Soramee_

i would have but sorry no twitter

Sorry, I don't use twitter either. Otherwise I would.

I don't use my Twitter account much, but I found her Tweet and I've given her a like.

i feel you, i have the same. Lets hope we will feel better soon

Sorry to hear it. I hope you get better soon.

I'm sorry to hear that, I hope you'll get well soon.

@Animedragon you should be supposed to see the live now

if you go to 14:58 she should be singing it

Well, that's certainly a different rendition of the song, but it's not a bad one.

This is that video that you posted in the "which song are you listening to?" thread. This one has a very nice application of the jazz organ sound filter. I noticed that the little announcement bit at the end had a caption which seemed to be directly referencing your username. Are you involved somehow with the channel that uploaded the video? Just curious.

oh its because there is a system in nico nico douga where you can advertise videos with points and i advertise this video. Even though it's weird that it happened on this one

I’m finally there and we just inform me that I was gonna babysit my little cousin… help 

I'm told that garlic is good for keeping vampires away.

But seriously, you have my sympathy about the 5am wake up calls. Before I retired I had to get up at 5am every weekday to get ready to go to work. It was OK in the summer, but not so good on a freezing cold winter morning.

Hopefully you lost it after you'd eaten your lunch, otherwise it would be a major catastrophe.

I found but I didn’t ate the content fully. Only less than half I would say and I’m someone that eats a lot

and for some reason it's super difficult for me to be relax or/and be myself. I always find out that I'm copying what somebody else is doing and i hate it

I've been dealing with bouts of depression myself since my dad died a year ago. New Year's Day was kinda tough to get through because of that. Mine sort of comes and goes, but I guess that's because I'm working just about all the time. I often feel like I should seek out a professional to help me with this, but it's difficult to do, I admit. I wish I could be more help to you, and I'm sorry that you're having to deal with this. I don't know if this matters to you or not, but know you aren't alone.

Keep fighting, and if you think it might help you even in the slightest, seek professional help.

@viruxxI know that you have good intentions here, however, I do not think that seeing a shrink is the answer. I think he simply needs a best friend who understands his desires and can help him deal with whatever else may be causing him distress - much easier said than done unfortunately. From my experiences, therapists only make the problems worse as a general rule, and I have seen more than one - all of them were certifiable weirdos exhibiting clear signs of neurotic tendencies, save for one possible exception; even the individual that I liked as a person I would still never trust with everything. The person was still a stranger that I did not know enough about...though a distinguished professional the person may have been, that person was still a human being which means that the person was not infallible or completely impartial. Everyone in a given occupation has their own professional biases and their favorite ideologies...this is the part of the soft data that is often referred to as the human element. Anyone who believes that even esteemed scholars are always correct and never wrong about anything is essentially tantamount to arguing that these people are not really human and given toward human prejudices like everyone else. Moreover, so-called 'mental health professionals' are basically required to be slaves to whatever conventional wisdom holds to be true during a given era. If you have read or watched works of historic literature dealing with the practices and procedures of the field then you will notice how much it has evolved over time - in some ways for the better...in other ways for the worse. I would actually argue that the psychology field as a whole has largely regressed and only in certain small areas has improved any. I think it's a shame honestly because I know that this science could be developed into something that is actually useful in getting straight to the heart of the matter...but it won't be. Why? Because the cruel moneyed interests do not want that, as they callously do not care about the needs of others.

It sounds like there might be more going on with Soramee_ here than he is telling us about. I don't know his complete backstory and out of respect for him I will not force it out of him against his will, but based on what he seems to be telling us here is that his only real desire is to be left alone and to play video games and watch anime. It feels as though he is trying to find emotional escape from something else which is beleaguering him in his personal life...like that maybe anime and video games are the only things which make him feel truly alive...perhaps because he finds modern society so repugnant and devoid of anything beautiful which makes him feel passionate and full of energy?? I know that I probably don't know the whole story here. Even if that's all that it really is, I can actually sympathize with that. Modern society ( as it exists today ) is a very ugly and dystopian social construct. It would have to be a very bitter thing to come to a point when one realizes that the only thing they have to look forward to in life as an adult is to be a worker bee who increasingly spends most of their waking life away from the things which give them comfort and joy and being pressured by society and their own family to leave those things behind as they come of age.

I don't want to close this on such a depressing note though. Since anime and video games are apparently the things which make him feel good as something to fall back on emotionally, I think the key to reversing his situation may be in isolating the qualities about those hobbies that bring out the best in him. I think the odds are probably more than 50% that this all stems from problems Soramee_ is having with his social life. Maybe he had a traumatic experience in his past that he hasn't told anybody? I have hit rock bottom before myself, let me tell you. I am no stranger to suffering. In fact, one of the reasons that I decided to take up writing is because I wanted audiences who see my work to be able to empathize emotionally with the sorrows and injustices that I have personally experienced myself within a fictionalized context. I am hoping that it influences people to try to make the world a friendlier and less despotic place.

I feel your pain...

I always found this time of year a problem at work because we had to come in but we knew that just about everyone else was off and we'd have no work to do. Mind you it wasn't all bad as we had unrestricted free access to the Internet.

As for the complaining coworker, you have my sympathies. For a couple of years I worked with a guy who had a persecution complex and was convinced that "they" were out to get him.  He scrutinised every e-mail and phone call from our manager to see if it contained some veiled threat or insult. Then he'd tell me his suspicions, and I'd get told the same stories almost every day. I was glad when he left.

Sad thing was he was actually a nice bloke and would do anything to help people, but his constant claims that he was being "got at" really wore me down.

well 21 now

24 hour now

Yes, somehow it doesn't quite feel like Christmas. Part of that is I think because Christmas Day is a Sunday this year and part of it, at least here in the UK, is that we've had lots of other things to occupy our minds.