BleachKing96

So everything with my website is still moving extra slow but moving nonetheless. At a total of 250€ donated but gotta get 650 more to build my site, fml 

Been trying every method under the sun to get people interested in this and it works but at the same time doesn't. It seems for every one person I get believing in this, 5 show up that just shit all over my parade. I honestly don't know how I'm holding it together here and I know the simple solution is to quit but I'm so stubborn that I just can't do that. Too much work and effort gone into this and I keep believing I'll succeed even though the facts mostly say I won't.

Might reserve this website as my personal ranting space where I can just post these statuses and say what's on my mind. It's nice to let out my thoughts somewhere since I can't do it on my server, god forbid they all find out how much I'm suffering from trying to make things interesting for them. Giving up is on my mind everyday but I don't want everyone on my server to see that. If I lose my mind, they all lose interest and then I'm definitely screwed.

Rock and a hard place.

56 Members. This is just awesome. I was really shaky about how well this site was gonna go but getting to £275 on our fundraiser and having this much engagement on our discord and social media is just awesome.

Happier outlook thanks to this

My most recent addiction: Hedgehogs. Pls let me bless you all with my new discovery x3

So I gotta ask... Am I just butchering my own idea? Have I made a dramatic U-turn on the highway to a safe success and made a beeline for a drastic screw-up?

I recently went to the GoFundMe page for my site and decided to lower prices of the donation rewards, not drastically but rather substantially. I'm a bit wary of the repercussions. What if people do start donating but it turns out to be more than I expected and, before I know it, I DO have a site but then I gotta hand out statuses to loads of people and the site's manager is watching me like a hawk because, technically, I'm not supposed to do that. But like... I'm left with no choice 

This is the very last option I wanted to try but, honestly, I'm exhausting myself with coming up with new crazy ways to get this working and unnecessarily creating new advertising ways to one-up on others and it's completely draining my mental capacity. A while ago I suggested to myself that I slow down and not do too much but, to be honest, I've just given myself more work. It's so difficult wanting to make something work but not wanting to work yourself to death doing it.

So there's my day 

Well on a lighter note, just finished binging Blue Exorcist again, still awesome

When Rin and Yuki both grab the Koma Sword... e p i c!

Funniest scene? Can't decide between Yuki telling Rin off for his test result or Rin jumping out of the window when he's making the cake with Konekomaru. Ppl worshipping Shiemi tho and I'm just like Shura is 11/10 waifu material.

All my current moods, as shown by Sakata Gintoki

(Rant alert)

I keep wondering whats the point in trying to get this website started. I cant get anyone to help start it up and the jackhole that builds the site is demanding an unholy amount of money to get it started up. The even better part is seeing others in the server who are making their own sites, getting mass donations while im doing everything i can, advertising everywhere, on every soxial media platform, every single friggin day and still get nowhere.

What exactly am i supposed to do at this point. I cant magic the money out of thin air. And the best part? Ohhhh the best part is that on the rare occasion someone asks about the donations page, they say "oh thats a lot of money, i cant really donate with a target like that". Excuse me, my friend,  but did I ask you to pay for the whole thing? No I bloody didnt. I asked you to please donate "WHAT YOU CAN" or just share it with someone who will, ya gooseberry.

This has caused me to need breathing exercises and cookie therapy

(Rant over)