SleepyLeoulf

You don’t really need to feel welcome anywhere. You just need to be happy with and accept yourself, because not everyone will. We all might be deeply flawed creatures that complicate matters because of our emotions and we think there is more to something, but we are all perfect the way we are, even you.

It does help to have some outside help though, so I would be willing to listen if you need it. Just remember that there might be others that will accept, regardless of whether they just want to remain friends or not.

Speaking as one who has been on both sides of this, (I've been abandoned by people and I've abandoned people), I must say that sometimes, the people who does the abandoning feel like they are doing what's best for the person. With me, it's usually that feeling that "they'll be better off without me" or "they don't want my friendship" Doesn't matter if it's true or not. I'm well aware of how much it hurts. You'll eventually move on.

Out of everybody I've abandoned and who have abandoned me, I have never regretted meeting any of them. Each person had a profound effect on my life. I wouldn't be the person I am without them. I'm sure the person who left you felt like they were doing the best thing for you. Not to hurt you but to help you.

When I got to my darkest place and wanted to end it all, I came to a sudden realization. I don't need anybody to be happy. I can be happy and love myself all on my own. Sure having somebody else is nice but how they treat you shouldn't affect your sense of self-worth. You are special even if the world tells you that you aren't.

Here's some advice, start your day off with a smile. Read a joke, look at a picture you like, do something silly like pretending your spoon is an airplane. Think about the good things instead of the bad things.

People are as happy as they choose to be.

@Ryuji @brycec I appreciate you both and your advice and take on the manner and you are both right and I agree and understand what you are saying. I had a lot of conversations with people last night about the issue my older sister included and all of you are right. I'm just now going move forward and put this behind me. They did what they had to do and also said what they had to say. Some of it I don't agree since it could of been done a different way but... it was said and now its done. I wont speak ill of them ever and never did. ( If I did somehow I deeply apologize ) but just was hurt since I thought they were my friend or best friend they said to me and would be there even in bad times.. I guess they weren't ready or ready for a friend like me. Again all my opinion and I can be wrong, It's just how I feel is all.. But I did before make myself happy by doing stuff I love so again I'll do that and I don't always need people to make me enjoy my life. True, I wont lie I like having friends still since people can make me happy as well but I know I don't always need that. It will be tough but I know I can get through this and just move on from it. Again thank you all so much for your advice and also trying to help me. Just going do me for a while and if I make another friend then awesome but if not I know I can enjoy life still with not one right away at this time.