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@Tefutakato yupper, all the stuff i posted, was mine

Thank youuu

I barely have time to draw nowadays though, im probably really really rusty now

With all the art stealing shenanigans happening that i didnt know of, as of recent, i probably need to mention that, all my drawings, are drown from my own hands -- digitally

Sure, i used a referrence here and there,  but i, in no way copied others work or stole them

Unless i explicity said >.>

which i doubt ?

nothing important, just my social media accounts

which made me frantic as hell, and skip work days ~.~

but not to worry, couse i was able to hack-back my accounts XD

i wiiilll, try

cant promise, i've been hella boring as of recent, wahahah xD

all has been

rollercoastery

my girlfriend left me, 

i became depressed, but i moved on and met new people

what hasn't changed was about me is...

MY WEIGHT, IM STILL 80KG KIFJSAJDOIJGASDJAS (176lbs)

IM DOING MY BEST TO REACH 70KG AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH (154lbs)

Little does not mean impossible

Keep fighting, TATAKAO DESUKA

im doing it as much as i can

its really slow though, since i now work on two hospitals >.<

gotta keep the stacks coming, especially since we need them badly right now

@pathospades no, his 38 years old, he doesn't have any bowel defects written on his request form, it was just pure blood on the floor

talking with a nurse, mainly gossiping to be updated on patients status, the nurse said he hadn't bathed, and only used alcohol to clean himself

that might have added to the smell i could inhale, maybe 

So here we had a young man, positive COVID, wearing nothing but adult diapers, laying on a mat on the floor in the middle of winter while an RN or CNA sat in the corner of his room wearing PPE you'd expect to see in Chernobyl.

the patient is lucky enough to get a RN/CNA in the same room, this patient didn't have anyone in his room (though, "lucky" is a really bad term to use, since its really not a "lucky" situation to be in, especially when the staff incharge of cleaning the room, avoids doing said job)

my whole thoughts during those time, was, "this person wont die from covid, this person has a higher chance of dying from an opportunistic bacteria more so than covid"

you're preventing/healing covid, problem is, the room is kept uncleant, imagine all the other sickness he could catch...

Just wear your PPEs. I've been working directly with this virus all of last year and never caught it. I'm vaccinated now. The fear is understandable but when you work in the medical field it is literally your job to run toward the fire.

^ this

aslong as you do handwashing, avoid touching face, wear PPE at times when you go near a suspected patient (and everyone should be treated as "suspect"), keep social distancing,

then covid shouldn't be the scariest thing to meet

sanitization was thought to us for a reason, once contaminated (an object, or place), it can easily be sterilized too, such is the process

@Wedgy

it wasn't the case last night

LETMETELLYOUASTORYOFLASTNIGHTSSTORY

the day is 5/19/21

so i was in hospital at 3:00pm, ontime for duty

my co-workers leave at 7:00pm, so we had a meeting with medical director at around 5:00 pm, which lasted upto around 7:00pm, 

i had 4 platelets on our rotator (because platelets need constant movement to avoid early expiry/faulty platelets), which was suppose to expire at 5/20/21

the platelet had not been crossmatched yet for the patient, i planned on doing it ASAP after all ER patients were done for

so what happened was

ER kept recieving patients at 7:00pm (everyone already left, and i will be the only RMT in charge at night duty)

and, man, from 7:00pm to 10:00pm, PATIENTS KEPT FLODDING ME AND I COULDNT GIVE TIME TO CROSSMATCHING THE PLATELETS

and the panik i had was huge, couse if platelets expire, well, 

its not really easy to get platelets, so clearly i would get an IR for that, if it ever happened

so yea, lowkey, i PANIK but also CALM couse i need to be open minded when doing crossmatching, couse patient can really die if i f*ck up on crossmatching

and yea, nurse ended up helping me out by doing some CBG/RBS on patients that was suppose to be thrown onto me, and the radiologist next to our laboratory ended up helping me on recieption work, as patients kept pestering me for "results" or "swab" or "extraction" or "urine reading"

was really toxic

oh and, a senior of mine who lives near the laboratory came and visited, and double checked my crossmatch, along with what i did, and helped me on printing the results, since im not used to printing crossmatch results yet, so it would have taken me a bit to copy-paste format of crossmatching

and yea, finished everything at 12MN

after 12midnight, where it was benign, i still had work to do

my co-workers left everything to me, didn't log and or restock supplies

so yea, pretty much from 12 midnight to 4:50pm, i was doing logging work of results, restocking supplies, and et al, 

managed to sleep for 30minutes, before i went and extracted blood samples for morning pick patients (i had CBG/Sodium request at 6AM, toke them at 5:30AM to remove them from my workload/endorsement)

and yea, all in all, it was a really fun, albeit, toxic night >.>

@pathospades highly doubt it was someone close to us, we checked the IP, and IP's that logged onto my account came from another country (germany, and others), so the idea of it being someone in my country, who is close to me, is doubtful

...

unless he used VPN

that bastard !

well, i changed my email and removed my yahoo account, couse yahoo account is exploit as hekk

so alls well that ends well~

we will miss you, take care my guy/girl

@EWR-47 there is no content dying in this website

only philosophical thoughts

SA, HAJIMEMASHO, EWR-47!

no philosophical thoughts happened that day

its a start atleast

its fun to sometimes watch your favorite Y-toober play the game 

but also sometimes infuriating that they didnt do (X) stuff, and mainly focused at <x> stuff

butttt its also fun that they commentate on the stuff, so yea,

what is..a happy note?

how can we be sure..its "a" happy note?

WAIT WA

IT COMES OUT TOMORROW?!

tomorrow im night duty, so when i come back i can play it

SUPERYES

@Wedgy mhmm, experience is most important part right now, im lucky enough that im gonna get paid 18,000php (300euro's) + 100php (1.70euro) per individual swabbed for covid, when the first two hospitals wanted to pay me 12,000 (200euro's) only, and said that's the best they could do, since i didn't have experience yet

me: fan girl scream

new protagonist: yare yare da wa

Not sure if you’re serious about actually wanting to team up in tracking each other’s progress.

bery sirious (very serious)

it would somewhat help motivate us on losing weight, in terms of us wanting to show off to each other that our weigh's are going down, rather than up

tho', if you don't wanna, then you don't gotta'..>.>...

thankies~

im stuck at 95kg (209.4 lb's) for quiet some time now...

but last night i saw jay's vid [somewhat long vid, TLDR is him reaching upto 260lb's and he doesn't like it] 

and lets just say, im going to get again serious on my diet >: o

let it be known that, today, and maybe tomorrow, will be the last day i will be stuck at 95kg!

@Tefutakato, @Kurosaki27 we should go for the perfect diet routine and lose thy weight together, WHAT SAY YOU COMRADES?! 

or..yknow...buy a new weigh scale..for you kuro >.>

@Tefutakato was gonna reply yesterday, but i lacked sleep, so i left it for tomorrow (which is today) to reply 

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Sometimes I think to myself if I’ll ever amount to anything. Nothing is really happening in my life, almost everyday I just stay on social media and play video games. 

i too, used to always have this feeling, while i was in school, i would hate how i always had no money, how my father always loaned my allowance due to lack of finance for other needs in our life, had to just focus on my studies that i didn't even want to be part of (i never said i wanted to be a scientist, i wanted to be an IT >.>)

and the ever so feeling of while studying

"am i really learning?, how sure am i that what i'm reading is sticking to me?"

"can i pass the national board exam?" 

"will i ever get a job and be allowed to live the life i wanted?"

and look at me now, after a VERY long time, i finally have my license, meaning im a professional,

i can also finally draw art that takes me a whole day if im trying to do something im not used to (when before it would take me ~3 days)

and after such experience, i can safely say that

"i had character development"

going a little off topic there, but yea,

its fine to have such thoughts, we all have our flaws, motivations, weaknesses, strengths, doubts, and certainty in life, no one is born perfect, even "the best of the best" at some point in their life, had a rough time in life in which they could not control

after a few years, you will look back at yourself, and laugh at how you used to think like that, and tell yourself

"man, i really had developed as a character in life"

...though as @Kurosaki27 said, 

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"getting out of the comfort zone"

it all depends on how badly we, as individuals, want to develop, but the problem on developing character is, we have to take risks, we don't have to do a really big risk which involves money

and the risk's ain't even a risk, its just "scary" to do, but once you do it, and get used to it, its pretty much like riding a bike with no hands

(notice; please dont ride a bike with no hands, your mom will most likely not be looking, and you will most likely have an accident)

but yea, as patrick star once said to rocky..

organizer (being seshi) retired, and since then, no one really has taken the chance to suggest contests

big F/sad on the comment section

the more they shoot you down (reject), the more you get used to the rejection, until you become the embodiment of rejection

...and then you get stronger from all the experience earned on getting rejected, and either become a better person, or turn onto the dark side

in my case, i reject the dark side, even if the world we live in, majorly favors them >.>

same here, just bought some wierd pills, one for increasing metabolism, one for..."multivitamins" [will not specify why i bought it, but lets just say its for the multivitamins, couse its full of other vitamins >.>] and some activated charcoal for teeth whitening

i will never financially recover from the amount of money i used on these

as for contact lenses, if its for fashion, then its cool if  you're gonna cosplay,

if its graded for your eyes, its even cooler to wear on a daily basis, just be sure to remove them before sleep, and keep the case clean with the solution cleaner

dont want any parasites on your eye >.>

@LonelyPoet i know the girl though, sooooo [not close close, but id say just "acquaintances"]

yea, it doesn't hurt as much as the very first time it happened to me

@Newgroundsmoment ikr, nothing wrong with being wierd

atleast im honest and true, rather than a person who uses other people and tricks others~!