Forlorn

Common sense needing to be called something else these days since it isn't as common as it used to be. Or at least what I'm told it used to be.

Nice project. ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^

I'm not really sure if I'm in a position to talk or not, but the project looks good. ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^

Nice projects. ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^

@Sarada, @Sakura, @Sasuke, @Zeref Thank you all for coming to my defense. < 3 I apologize for this being late. I hope it didn't come across as ungrateful. I'm not used to friends caring as much as you do because of I don't remember having friends that would do that so fast. I'm sorry about being late for thanking you all. >< >< >< ;.; ;.;

Thanks. ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ I still need to type up replies to everyone's message since I wasn't able to do anything yesterday, but for some reason I can't understand my whole body feels sore and aches. I feel like I've been on some kind of workout or something. So, at least it isn't Covid. But I need to go back to sleep because I am so worn down that I honestly don't even feel like I have much energy today to do much after what happened in this house I'm supposed to call "home." I'll type the replies to all of the messages I've got in my Inbox. I think that's what it's called. Unless I'm thinking of e-mail anyway. To all of my friends, thanks for putting up with me for so long. Thank you for letting me be so important to you all. You're just as important to me, too. ^^

I woke up a lot later than I meant to, but before I went to sleep I did mention to Serenity that I'm going to start a Sheele and Tatsumi GFX project. I think I got infatuated with Esdeath since I've had a thing for really strong women, especially ones that can destroy so much in such a short time. Sheele reminds me a lot of me, and also reminds me of what big sis' would probably do if I felt like crying, but didn't want to or want anyone to see. I can't remember which episode that was where she hugged Tatsumi at the end of the episode, but he was crying for his 2 friends from his village who... met a very unfortunate end that nobody deserves. I'm not even going to say what happened to Tatsumi's friends because I can remember the horrific setting and story behind his 2 friends' deaths, but the way Sheele comforted Tatsumi so that he could feel like it was ok to cry made me think of big sis' and the kind of person she was as well. So, the inspiration for this new project is a little bit complicated, but I'll be working on it as my next project. ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^

Saturday was an extremely bad day for me mentally. I won't go into details because... just because... but this is more of a belated post for Saturday night since I woke up and it was 1am in the morning on Sunday morning. I had no idea I'd sleep such a long time. Oh, sorry. I feel really bad because what I thought was going on was clearly not going on. Maybe... just maybe... I shouldn't try to agitate the mental things I hear. That might've been what made it worse today. Due to growing up around Mom and my step-father, I've learned the unfortunate trait of being stubborn to a fault, especially when I'm being defiant. However... I literally went a little too close to actual crazy this time... so, how I'm feeling is in relation to Saturday since I woke up way later than I wanted to. Or earlier, depending on how you look at it. I mean, I'm the type of guy that would rather die being defiant than submit to anyone who tries to break me down, but I have other people I have to live for, so I have to swallow my pride and just... keep from agitating what I hear with my mental illness. Up until Saturday it hasn't been able to drive me so close to the brink of insanity in the number of years those who I've told the specific number to (I forgot if I said it on the forum or not). To all of my friends, and anyone who tolerates my... episodes of mental instability... thank you, and I apologize from the bottom of my heart for ever making any of you worry. I think, as @Sakura suggested not too long ago (sorry, li'l sis', I can't actually remember when you suggested this ^^; ^^; ^^; ^^; ^^; ) if I start to feel that way from now on, I'll have to take a break for a few days sometimes if I start to feel that way again, but I'll always come back after my mind settles back down. So, if I don't post for a few days then that will be why, but it won't be permanent because I don't have any reason to leave the forum now nor do I plan on leaving. ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ After I woke up though, I remembered what li'l sis' said about seeing if it would help if I did take a break before it gets worse to kind of reset myself. If you want to call though, I'll be home most of the time as usual~~~ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ Like Saturday night (or was it afternoon...? ^^; ^^; ^^; ^^; ^^; ) The occasions where it gets really bad aren't frequent, so I won't sound like a total lunatic on a regular basis. >< >< ^^; ^^; ;.; And hey, @Sakura, it was like big sis' wanted you to call me because I was really close to a tipping point when you called. As and after we talked on the phone it helped immensely to calm me down and it was reassuring to an extent I don't think even my vocabulary can accurately describe. You were a major factor in helping me chill out. Thank you, li'l sis'~ < 3 So, even if I'm taking one of those 2-or-3-day-long breaks, should you feel up to it and if you have time to, you can still call, but if you feel like you want to call. I'd feel so horrible if you felt obligated or compelled to call in any way. >< >< ;.; ;.; ;.; Though I don't think you'd call if you didn't want to, but just in case I'm wrong (which is happening a lot lately). ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ You really are like a little sister to me, y'know. < 3

Icon for Hire - The Grey (Akame ga Kill AMV - (Not mine btw, and none of the others were either. So, I really need to include this last part) ) Monster - Skillet (Broly AMV)

I feel... I'm not actually sure if it would be wise to say on this forum given what's putting me in a laid back, chilled out mood... I don't want someone to sue me for saying what it is. lol ^^; ^^; ^^; ^^; ^^; I don't know anything about what I could be sued or not over. XD Even if I wanted to learn all of it I wouldn't be able to since I'd be spending most of my attention span on what to do next to get further in the game(s) I'm playing. lmao Oh, but I do feel like a meat popsicle. XD XD

Then

Cemetery

Bear hug her then start swinging in circles, happy and extremely fortunate to be her friend. Seriously I think I could cry from it, but they'd be tears of joy. ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ < 3

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