BleachKing96

So everything with my website is still moving extra slow but moving nonetheless. At a total of 250€ donated but gotta get 650 more to build my site, fml 

Been trying every method under the sun to get people interested in this and it works but at the same time doesn't. It seems for every one person I get believing in this, 5 show up that just shit all over my parade. I honestly don't know how I'm holding it together here and I know the simple solution is to quit but I'm so stubborn that I just can't do that. Too much work and effort gone into this and I keep believing I'll succeed even though the facts mostly say I won't.

Might reserve this website as my personal ranting space where I can just post these statuses and say what's on my mind. It's nice to let out my thoughts somewhere since I can't do it on my server, god forbid they all find out how much I'm suffering from trying to make things interesting for them. Giving up is on my mind everyday but I don't want everyone on my server to see that. If I lose my mind, they all lose interest and then I'm definitely screwed.

Rock and a hard place.