind of self-confidence that requires constant confirmation by experts ( provisional self-esteem ).
7. It makes it clear to them that they cannot hide, because they are always supervised.

He also draws a contrast between communities and "networks", with the former being healthy, and schools being examples of the latter. He says networks have become an unhealthy substitute for community in the United States.

If you wanna talk, drop me a private message.

Very little of what I was taught in school was of any use to me in the job I ended up doing.

Ty!

I got some but I still feel sleepy lol

I know how that is. lol I'm not sure if they still sell these, but caffeine pills do actually work for a while if you want to try those out sometime. Even those 5 hour energy drinks give quite a wake-up boost for any emergencies you might have down the line. Today though, just might have to grind tough and try to keep your eyes open as hard as possible.

@Animedragon understandable. Before I had two dogs, but one of them died of cancer so now we only have this one left.

A dog is part of the family, so It's always sad when your dog dies.

@Animedragon so true

cool !

LETS GOOOOO!!!!!

Needs a 2nd season

well 21 now

24 hour now

@Animedragon you should be supposed to see the live now

if you go to 14:58 she should be singing it

Well, that's certainly a different rendition of the song, but it's not a bad one.

It was super good!! I cried 2 times in less than 20 minutes. I even started to feel emotions again (well just a little bit). It's my first vn ever and I'm glad about it. Just need to finish the bad ending and I can go to the true route. I won't spoil anything about the game but here is the op: 

That sounds and looks incredible. Actually, I might try it myself!

@notEli I’m sure you won’t regret it!

Well, that's different.

I'm not really interested in opera, but I did watch the Bayreuth Centenary version of Wagner's Ring many years ago when it was shown on TV.

I love the classics  

@Animedragon then there’s this

https://myanimelist.net/anime/1645/Herlock_Saga__Nibelung_no_Yubiwa

french is not easy... it's my first language and I hate it

Most of the other students in my school hated French. I was fortunate because only the A and B stream classes did French and I was in the C stream.

@Animedragon lucky

We had that last night. The snow has stopped falling, but it won’t be melting anytime soon.

That's serious snow. Take care, keep safe, keep warm.

By the way, that's an impressing Christmas Tree you've got there.

That's a beautiful photo. I can understand the aggravation of being snowed in though. If I lived in a northern polar climate, I think I would probably try to keep a tracked snowcat as a secondary vehicle for times like this.

Nice!

Wow, that's some really good sculpting work. Looks great!

This looks outstanding (and adorable) I absolutely love it. 
This is a big W right here! 
 

Sometimes I lose all interest in everything I love doing and find no joy in anything, so personally, I can relate. I struggle with anxiety, and when it gets severe enough, it can spill over into depression. I'm so sorry that you're having such a rough time with it. I wish I could do more than offer up words, but for what it may be worth, I hope you feel better soon, and I hope you find your spark again.

I'm sorry you're going through such an awful time. This sounds pretty rough, in a concerning way. Have you tried asking your parents to go with you and speak to a doctor about it? It might help give you proper care and clarity. 

There's always hope left, even when it doesn't feel like it. Keep it in mind if you can't keep it in heart right now.  

I don't know your story but, it sounds to me that what you need is a personal confidant - a "sympathetic ear" that you can release this energy around privately in harmless ways. Unfortunately you have stated yourself that you have difficulty trusting others; I honestly don't blame you for this. I am sorry to say that decent people are in very short supply in this particular era...at least in most places outside of Japan - where the people there live in a tribalistic society with customs of hospitality where everyone is expected to take care of one another personally, not because it's their job or because they're being paid to do it. While I have personally never been over there myself, I think this is one of the best aspects of Japanese Society that is portrayed in anime. I realize that to some extent the main characters are being presented as an ideal to be emulated, not necessarily because it is common behavior over there. Even so, does this make such a tight-knit social structure any less desirable? It's a rhetorical question. I think it is something worthy of meditating on. We can talk in PM if you would like to.

and for some reason it's super difficult for me to be relax or/and be myself. I always find out that I'm copying what somebody else is doing and i hate it

I've been dealing with bouts of depression myself since my dad died a year ago. New Year's Day was kinda tough to get through because of that. Mine sort of comes and goes, but I guess that's because I'm working just about all the time. I often feel like I should seek out a professional to help me with this, but it's difficult to do, I admit. I wish I could be more help to you, and I'm sorry that you're having to deal with this. I don't know if this matters to you or not, but know you aren't alone.

Keep fighting, and if you think it might help you even in the slightest, seek professional help.

@viruxxI know that you have good intentions here, however, I do not think that seeing a shrink is the answer. I think he simply needs a best friend who understands his desires and can help him deal with whatever else may be causing him distress - much easier said than done unfortunately. From my experiences, therapists only make the problems worse as a general rule, and I have seen more than one - all of them were certifiable weirdos exhibiting clear signs of neurotic tendencies, save for one possible exception; even the individual that I liked as a person I would still never trust with everything. The person was still a stranger that I did not know enough about...though a distinguished professional the person may have been, that person was still a human being which means that the person was not infallible or completely impartial. Everyone in a given occupation has their own professional biases and their favorite ideologies...this is the part of the soft data that is often referred to as the human element. Anyone who believes that even esteemed scholars are always correct and never wrong about anything is essentially tantamount to arguing that these people are not really human and given toward human prejudices like everyone else. Moreover, so-called 'mental health professionals' are basically required to be slaves to whatever conventional wisdom holds to be true during a given era. If you have read or watched works of historic literature dealing with the practices and procedures of the field then you will notice how much it has evolved over time - in some ways for the better...in other ways for the worse. I would actually argue that the psychology field as a whole has largely regressed and only in certain small areas has improved any. I think it's a shame honestly because I know that this science could be developed into something that is actually useful in getting straight to the heart of the matter...but it won't be. Why? Because the cruel moneyed interests do not want that, as they callously do not care about the needs of others.

It sounds like there might be more going on with Soramee_ here than he is telling us about. I don't know his complete backstory and out of respect for him I will not force it out of him against his will, but based on what he seems to be telling us here is that his only real desire is to be left alone and to play video games and watch anime. It feels as though he is trying to find emotional escape from something else which is beleaguering him in his personal life...like that maybe anime and video games are the only things which make him feel truly alive...perhaps because he finds modern society so repugnant and devoid of anything beautiful which makes him feel passionate and full of energy?? I know that I probably don't know the whole story here. Even if that's all that it really is, I can actually sympathize with that. Modern society ( as it exists today ) is a very ugly and dystopian social construct. It would have to be a very bitter thing to come to a point when one realizes that the only thing they have to look forward to in life as an adult is to be a worker bee who increasingly spends most of their waking life away from the things which give them comfort and joy and being pressured by society and their own family to leave those things behind as they come of age.

I don't want to close this on such a depressing note though. Since anime and video games are apparently the things which make him feel good as something to fall back on emotionally, I think the key to reversing his situation may be in isolating the qualities about those hobbies that bring out the best in him. I think the odds are probably more than 50% that this all stems from problems Soramee_ is having with his social life. Maybe he had a traumatic experience in his past that he hasn't told anybody? I have hit rock bottom before myself, let me tell you. I am no stranger to suffering. In fact, one of the reasons that I decided to take up writing is because I wanted audiences who see my work to be able to empathize emotionally with the sorrows and injustices that I have personally experienced myself within a fictionalized context. I am hoping that it influences people to try to make the world a friendlier and less despotic place.

Been there, done that.  Not saying "don't" but... be careful what you wish for. 

(Graduated in '82 so for me all ancient history at this point.)

I think we all dreamed of this kind of romance and honestly sometimes it's great and sometimes it's not. Some people find it and some people find it later in life and every one of the options is fine. Young love can come with a lot of hurt. I was lucky enough to find my fiancee in high school but at the same time, I went through downs before that. I know loads of peeps who didn't get into a relationship before college because well, it's honestly easier to find people more like you in such an open learning environment. So my advice for you is don't rush these things, make sure you find someone you like and who equally likes you back, a relationship isn't 50/50, it's 100/100. And if nobody in your life is like that then it's okay, you're saving yourself from a lot of unnecessary headaches. 

I FEEL THE SAME! I had a few small relationships when I was a first year, but it was nothing serious. Now I'm a third year, and all I want is someone who sees me for who I am. Everywhere I look is couples kissing in the hallways, and I can't help but feel so jealous and angry! I wouldn't kiss my partner in the hallway though, that's gross. I just hate being so lonely, and having friends doesn't make this feeling go away I just want to be in a relationship already!!!

I’m still on this screen because my degenerate side wants to see what will happen if choose dog or onii-san but I feel like they are the wrong choices…

still on the screen

Still here

i feel you, i have the same. Lets hope we will feel better soon

Sorry to hear it. I hope you get better soon.

I'm sorry to hear that, I hope you'll get well soon.

i would have but sorry no twitter

Sorry, I don't use twitter either. Otherwise I would.

I don't use my Twitter account much, but I found her Tweet and I've given her a like.

My sincerest condolence. It's always difficult when a loved one passed away. I'm sorry for your loss.

I'm sorry to hear this, my condolences to you and your family. It's always hard to lose a friend and even harder to lose a loved family member. I pray that you will have the strength to get through the next few weeks,

My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family. I understand all to well how painful and difficult this time is, but I'm trusting that you will find new strength to make it through this. There is light at the end of the tunnel. 

Sorry~ but look at it this way: you'll be able to get sleep once school's out.  

WAAAHH?! 
That's insanity! Start a riot!!! >:) 

Hope you get some good sleep though!

Ah, memories of the dreaded Friday afternoon PE class and the Cross Country Run through the local park. It wasn't 3km but it was a long way and parts of it were more like an obstacle course with several fallen trees and a couple of broken bridges over a small stream to overcome.

After that I need to go to his home to clean everything up with my parents so I think it’s one of the reason I don’t want to go

Very understandable, but you might get some closure if you do go.

I understand how you feel. Funerals are never easy things to go to, especially those of family members. I didn't go to my grandfather's funeral and I regretted it later on.

Nice! Oh, wow you were a closet otaku Soramee? Were you afraid of what anyone might think about you liking anime? :3

Yeah… 

Aww, it's okay we got your back over here! x3

Then I recommend checking out episode 9 of the Akiba’s Trip anime  Funniest episode of one of my favorite parody anime.

Akiba's Trip?? As in that game, "Undead Undressed"?

I believe so, though I’ve never played the games. There’s a “Those Who Hunt Elves” aspect to the anime if you’re familiar with that series’ gimmick. But the anime is more in tune with Excel Saga. The episodes parody various otaku interests with the episode I referenced focused on TCGs, Yu Gi Oh in particular.