Unbroken Experiment

Ultimate Price

One Step Closer - Linkin Park

I've decided to finish both the O.C.U. and U.C.S. stories of Front Mission 1st Remake. I've just dropped in with Natalie (Royd's second in command) and Ryuji to help Keith and J.J. from a close call where the two were outnumbered. I love this game. I've got everyone equipped with Vapor legs, Pabotte arms (left and right), and Pabotte body because the Pabotte parts have considerable dodge stats. The Vapor legs are more for a damage sponge though so the legs won't get destroyed so quick. I've equipped a Siege machine gun and Zieger rifle to every character to boost the Short range weapons proficiency faster. Royd's Short range weapons proficiency is at 11 which is a good number for the upcoming mission. Ryuji's next for the stat grind to get to 11. The odds for an arena battle with Werewolf is at 1.56 which is some good odds with a comfortable chance to win. In New Milgan there's an option to bet 500 Huffman Dollars, so I'm getting a lot of money in addition to stat training. ^^

Feeling like screaming as loud as I can as a release. I don't want cops showing up though because a neighbor called in a domestic disturbance, so, I'll refrain from doing that. Wouldn't do me any good anyway. It always gets me in some other trouble. Time to vicariously destroy things in Front Mission 1st Remake, like I've been doing all day. Oh, other than feeling like screaming though I feel like breaking something. I'm doing my best to keep it together though. All breaking something would do is cause damage that we'd either have to fix or replace when the finances could be better used in other areas.

Total Annihilation

I play Dead - Demon Hunter (Naruto AMV)

Wolf's Rain is an anime I could keep watching and never get tired of. ^^ Would you consider yourself a heavy sleeper?

No Way Out - Bullet For My Valentine

I'd like to have friends out here, but no matter who I meet outside where I live all I encounter are rude people that assume far too much about me. Maybe if I got out more I'd meet better people out there if I went outside more, but I literally have no means of doing that. Or really want to after meeting so many rude jerks out there. I don't have friends out here. I had one good friend in middle school, but we've fallen out of touch over the years and I'm not sure if he'd even remember me these days. I don't leave much of an impression on people.

Not at all. The most exercise I get is walking I guess one could say, but it's not something I do for the sake of exercising. I just have to go up and down the steps a lot to use the bathroom that's basically mine when the living room is upstairs which is where I spent most of my time now. I mean, usually unless I'm sleeping. If you could, would you want to visit a another planet?

I'd rather die at the age of 20 with no regrets due to already having too many regrets at my current age. I can't imagine living with even more regrets. Would you rather be able to fly for as long as you wanted to or be able to swim at any depth for as long as you wanted to?

I feel good for now, but that makes me wary of when I'll feel the opposite today since that seems to be the decline that inevitably happens when I feel like this. Maybe I'll get lucky and it won't happen, but I'm not a very lucky person.

Moonlight

Readjust

Eternal Chaos

Yell

The only good old days there were for me were when my big sister was still with us. Just seems like everything fell apart after she passed away. I know though that people aren't nice and the world isn't nice, but I am the way I am I guess. I've always had difficulty changing anything about myself. I can't even remember as far back as that goes though. Big sis' was the extrovert for me. ^^ It was pretty cool to watch. She'd always look out for me like that. Sometimes it feels like she still is, too. Yeah though, when mom asks me to tag along with her when we need groceries it's one of my least favorite times to go with her, but I refuse to let mom go by herself because if she did she'd probably end up in a conflict. She's not afraid to speak her mind to rude people like that, so I worry (probably even over-worry) about her when she goes somewhere by herself. I don't want her getting herself into any trouble because someone else was a jerk to her. I'm 6'3" and 260lbs so I'd like to think I'm a deterrent to keep rude people from saying anything directly to mom. It might seem weird for someone my size to be introverted, but no matter how hard I try I can't seem to change that.

Dreams & Illusions - Collide

I've never been able to go to events or anything because of my reluctance to leave the house or even socialize where I live. My big sister has, a lot of times. I'm not even sure if she would be able to keep track of how many events she went to. She had more fun than I ever could, that's for sure because my definition of fun was playing games. ^^;

Yeah, mom planted a small philodendrum in a small pot for me because it's resilient and I have a bad memory. She said to water it every weekend, but check the soil first before I do, so I'm going to try to take care of my first plant~ ^^ I just hope I don't mess it up because I love how plants are living things that can die if they don't get enough nutrients. I'd feel really bad if I wasn't able to take care of this one. Generally speaking though I'm definitely not good at all with plants and gardening, but I want to be. ^^ What do you do to relax yourself when you're really angry, sad, or stressed?

In

A pizza Hot Pocket and a Coke. I know I'll want something to snack on later though. lol

I gift you a defibrillator in case I die from laughing. lol

Big bear hug~ ^^

I see your point. I do want to finish Front Mission 1st Remake... I want to hurry up to play the 2nd one, but I keep getting distracted by wanting to play FFVIII for the nostalgia of when big sis' was still here, the romantic themes of the game, and just the feeling of better days before my mental disabilities started to break through in my mind. But I really do need to try to finish Front Mission 1st. The proficiency levels grind in the Arena gets monotonous sometimes though. Maybe I'll switch it up with a different playlist because I've been listening to my playlist that's mostly screamo when playing it since there's no voices to the characters, just text dialog. I don't want to listen to the same in-game track for as long as it takes to increase the proficiency levels, so I just listen to my iPod while playing it~ ^^ I really need to paraphrase and elaborate this in the game thread. lol I don't know why I get carried away when typing sometimes. ^^; I'll go ahead and get a game instead the next time mom says I can~ ^^