So basically, over the past few months I've been trying my best to open up - emotionally. For me, this is something that's really hard considering i haven't done this in years, as in when i was still in elementary school. Opening up for me is, well, it's very hard. I'm also trying to comfort others but, it's so hard for me. I don't know what it is but, I hate this feeling. Since it feels like Im just powerless and can't do jack shit. I don't know what to do either, I just, I want to be more emotional. It's a struggle for me but my girlfriend says that all I need is time, but I don't want this to be a long process. It's hard for me because she's the only one I can really trust with myself, everyone else I feel is just insensitive or doesn't give 2 shits about what I'm going on about. This is just me personally but i want to be better, I want to change. I don't know what I'm really doing here but I needed to let loose. Most future posts are also gonna serious topics.