Willing Slave

[SAO LILDOOP]

Title: Willing Slave

Blood in the water, I am you're debtor,

saved me from her so I will serve you better, 

blood in the water drown my last letter, drown my last letter,

now put me in fetters... 

 

From pain of remorse, guilt gone off course, 

living life like I'm reading braille, 

a slave though I'm free from jail, 

what the hell, is this me?

Why is this my reality? 

 

I'm a masochist, from the past to this, 

whips and fists, caught up in this tryst, 

caught up in this blood red mist, 

polluting the air with our hate-filled kiss, 

polluting our minds with this violent bliss...

 

Love and hate, just two sides of the same coin, 

menstruate before the time, 

blood runs quickest when your having fun, 

rushing, rushing till the wake of the sun, 

feeling, feeling that life's only just begun. 

 

But when I'm alone, skins cold as stone, 

I can't touch myself. I despise my health, my spiritual wealth, 

can only stare at my wrists, scarred and abhorred. 

cut when I'm bored, or at least I used to, 

deserve to be in a psyche ward, and that's why I love you, 

you save me from myself and swear I did the same, 

vice versa, however, is not in the name, 

I swear I can't repay you no matter what you say, 

but I can help to contain you, I'd not have it any other way.

 

I'll be your object, a thing of beauty in your eyes only, 

in your heart truly, I kill myself, you'll see right through me, 

dwell within me as you screw me, 

I'll fill that need, your need for love, strap on that glove, 

because you are my dove, my divine rose, 

such innocent words as I strike this pose? 

I don't know how to reconcile my love for you and my self denial, 

you, my God, look at me lustfully, though I am so vile, 

it is only because of you're smile I can even look ahead a mile...

 

So sign this pact, drenched in my blood, 

lets reenact this in the mud, 

that when you die, so will I, 

I'll slit my throat, as you once tried, 

you'll close your eyes, and I'll close mine, 

we won't say goodbye, lost in time, 

we'll be together, till death does part, 

for he will pass, before our love depart...

 

 

 

 

 

 

Edited July 15, 2019 by SAO LILDOOP