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7 hours ago, Sarada said:

I get that for real but you also have to take into account when someone is blatantly using you and look at the situation from the POV of: would they do this for me if the situation was reversed? It isn't your fault you were every bit kind to him and helped him out of bad situations and he used that. Don't blame yourself because he's a POS 

It's still a bit hard to not blame myself for it lol I never told him no or set any boundaries I just always gave him whatever he needed to fix whatever every single time so I feel like it's a little on me ~ I've always had a hard time saying no to people anyways and I need to work on that x.x  

3 minutes ago, Sarada said:

You should be but they should be returning the same energy. If they aren't going to do the same thing for you when the situation is reversed they aren't very good friends. 

That's true I guess lol I don't really expect anything from my friends though I just like knowing that I can be there for them if they need me to be, which is all I was trying to do for him but looking back I guess he took advantage of that and I didn't realize it ._. Though in truth it may have been a little bit my own fault~ 

5 hours ago, Zeref said:

It has been hot here lately I'm not enjoying this either I rather there be snow on the ground. In regards to pictures these look great. You are too criticizing of yourself when you always do a good job with art whether GFX or photos. The other matters, well I believe it's good you finally moved away from speaking to him. 

I think I might attract the wrong kinds of people sometimes and I'm just too dumb to realize it

No you aren't dumb. You trust people to be as kind as you are and people take advantage of you. While I do think you should be more cautious at first with people and with who you trust I don't want you to ever lose the quality of believing people to be good and caring about people. The world needs more people like this especially in the state of things now. 

Tyty Pessikins <33 Lol I know I do criticize myself too much, I'm not sure why @.@ 

AWWW YOU MAKE ME CRYYYY  lmao ~ but yeah I'll be more careful in the future, I realize I trust people far too easily sometimes still

1 hour ago, Sarada said:

There's nothing wrong with assuming the best but like Pessi said just be careful. Some people aren't all that great as I'm sure you know.. 

Ya most people are crap lmfao I just have always felt like if someone is my friend I should be there for them with whatever they need x.x 

I feel like that some days too, not all the time though thankfully but yeah ~ sometimes I can get 8 hours of sleep and be tired, 12 hours and be tired, sleep 24 hours and still be tired, makes no sense XD Anime is pretty much the same for me too. I can't really get into an anime unless I can see myself in it in some way I guess lol 

9 hours ago, Animedragon said:

I really like the warm weather, but 27C is close to my limit as I don't cope well when it gets above 30C. Anyway, those snow photos are great I'd really like to be able to take some like that but we hardly ever get snow were I am and when we do it's only a few flakes that don't settle. Those night photos are amazing and you've even captured the stars as well which makes the photos even better. Don't fall into the trap of thinking you must have an expensive hi-tech camera to take great photos, the best camera in the world won't take good photos if the photographer doesn't have an eye for a good photo, and you most definitely have a good eye for a photo.

Yeah, it's really bad when you put yourself out to help and support someone and then find they just turn round and stab you in the back. Sadly there's a type of people around who go out looking for kind caring people that they can pretend to be friendly so that they can take advantage of them and then when they think they've got all they can off their victim they cut them off and sometimes even bad-mouth them.  I really hope that you will be able to sort out your various life issues and be able to enjoy life.

Thanks ~! I've really always wanted to get a good picture of the moon lol I think these are the best I've done so far but I've seen some really great photos and I've always thought I really want to take one like that lol also thanks, I'm working on that other issue I really just need to reevaluate who I help out.

6 hours ago, Sarada said:

It's been snowing a little here in Chicago on and off for the past few days :v Tomorrow there is going to be 1-3 inches of snow according to the weather but you know how that goes.. 

I think it's better you cut *that* person off because they've never done a thing back for you. They only use you to dump all their problems on and then ask for money for whatever was going wrong this time. You're too nice and try to help friends out, but you don't always have to be the one. You should get the same back in return from someone if they are your friend. *That* person has never been there for you once, even to listen to you when you needed and that's not a friend. 

The moon pictures slay wth are you talking about? The snow pics too. The railroad track one is so good and so are the pond ones. 

Yeah it's always been that way and I know you have always said they aren't a good person but I like to assume the best of people I've let in my life as friends x.x  

1 hour ago, Sasuke said:

Mentioned this on another thread but you don't have to worry about him. No one is putting up with his BS and lies about you. I for one am glad you finally removed him from your life. 

These snow photos are really amazing. You have a definite talent with photography and you take good shots all the time. Even these moon pictures are very good so don't think they aren't. I have yet to see you take a bad picture. 

 

I'm glad because I felt like it was gonna be another situation where I'd lose friends over it. Also thanks ~ I like taking pictures so it's always nice to know others enjoyed them too

19 hours ago, XherHie said:

IT WAS FUN! :), THERE WE'RE ALSO COMPETITIONS THAT PEOPLE JOINED IN AND THE WINNERS REALLY DID TOOK HOME A LOOT BAG TO REMEMBER.  ALSO IN THIS EVENT THE COSPLAY GRANDWINNER WOULD BE THE FILIPINO REPRESENTATIVES ON THE UPCOMING WORLD COSPLAY COMPETITION IN JAPAN. IF YOU WILL BE SIMPING J-POP GROUPS, WE WILL BE SINGING ALONG TO THEIR SOINGS :") ALSO DANCE TO IT. >.<, NEED TO SAVE UP AGAIN FOR NEXT YEARS GEEK-POP EVENT  

I sing along - badly - to all my fave J-Pop groups + K-pop groups XD I also dance ridiculously badly along to songs like that.. usually when I'm cleaning instead of in public but it still counts loll ~ but yeah you should totally go to next years too because this one looks like it was so much fun ^^

Wow that looks like so much fun O: I like that little retro gaming area that looks fun ~ I'd be busy simping over the J-Pop bands too though XD Looks like a cool event to attend ^^!

18 hours ago, XherHie said:

 WOAH, I HAVE NEVER BEEN TO OTHER THEMED CAFE ONLY THIS ONE. BUT I AM INTRIGUED WIITH ANIMAL THEMED CAFE'S AROUND THE METRO.  HOW WAS THE EXPERIENCE IN K-POP THEMED CAFES? WOULD LOVE TO GO THERE IF I FOUND ONE HERE.

I loveddd the ones I went to when I lived in S. Korea. They also have cat cafe's there now that you mention animal themed ones and those are fun to ^^ I loved going and petting cats lol 

12 hours ago, Sarada said:

 

AYY YOOOOO?!

LmfaOOO I mean you are right MOST of the time ~ like okok I'll give you that  

Omggggg that's so adorable  I've visited K-pop theme ones before but not anime ones and that looks like so much fun : D 

3 hours ago, Zeref said:

Highly debatable

Preach lmfaooo

Omg your pics are sooo cute it looks like you had so much fun

5 hours ago, XherHie said:

The best part of it is the color is PINK. it so cute but tbh I had a problem getting it home because I just rode a motorcycle going home, and pooh took so much space to be seated between me and the driver. ahaha... that is why going home, I Carried it sideways.. Yes!!! I enjoyed this Con because it is my first time attending this one. but I usually do go on conventions.

I can imagine this LOL I don't even blame you ~ I would be trying to get that thing home any way I could XD carrying it upside down, sideways, on my head, whatever lolll it's way too cute 

30 minutes ago, Lucky said:

Real life problems with fish lol feel it. Hard to get good pics I manage better videos of my fish fr. 

Your fish videos are so good lol 

2 hours ago, Sasuke said:

Good point now that you mention it. 
 

Right and even if the other thing you're hoping for doesn't work out, you've made steps to let go of the past and move on and forward so you'll find someone with whom it will work. 

Yaaa I know I think either way it's a step towards moving forward and that feels good

6 hours ago, Sarada said:

And just think how good it'll feel when you do

Yup ik you're right 

3 hours ago, Zeref said:

You always take the best pictures I enjoy looking at them. These look really good. The butterflies are really good.
 

With the other stuff it's good to hear it and you'll get through this and be happy that you did it for yourself. 

 

Thanks Pessikins  I think you're right sometimes the hardest things end up being the best things for us in the end ~

1 hour ago, Lucky said:

Photos are sweet asf tho I'm surprised they are butterflies and not fish from the fish Queen. Plannin on doin any fish ones?

Ty Luckyyybunbuns ^^ Ya I really need to take some better pics of fish though I kind of find it hard to do with the reflection issues on the aquarium and fish aren't very good at posing and cooperating lolll but yes it would be nice to try to get some good shots of them 

6 hours ago, Sarada said:

I like the idea of Spring being your new beginning this year. It's the perfect time for it and I'm proud of you and glad you are doing things for you to open your next chapter in your story it'll all work out. 

Lovely pictures too I like how you can see the water drops on the flowers. You take really good piccys. 

I think it lined up well right lol Spring is definitely about starting something new so I think it's a good time for me too ~

1 hour ago, Sasuke said:

Exactly ^
Lillie summed up how I was thinking on this. I'm glad you are working through some of these harder emotions you've been feeling and giving yourself the space and time you need. You've got this and trust me things are only going to get better. 
I love the pics too, you really capture things beautifully through photography and I'd like to see what kind of photos you take this Spring. 

 

Ty Ori <33 I feel glad about the fact that I am and I think it's important I do it now 

~ + Also thank you guys for the compliments on the photos I'm definitely going to be going out when the flowers start blooming to get some good shots this year ^^

8 minutes ago, Animedragon said:

Those are really beautiful photos, I really like the bright colours and the butterflies are a bonus.

Thanks~! I love Spring as far as taking pics goes and I'm hoping to get a lot more photos this year ;D 

8 hours ago, Sasuke said:

I've said it before, but I'll say it again - if you need anything, just to talk, you can call me. I know sometimes it helps to hear someone instead of just typing and I'm happy to listen and talk with you through anything you're going through right now. Your friends will always be here for you, just like you've been for us. 

Tyty Ori ~ Yeah you're right it really does, though I think I'm a mess to talk to on the phone right now lol I will call you tomorrow because yeah just talking to someone really does help a whole lot x.x 

On 2/26/2025 at 9:26 AM, Sarada said:

We need to revisit that conversation Next topic of conversation: not wasting time on the ones that don't match your energy.  

No no no I have it together now. Or well, I'm getting it there lol 

On 2/26/2025 at 3:02 PM, Sasuke said:

It sounds more like you're just looking for any old excuse to not let go which is easy to do in this situation. Just keep reminding yourself that's not true, and if you need us, you know your friends are here for you. 

That's fair because I know that's what I've been doing. It's a work in progress but I'm really trying  but thanks Orikins  

On 2/26/2025 at 6:54 PM, Zeref said:

It's okay to that's part of the process. 

Yeah I'm gonna just keep doing my best that's all I can really do ~ 

10 hours ago, Sarada said:

Trying your best is good enough even if you have set backs on some days. Anytime you need to talk it out I'm there for you! 

Thank yuu sissy  Honestly thank you because talking to you on the phone tonight was exactly what I needed lol ~

7 hours ago, Sasuke said:

Acknowledging it is the first step and you've actively made a plan to do something about it so that's even bigger.

I think the hardest part is sticking to that plan and not falling back into the same thing just because certain things aren't happening the way I want them to. So when they aren't my instant reaction is "This is absolutely a sign from God I should not move forward and should continue to just wait for this person to come back because if this other thing was going to work out it wouldn't keep feeling this confusing".

2 hours ago, Zeref said:

It will not happen overnight but yes you will progress and look back and be glad that you took these steps. You will get there. 

Oh yeah I've definitely noticed that ~ it's more of an uphill battle and I keep sliding back down the hill lmao 

18 hours ago, Animedragon said:

Those are really nice photos, you've got a great view from the top of your house.

Thanks ~! I really love it up there. There's great views no matter which way you are looking. 

11 hours ago, Sarada said:

You're absolutely right. Holding onto the past sometimes feels easier than admitting it's over but I'm really happy to know you're giving it your best effort and making a decision to move on and let yourself find happiness. It takes so much courage to do that and I know wherever you go next sis you'll find some happiness.

Remember you are a baddie and you're going to go out there and slay queen  

Perfectly awesome pics too I love the view from your place. 

YASSSS I AMMMMM ~ or.. something like that lol but tyty  I'm going to try my best anyways ~

7 hours ago, Sasuke said:

Really great photos Ren, as always you take excellent pictures and you really have a gift for it. 

Like Lillie said I'm also glad that you're taking steps to moving on and realizing that you deserve happiness because you do. Whomever you find that with will be a very lucky person. 

Thanks Ori  Dunno about that but I really am tired of living in the past with, well, you know lol 

3 hours ago, Zeref said:

It's about time  No I won't say "I told you" here because I understand that letting go of some things is a journey and not been an easy one for you. I think still it will be a bit hard to do this for you but with time you'll be able to. Keep focused on those positive things that are right in front of you now and the positive people and trusting your feelings and you'll be okay I really believe that. 

I also like these pictures I always thought these ones were really good ones. It would be nice when the pool opens again it's the main thing I miss in the Winter here lol. 

You say I told you so wayyy too much lately anyways ¬.¬ lollll ~ I don't think it'll happen overnight but I'm working on it and realized that it's time to move forward and I think that's the first and best step I can make. 

4 hours ago, Zeref said:

Food would be mandatory I'm not an Uber

You're more like an unpaid chauffeur XD 

2 hours ago, Zeref said:

"Thing" "It" 

Ily doe lol

11 hours ago, Sarada said:

This is exactly why I want to go. We should go on vacation this year. 

Yeah like Fall break or something we honestly could and we could take this @Zeref thing along with us because at least it can drive lmfao

8 hours ago, Zeref said:

What is Maine like at that time?

Like in the spoiler:

 

I'd love to go see something like that ~