Sakura

I think it lined up well right lol Spring is definitely about starting something new so I think it's a good time for me too ~ Ty Ori <33 I feel glad about the fact that I am and I think it's important I do it now ~ + Also thank you guys for the compliments on the photos I'm definitely going to be going out when the flowers start blooming to get some good shots this year ^^

Thanks~! I love Spring as far as taking pics goes and I'm hoping to get a lot more photos this year ;D

Yeah I know what I think has no basis in reality and it's more of a me-problem with overthinking. But thanks, having you around means a lot <33

Crazy stalkers

Eating

Some beef jerky

Hello ~ welcome to the forums. I hope you enjoy your stay here and if you ever feel like chatting feel free to drop me a message

Sometimes I just feel like deleting everything, deleting my discord, removing all my contacts, deleting everyone's phone number, deleting all social media, and cutting all contact with everyone I know. I feel like I bother absolutely everyone and no one really wants to talk to me. I usually have to call or message people first and when I'm talking to them I feel like they don't really want to be talking to me and they just kind of humor me for a few minutes before they go back to ignoring me. I don't want to make any of my friends feel bad by saying I feel like no one cares about me, but somedays it feels like that. I know it's just me in my head and I'm aware of that, but I don't know how to get out of that mindset some days and a lot of the times lately it feels like it wouldn't matter if I was here or not & it would probably take people days or weeks to even realize I wasn't here anymore. There are some days such as today that I honestly don't feel like trying anymore and being around just feels like it's pointless.

Spring is coming soon, and while it's not exactly my favorite season (much more of a Winter person), I am looking forward to seeing all the flowers. You really can't go wrong with flowers as the subject of your photos' or take a bad picture of them. Nature is definitely one of my favorite things to photograph and Spring always creates the perfect backdrop for any photo in my opinion. With so many parks around the area that I'm living in right now I'm hoping to be able to get out and take some walks and a lot of new photos this season. When I think about Spring the #1 thing that also comes to mind is new beginnings which is kind of where I'm at in my life. Working through a lot of different feelings and emotions and trying to let go of the past and work on my present & future. I'm hoping to start a new chapter in my life in more ways than one. There are some days when that feels more difficult than others, I suppose today would be one of those days but I'm trying to deal with it as best as I can. The beginning of things can be scary, whatever that is, whether it's a new chapter in your life, new love, new school, new whatever. With me, there's just a lot I need to process for this next chapter of my life but I'm hoping it blooms into something beautiful that I can look back on some day and be happy that I took the steps that I'm taking now. Here's a few photos I took last Spring to look back on ~ The butterflies are from the Chicago Butterfly Gardens that you can walk through and most of the flower pictures I believe are all from my Dad's yard.

Made something new for a friend ~ been a little while since I've GFX'ed anything but I figured I felt like trying something tonight

It's nice you guys got to do that ~ sometimes mornings like that are honestly the best I'm really glad I'll get to see you both on Wednesday but I wish I was coming home for better reasons x.x Today yeah I haven't done much, I haven't felt like it. I went grocery shopping as Pessi mentioned and that's about it.

I'm not really sure where my fish romance started XD My dad was always a big fishing person, he would take me out fishing with him when I was a kid and I went just because I wanted to see the fish. I got in huge trouble once when I threw his bucket of fish back in the water trying to save them LOL I also used to love to go to the zoo and stare at the fish exhibits for hours. I mean, I still do that but yeah lol ~ I really started my love for fish and marine life when I started watching Discovery Channels Shark Week. I've watched it every single year since I was 5 or 6 and never missed it lol As soon as I discovered that you could have a career helping fish, I knew I wanted to do exactly that and I've been determined to do that since then ^^

Nya you're probably right. Now isn't really a good time anyways with all this stuff going on ~

It was cold but it felt too hot in the house even though we had the heaters off ._. Though idk I may be getting a fever because I don't feel very great ~

Noiceeee can't wait to see ~ I just finished my own project that I'm getting ready to post.

NOOOOOOOOOOO But yeah prolly ~ I can't stay in one place too long or I get bored lol

I told her this like 9 times she isn't gonna get it x.x

Valid questions honestly, if someone wanna give me free stuff, then like.. where do I sign up lmAO anyways that was Lucky saying he has one not me Vitur plz lmAO I haven't actually played RS today, I might get on a bit I don't know ~ I'd like to get 99 tomorrow but we'll see

It gets far past that here lol in the Summer it's 90s-100s but I drink lots of water and stay in, still happens all the time in the Summer This is why I really want to live somewhere where it's cold most of the time lol

Thanks ~ I stay cool but even being cool it seems like I still get them every day even being in the house

That's cute O:

Once hot weather hits I feel sick a lot ~ it gives me headaches constantly x.x so I feel much better in Winter. Since it's gotten cold I don't think I've had a single headache but I know as soon as it starts to get warm again I'll be back to migraines every other day ~

98 Firemaking tonight 1.2M XP to 99 though

I had class which was about it .-. I ordered Arby's when I got home and I've been snacking and watching TV mostly ~ also took a nap. Thinking about making some GFX I sort of have an idea in my head, but I'll prolly just end up staring at the wall most of the night then being mad I didn't do anything tonight lol

Yeah a bit but mostly because all my friends are on there and it's a distraction more than anything for a little bit ~ Also thanks @Sasuke & @Zeref I kind of feel like I can't do or say anything right today, I feel like I keep saying the wrong thing because I don't know what to say when things happen x.x