So this blog entry for today is somewhat a story about myself and a motivation speech or something. I was kind of confused if I would call this a random potato talk or an Exclusive on Potato patch and assuming you've read the title then you already know which I picked as a title. This blog entry is kind of a secret that I intend to share with the intention of teaching or conveying a lesson to everyone. This is also quite personal and I trust everyone can be trusted with this information about me
Two years ago, 2015 when I was still 15-16 years old I was facing a lot of troubles on my own. Ever heard of Fifteen by Taylor Swift? Yeah, that was pretty much what I was listening to that time obviously cause I can relate much to it. Everything was new. I've experienced having internet friends, my high school life had become a little interesting and soon I was about to graduate from Junior High. I've had this first forum around somewhere. I was culture shocked of course. Who wouldn't? Growing up I wasn't familiar with blondes, brunettes, red heads, colored eyes aside from brown or black and different skin tones. On my first forum I was a lurker. I would randomly like posts and just be online quietly, watching what these people would talk about all day without me really having a two way interaction with them. Of course some forum members noticed and I've received some posts on my profile and I can still remember how happy I was that somehow I got noticed not in a strange or weird way.
Along those lines I've grown close with a specific person in that forum and eventually he became my boyfriend. I knew back then that online relationships doesn't really work but naive as I am I still embarked on a relationship. Being inlove is fun. It made me think that I was lucky and for the first time I was really loved. Every time I would receive an I love you my heart fluttered and brings shivers to my spine. The idea of me getting jealous was fun and everytime he would console me on how I shouldn't get jealous was something new to me. In other words, I was childish and naive. Time passed until I discovered that he was cheating on me. That event caused too much drama since many of my close online friends found out and they've cause quite a rampage in that forum causing me to take refuge here. We broke up of course and that chapter of breakup was followed with four consecutive breakups until June 2016. My most painful heartbreak.
Reading this far I bet you wouldn't think about me having this many boyfriends in just a short time huh? Well, guess you wouldn't know a person until you really know them Looking back now I really want to strangle my 16 year old self, put it in a sack and throw it in a river somewhere. I was young and I was seeking for attention that those boyfriends gave to me in a short period of time. I am quite unreasonable and I never really learned from the last. I cried a lot of tears, gave a lot of efforts and felt a lot of feelings inside. Being young and inlove is fun just for the sake that it is fun and self rejuvenating. Being young and inlove can make you think that somehow this thing before me will last forever and somehow it'll eventually work. I want everyone to know that love, relationships and your attitude now are all temporary. Everything can change even people. Knowing that everything is temporary I suggest you hold on to it while you still can and when it's time to let go you just let go. Love is wonderful and intimate. Love start with one step and another. I suggest you start with the step of loving and accepting yourself