I can get an understanding how you feel as for panic attacks. In the span of a month I was abandoned by some close friends due to the stuff going on right now, had surgery that we later discovered failed and caused a new set of issues making me useless to my mother whom I'm caretaker of as she's in a wheel chair. Poor thing herself needed go to the hospital for covid scare luckily she didn't but the feeling how powerless i was remains.
Sorry didn't mean to rant if it seemed that way. I just figured anyone can just say "I understand how you feel" . Seriously though hope things get better for you all dealing with stuff. I get if anyone thinks they won't (I am not sure on myself) but 9 out of 10 times there's a light end of the tunnel.