While I'm not afraid to die, I do still have people I need to keep myself alive for. So, I don't live for myself. Accidents and the unexpected fatal injuries happen though. So do heart attacks. Even so, I feel my big sister's presence every second that I'm awake, so I know there's an afterlife. Like the Blue Oyster Cult song says: "don't fear the reaper." because there are worse things that can happen other than death to someone. Personally I consider death to be a release from the pain of the living world, but, as I said, I've still got people I need to keep myself alive for. My life isn't just my own, my friends and family would be sad and heartbroken if I did anything to myself like anything suicidal. I used to be very much suicidal, but now I've found a solid group of friends and my family would mourn me. So, I've kind of woken up to the reality that suicide is very much a selfish act.