It was a typical Friday night. I was sitting on my bedside table with my laptop right in front of me with three tabs opened on my Google Chrome. One was AF, the other was on my Facebook and the last was on my Youtube which showed the list of my favorite Youtubers I subscribed to varying from beauty vloggers to art gurus. It was another tiring day, I just came home from a day of babysitting my younger sister and I have no idea what to do. I've seen the not so busy activities on AF that day and I was planning to make a blog entry or add a picture on my gallery. I was reading through the threads until one notification appeared together with a ding that I wasn't expecting.
It was from an old friend that is now my acquaintance due to some unfortunate events. The person left a message with only two letters, "Hi." with an annoying meep sticker that I used to love. Being a weak person as I am I replied with a single Hello and things came rushing back. All the joy, the excitement, the giggles I let out and the pain that rot me to my core came rushing back. It was a storm of mixed feelings and as we continue talking I felt all of it all at once. I need to act cool. I need to show this person that I'm not bitter. I need to show this person that I'm not the me that this person knew back then. I need to stand my ground. So we talked and talked and talked. Through the exchange of "what's up?" and "how are you?" the conversation went longer and finally after some time I was able to muster the courage of ending the conversation I never wanted to end.
Things change. Relationships change. Nothing remains constant no matter how much you'll hold something tightly within your clutch. The bond I shared with that person changed and somehow I feel no regret about it. Of course the first few days and months were painful but eventually you'll grow and somehow adapt to that big change. Let go of what you need to let go. Don't keep those remaining tingling feeling and let go of it all. No good can result from all those tingling feeling. Be brave to take another step forward and don't ever look back!