Forlorn

I love Collide's style because of the calming effect listening to it has on me. Some pretty trippy lyrics, I can tell you that. I like this song, too: Razor Sharp - Collide

Front Mission 1st Remake I've managed to get Royd and Ryuji's Short weapons proficiency to 12. I'm now working on Natalie, Royd's second-in-command in the mercenary group Canyon Crows which is being utilized by the O.C.U. to help win the conflict against the U.C.S. Oh, and Short weapons are basically just firearms like rifles and machine guns.

Thank you. I do feel better, but I'm still not in a as good of a mood as I usually am. It'll most likely pass though and I'll be my regular self again soon because I always, sooner or later, revert back to my usual, happy, laughy self given enough time. I appreciate you saying that. ^^

I feel paranoid and I'm trying to keep myself from externalizing my anger towards something, which is getting harder and harder to do lately since I've been internalizing anger and frustration my whole life. Aside from that, I'm trying to chill out to some Collide right now which is helping. It's a relaxing kind of sound to listen to music-wise. If I don't at least write about it in here I'll burst, so it helps to type it out in here.

Rescue

They

I'd never actually throw this, but my Animal Crossing Edition Nintendo Switch. lol

My nightmares and fears all in one place.

I don't think we do. I haven't come across any cassette tapes either. I'd listen to those all the time as a kid when I was allowed to borrow either mom and/or dad's cassette tapes or my big sister's. What kind of music do you relax to?

Big sis' has been on my mind a lot lately, so that makes me sad when I think about it too much. Other than that, I'm keeping myself calm and cool for now. Hopefully it lasts though.

Horizons - Puscifer (Itachi Uchiha from Naruto AMV)

Perfect Storm

Numb

Cherry pop tarts and water.

Hansel & Gretel: Witch Hunters

Pyre

Ultimate Price

One Step Closer - Linkin Park

I've decided to finish both the O.C.U. and U.C.S. stories of Front Mission 1st Remake. I've just dropped in with Natalie (Royd's second in command) and Ryuji to help Keith and J.J. from a close call where the two were outnumbered. I love this game. I've got everyone equipped with Vapor legs, Pabotte arms (left and right), and Pabotte body because the Pabotte parts have considerable dodge stats. The Vapor legs are more for a damage sponge though so the legs won't get destroyed so quick. I've equipped a Siege machine gun and Zieger rifle to every character to boost the Short range weapons proficiency faster. Royd's Short range weapons proficiency is at 11 which is a good number for the upcoming mission. Ryuji's next for the stat grind to get to 11. The odds for an arena battle with Werewolf is at 1.56 which is some good odds with a comfortable chance to win. In New Milgan there's an option to bet 500 Huffman Dollars, so I'm getting a lot of money in addition to stat training. ^^

Feeling like screaming as loud as I can as a release. I don't want cops showing up though because a neighbor called in a domestic disturbance, so, I'll refrain from doing that. Wouldn't do me any good anyway. It always gets me in some other trouble. Time to vicariously destroy things in Front Mission 1st Remake, like I've been doing all day. Oh, other than feeling like screaming though I feel like breaking something. I'm doing my best to keep it together though. All breaking something would do is cause damage that we'd either have to fix or replace when the finances could be better used in other areas.

Total Annihilation

I play Dead - Demon Hunter (Naruto AMV)

Wolf's Rain is an anime I could keep watching and never get tired of. ^^ Would you consider yourself a heavy sleeper?

No Way Out - Bullet For My Valentine

I'd like to have friends out here, but no matter who I meet outside where I live all I encounter are rude people that assume far too much about me. Maybe if I got out more I'd meet better people out there if I went outside more, but I literally have no means of doing that. Or really want to after meeting so many rude jerks out there. I don't have friends out here. I had one good friend in middle school, but we've fallen out of touch over the years and I'm not sure if he'd even remember me these days. I don't leave much of an impression on people.