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  1. I just made a Naruto CCG on Dulst, anybody want to try it out? https://dulst.com/game-35543696/forums/News Use the discord for matchmaking, thx.
  2. Anybody want to try this Naruto CCG I made on Dulst? 


  3. ♥ Cell Phone ♥ Sitting up at night, a bottle in my hand, your picture to my right atop my nightstand, my cell close to my ear, your voice comes in so clear, it's almost like your here, but I'm alone I fear. Your words fill up the silence, like refreshing lemonade, and through this glitchy science comes a sweet serenade. And in your voice I hear a twinge, and in your silence a tear... And in your moan I see, that half-moon smile ecstasy. And though your far away from here, I feel you like a canvas, your soft skin with paint I smear till nothing's left between us. And as you speak I do grow weak like a child, oh so meek, and in my heart I pray the day you and I will get to say: "I love you". For I cannot with clean conscience confess, not without unnerving stress, over the phone my love for thee, lest I should stay and you should flee.
  4. Just graduated and got my Bachelors Degree! ♥ Also, that light novel I mentioned in my last update? I've finished 3 chapters! :D 

  5. Just scored a 98% on one of my college papers and also finished outlining an entire light novel I intend to write. Things are going good! :D 

  6. Just finished, "Your lie in April" and then binged, "Anohana: the Flower we saw that day" and I couldn't stop crying. Your lie in April really inspired me to stay motivated and learn how to play the piano, it gave me something meaningful to hold to and I feel truly indebted to it. Anohana made me cry more than I ever have watching a show in my life, such an impactful story with beautiful characters that will stick with me always, and to accomplish such in only 11 episodes! I feel I have seen two of the greatest anime ever and I just feel so... happily sad right now. 

    Btw, if anybody wants to check out my animelist, here is the link to the account I just made: https://myanimelist.net/profile/PossibilityLives

    1. L Lawliet

      L Lawliet

      Same thing happened to me the first time I watched Your Lie in April. It was one of the most depressing animes that I've watched (so far in my life).

      I personally was mostly depressed because I didn't understand why, ahem, some things happened, and I still don't. Either way, still depressing.

  7. I am looking for players who would be down to play D&D weekly, I want to join a dedicated group who is familiar with 5E, plays on Roll20.net and is willing to play with a first-timer like myself. I know the basics, I have watched all of WASD20's opening tutorial videos and am somewhat familiar with Roll20. I am not looking for an entire group, per se, but I am looking for players who are willing to join one. I don't DM since I am new, so I would need a DM. My Roll20 account name is D&Diva. If anybody is interested in playing with me, knows any games I can join with them, or wants to join up with me in looking for games, please reply below with you're role in the game (i.e. player or DM) and you're availability (e.g. weekends). Thank you ~♥ Roll: player Availability: Tuesday (pretty much anytime before 7-8 PM). Weekends (but time varies).
  8. Title: Head in the Clouds One step upwards, two steps down, each time I lift my leg, wait, 1 second passes, my foot hits the ground. Head in the clouds, wish I had glasses, because the fog down here, it's got me movin' like molasses, chokin' down these unnatural gases, quick sand cement how the time passes, and it don't stop, not even when I'm flyin', cause I ain't got wings, gotta stop denying, my floor's risin' but not my ceiling, Michael Jordan how I float after jumpin', but always my feet hit the ground leavin' me pantin', now by now you gotta be understandin', after all I ain't speaking latin, what I'd give for more time in the sky, wavin' goodbye to all the jokers livin' the lie, waking up on a cloud to meet God in the sky, what I'd do to do more than get by. But you don't understand do ya? I can float, understand, wontcha? Or do I have to show ya? 2 steps upward, wait, 10 seconds pass, 1 step down, shattered bone like cheap glass, painted stone like Joel Bass, 10 seconds till I fell on mah ass, God, are you makin' a pass? Wait... 10 years later and I'm in the chair, electric? Nah, but I'd dare, three seconds blind and I'm there, Jigsaw cryin' cause I ain't scared, all cause' freedom I dared, damn man, sittin' in the can man, sippin' out the can man, everything's a can man, we compost how we livin', clean us out, throw us way, we ain't gettin' recycled, we dyin' today, wait, what is today?
  9. Title: Bright Red Ink The devil's in the details, at least that's what she said, she wrote it all in bright red ink just to get it through my head, signed it with her signature, a name I once held dear, threw it in my face in front of a courtroom for all to hear, stung me like a bee when I'd been sweet as honey, then took my colony and with it all my money, called it irony for all I'd said and done but when it comes down to it in hypocrisy her fortune's spun, so to the sun bid I farewell and to the moon goodbye, for days and nights come but twice a week for this melancholy sigh, I'll take the blame for the loss when those children on high cry, but you won't see me buckle, no, you won't see me break, not when I remain under their melancholy eye, nor will she, the love of my life or at least last month, for it isn't fair for one to be all beauty without a little beast, yet I don't give up, not even when tempted with a lead feast, though I don't get up, but two times a week, because it hurts too much to go outside, when whether day or night, its black as pitch hide.
  10. Title: Ordinary Man Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words can never hurt me, don't you see, I'm an ordinary man, take a look, if you can at this ordinary man Read a book, watch T.V. I'm too ugly for ecstacy, break a leg, drain the keg, now you know what it's like to be me. I'm to la-azy, what is wrong with me, call me ba-aby, please go out with me, wake me from this dream, neurotic fever scene, save me from myself or let me rot in hell. It's painful here, the end is clear, so I grab my beer to wash away the fear, of the unknown. Contradictions, they laught at me, I am not who I'm meant to see, this man inside my head, he wont stop until I'm dead. I'm to la-azy, what is wrong with me, call me ba-aby, please go out with me, wake me from this dream, neurotic fever scene, save me from myself or let me rot in hell. Sticks and stones may break my bones but words can never hurt me, you see, I'm an ordinary man, I play pretend, like when I was ten, pretend to know I can, win the war, win the fight, or maybe just the night, damn man, there he goes again, the adult in me can't seem to stay in his pen, gettin' real on me just when I was listening, to the mirror me, the flipside imagery, courtesy of this neurotic fever scene. Personal hell, more like personal heaven, only catch is the fact that I'm aware of the leaven, may as well be a miner how I'm makin' this coal, diggin' deeper and deeper into this hell-hole, don't think I'll find my way back again. Don't think I'll find my way back again, don't think I'll ever find my way back again, but I keep my shaky self in tact by taking solace in the fact, that I'm just an ordinary man.
  11. This is awesome, I have been listening to a lot of slipknot lately so I kinda read this as if they were singing it. Really good and I love the imagery it leaves me with, like a battlefield. Awesome.
  12. Dandelions and Roses do not mix one draws blood the other licks, painful pleasure, toxic measure, thorns evoke the predator. Hunger grows and it shows, stifled blows, bloody nose, pollinate the ecstasy, but from up here its not hard to see. Essence, aura, pheromone, touch it, smell it, like a drone, listen with your senses dear, maybe it will stop the fear. Rain drops from on high, pity pouring from the sky, starving, starving you're not done, drink it down till there's sun. Then snow, just snow, cold as the glow, biting as the blow, then wilting, lilting without the rain, just frozen visions of the same. Petal by petal, gust by gust, this poor rose returns to dust, and beneath the earth lies her grave, beside the dandelions gaze. So pass the days, so pass the minutes, so pass the hours, so pass the years. Seconds upon seconds, infinity jeers.
  13. What would you miss the most from you're everyday life if you lived in a post-apocalyptic world without any of the fun things you like to do daily (e.g. text, listen to music, etc.)?
  14. So, I have had long hair for the past couple of years. I liked it at first but recently I have gotten quite sick of it seeing as I almost always wear either a man-bun, braid or pony-tail variation. I think its a well known fact that life is just a little less colorful, a little less happy and fun when you don't look as good as you want to, and I am kind of getting bored with myself; so, recently, I have begun trying to find new fun hairstyles to try for long hair. I am not looking for sexy hairstyles, but instead for cute hairstyles, specifically ones with bobby pins. Anyway, to get to the point of this post (and stop wasting your time, sorry) I am in sincere need of some recommendations, this is because whenever I look for cute bobby pin styles I can't find any for men! I would love it if a bunch'a people would post cute bobby pin hair styles for men (excluding any and all pony-tails, man-buns, etc.). I would prefer a nice hairstyle that is kind of foofy, anyway, I have found a couple of hairstyles in anime I like, for example: Out of the two I prefer Juso's, it's a little cuter imo, but I hope you guys also have some suggestions. It's hard finding stuff like this for guys, lol. Edit: I also prolly couldn't do either of the above hairstyles because my hair is quite long instead of medium length, so as I said before, "foofier" is better. Thanks. ♥
  15. Title: Cold Coffee Cup The wind whistles, the mill whines, the flesh bristles in these chilled times. The air bites, the sun wanes, from days to nights the earth complains. While mind doth falter, and flesh doth fail, while quiet does psalter, and love doth pale, in the cold, buried all alone, lies an old, cold, coffee cup. While knee's do bend, and feet doth tread, while backs do ache, and earth doth quake, while wind doth blow, and mercilessly so, the old coffee cup doth remain, dully the same. Now, as wind grows quiet, as demons howls do retreat, as Helios does once again rise, and into the skies voices entreat, that old, cold, coffee cup starts to feel a change, his cold exterior starts to, itself, rearrange, and, that one last drop of coffee so cherished, begins to slip down, like a sinner from his parish. Each day it stoops, just a little lower, and each night its saved, just a minute longer, and as the bells of hell begin to toll, our old coffee cup finds himself beneath a sole. His warmth has died, his drip has dropped, his life bespied, charitably stopped. A broken image, of a thawed demeanor, a hollow vision, a tormented master, and all that remains, to signal death's grip, is a brown liquid sputter, and a rusted out chip.
  16. I just became a Catechumen in the Orthodox Christian Church yesterday! *Mario Voice* Wahoo! Glad to finally be rid of protestantism. :D 

    Also, I have decided to really start working on my art again; I haven't practiced in forever and lately LavenderTowne and Creepshow art have been getting me very inspired. I may even attempt drawing a picture a day, however, with school starting up again we'll see how motivated I feel. I think listening to Lofi oughta keep me in high spirits, wish me luck. 

    ♥ Please remember, you are having a great day ♥


    1. Seshi


      Good luck



      Thanks, I am trying to find my art-style. I haven't drawn in a long time and want to really perfect my art, so I am starting to copy artists I really like and get some new styles down. Working on Ghibli right now, I love Studio Ghibli's art-style. Ghibli's characters to me personify joy, peace and just an overall sense of, kind of a childish nostalgia. Its simplistic yet beautiful, honestly, Kiki's delivery service is my main source of Ghibli inspiration right now. :D I am feeling very happy right now, a lot more productive than I felt before. Also, I just started (a couple days ago) the dormition fast for the Theotokos, or, Mary the mother of God as most people know her. 

  17. Inactivity lately prompts me to give a lil' status update to those who care, :D 


    What I've been up to]

    School, lots of it and boring as frick, lol. Um, I have started learning to play the Cowboy Bebop theme on piano as well as memorize the C-blues scale. I actually just finished watching Cowboy Bebop, maybe I will write a review of it later. 

    What else? Oh yeah, I have been reading the flowers in the attic series, and if you know me that's kinda crazy because I do not really enjoy reading real books; anyway, I am on book 2 and it is amazing! 

    My dad bought a bunch of Orthodox Icons and we have an icon corner now so we can speak to and venerate the Christian saints of orthodoxy. I know, it probably sounds weird to you, but it is truly amazing, a window to heaven. ♥

    Just celebrated the 4'th of July yesterday and watched Forrest Gump for the first time ever; honestly, I love Tom Hanks so I don't know why I didn't watch it sooner, I think it was that 2 and a half hour time-stamp staring me down that kept me away for so long, lol. 


    AF Activity]

    I've posted some new Poems in poetry club if anyone wants to go and check them out. Other than that, I think I've mentioned I've been a bit inactive, lol. 


    Life update/Resolve]

    I have been feeling kind of lazy lately, so I think ima make a point of doing all of my workouts daily (no more skipsies) and really dedicate some more time to piano practice. Also, I intend on really getting serious about learning Japanese, no more of this anime-japanese like in Cilvanis video's, lol. 


    New Interests] 

    I think I may want to learn Ballet, idk though, I don't want my feet to get ruined so I think I might just want to learn the basics. I really just want to be even more elegant and I think Ballet helps a lot with balance, I don't really need it, but it would be cool. 

    I would like to learn how to sing as I kind of suck at it right now. I mainly want to learn how to sing because I am learning how to play piano and I want to learn how to play guitar, violin and the zither later (I love music) and if I could sing along to my playing I think it'd be great. Also, I feel like I could sing some of the poems I write. 

  18. Title: Say What you Want ♥♥♥ I said you could drown if you wanted to, drown in my love, I don't got a clue, say what you want, but please, please don't forget the view. Oh yes I cried when you walked right out the room, and I tried but its just too much to sweep, with just one broom. So say what you want, I don't got a clue, I don't understand what you're meaning to, do to me, I can see, who you are, who you'll be, and I know you'll be with me, as I'm with you... So say what you want, I don't got a clue, drown in my love, yes I'm beggin' you, soar like a dove if you're meaning to, but I know who you will be, and you'll end up with me, you sweet thing you, yeah, its true, you'll end up with me, come on, you know it too, you'll end up... with me. ♥♥♥ Love you guys, hope you enjoyed this cute little poem! Note: I was Thinking it would sound really good as a song sung is kind of a folk-song way, I would love to sing it sometime but I am not a very good singer; if I practice maybe I can do it someday, gotta learn how to play guitar too as I think it'd sound better on Guitar than piano (my current instrument of my choice).
  19. Title: A Child's Dream (How I used to Smile) Do you remember how I used to cry, how I used to sigh and fake a smile, how I used to lie and live in denial? Do you remember how I used to curse, how I used to fight and how I used to lose? Do you remember how you'd be my nurse? Stitch me up nice with whatever was in you're purse. Do you remember how ungrateful I'd be, playing it cool, hoping you didn't see, what it was like to be me. Do you remember how I used to smile? Do you remember, cause its been a while... Do you remember how I hated the rain, how the cold showers only reminded me of my pain? Do you remember how I used to cut, I wore long sweaters so you wouldn't see, what it was like to be me. But you did... and you stayed. Do you remember how I used to write letters everyday, do you remember how hard it was to say? Do you remember unfolding that note, do you remember what it was like to choke, back the tears and back my fears? Do you remember what I looked like, dangling from that rope? Do you remember what it was like to be me? But I swear I didn't do it, I swear I was stronger, I swear I didn't let you down, I swear I'd have held on longer, I-it w-was this drunk driver you see, came out of nowhere and ended my misery... I swear I didn't let you down, but after all, you know what it was like to be me... Now, as you stand over me, are you crying or is that rain? I can feel its soft pitter patter on this stone-cold grave. Please, tell me you remember, please, tell me their tears, please, tell me you love me, and I'll tell you, "Be brave". Please, cry me a river, please, cuss me out cold, please, say you adore me, please, don't be so controlled... I can you feel you're soles, feel you're temperature, feel you're chain, I can you feel Jane, feel you again, but can you feel me, beneath all this terrain? Oh, Jane, please, just let me share you're pain... You've borne mine so long I can stand to see you go on, not like this... But just once more, could you cry for me? Could you show you care for me, still have that picture of me? remember when we were three, and we climbed that tree? R-remember, how I asked you to marry me, down on one knee, just a baby? Oh Jane, won't you please cry for me? Now I hear your parents, "Come on lets go", and I hope, just hope, you urging them, "no". Now the footsteps grow distant, which welcomes the thunder, welcomes the rain and welcomes the sputter. If only now, then what then? Were those truly you're tears, for me, being shed? But now I lie all alone, with only my thoughts, and that single nagging question, do you remember how I used to... Can you forget how I used to: cry, sigh, lie, curse, fight, lose? And just remember how I used to... Smile? Can you remember how I used to laugh, those rare times I wasn't bleeding in the bath. Can you remember how we used to talk, it wasn't always about death, tragedy and pain, don't you remember the days when it didn't rain? Say you remember my voice, that giggle I'd try to hide, tell me you remember my choice, my resolve to make you my bride. And a child's dream never changes, it just learns to migrate into the recesses, and the recesses of the brain, away from where all the pain is... And I think I know now, just why I'm here. It's a message from above, packaged up neat and delivered here, to the doorstep of my fear, written in capitals, crystal clear. And yet... It's like staring through a cold can of beer, on a hot summer's day. Like staring through a tear while you're begging me to stay. And it's hit me like a punch right to the gut, that you'd ask me to stay even today. Yes, I guess, I was always right and you didn't mean it; that tight lipped facade was so that you could believe it. But you couldn't, though you would, until today... And that's okay, I mean, it's true, what can I say? A child's dream never dies, it just migrates into the recesses and the recesses of the mind... Away from where all the pain is.
  20. Injustice: God's Among Us is free on Steam, Ps4 and probably some other consoles right now for a limited time. Great game, I'd recommend it! 

  21. Replaying Last of Us to get hyped for Last of us 2 (I think I'ma buy it today). Also been playing a lot of MH: One's Justice and Injustice 2 lately.
  22. Shoutout to an underappreciated Lofi Stream live right now; I really enjoy this one, hope you guys'll give it a listen. :D ~♥

  23. White male suicide rates have sky-rocketed in recent years, no doubt because of the bias and hatred perpetrated against them by the liberal media. Men can be gross, but so can women, men can be sexual predators, but so can women, men can be violent, but so can women; why can't we all just stand up for real, "Equality"? 

    Misogyny, toxic masculinity and more terms used by the media today to belittle (Almost specifically and primarily), "Straight white men" are not terms that can be forced onto one ethnic group of people. We all need to realize this and move on from man-bashing and the encouragement of white guilt (Which can be seen prominently in Germany), please, it saddens me to see the effects it is having on otherwise perfectly happy young men. 

    No one is guilty of the sins of their fathers or mothers, you are only guilty of your own sins; stop feeling bad because you are told to by the media, I love you, love yourselves. ~♥ And please, nobody take this as me trampling on women's rights or whatever by talking mainly about men here, I am focusing on men right now because they are the ones under constant fire, sometimes for the best (Hollywood Elite purging, e.g. Harvey Weinstein) and other times for the worse. 

    Lets all just love one another and not continue to, even inadvertently, perpetrate mass depression and ostracization of any group of people for any reason ever. Not saying something is just as bad as going along with the agenda. 


    XOXOXO~ "The soul that sinneth, it shall die. The son shall not bear the iniquity of the father, neither shall the father bear the iniquity of the son: the righteousness of the righteous shall be upon him, and the wickedness of the wicked shall be upon him" -Ezekiel 18:20 KJV


    Judge people on an individual basis and leave out generalizations when it comes to subjects like these. Not all men, not all women, everyone is different.


    ♥ Have a beautiful day ♥

    1. Seshi


      Suicide is a hard topic. Its one that saddens me most deeply beyond most causes of death. Besides murder, it is perhaps the most cruel.

      We can definitely make an impact on others by simply choosing to be kind. To be unselfish and think of others first. This way, we dont only seek to uplift ourselves but to uplift others in their day to day lives as well.

      We can never know the silent struggle someone is going through. It has been said time and again, and I have found it to be true that its often your smiling friends who are struggling the most. They just wont show it.

    2. Ohayotaku


      “There is so much good in the worst of us, and so much bad in the best of us, that it ill behooves any of us to find fault with the rest of us.“ —James Truslow Adams

      There are no “throw-away” people.

  24. Help please: I am trying to watch Naruto ep. 174 on Crunchyroll and there are no english subtitles. All other episodes so far have had them but now that Crunchyroll HTML5 is not working none of the new ones do. How do I fix this? Thx. 

    1. Illusion of Terra

      Illusion of Terra

      I just tried it and there are no english subtitles for me as well starting from episode 174 onward (other languages work), so I suspect it is a crunchyroll thing



      Well, I hope they fix it soon, smh. Thanks for the reply. 

  25. Metal Gear Solid V, I just bought it. It's like the JoJo's Bizarre Adventure of video games, I am literally in love right now! Just wish the others were on PS4 outside of PS-Now. 

    1. SanguineTear


      Good to know, I have been thinking of getting V after I get through some other things I have sitting around~

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