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Top 10 list for me since I started; In no particular order Zoids New Century Princess Tutu Peacemaker Kurogane Gargantia on the Verdurous Planet Blue Exorcist Spice and Wolf Soul Eater Chrno Crusade Kenshin Cowboy Bebop Maybe.

I have not personally run into this. To be honest I thought it was a joke. But if one did come up to me, FIGHT ME CLOWN.

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Thank you. I hope it can help people in similar situations. I'm learning that accepting yourself and finding daily motivation to do more than exist can be a learning curve.

Not sure where to post this, but I figure here would be most relevant.. When I first joined this forum, I had reached a point in my life where I truly believe I hit "rock bottom," or, close to it. Moving to a town where I knew very little people and struggling with personal issues that revolved around years of anxiety and depression, I had a really hard time moving forward with my life. I didn't have the right tools to succeed, only because I didn't believe I could. I still feel like if I had not met some people here, talked to them daily and voiced my struggles for the first time, openly, I would not be striving to better myself today. I have come a long way, but I still have days where I mentally beat myself up. I noticed the last month or two that there's a few people here that are going through similar issues, or different situations but sharing similar feelings of confusion, loss, unable to move forward. I wanted to share this song because it honestly is something I relate very deeply to and while it starts with a sad message, it ends on a more positive reflection. I know that anyone can be who they need to be.. while there is going to be constant struggles mentally, I believe in everyone. I hope that you can take a positive message from this. And if anyone needs to talk, I will always try to have an open ear because I am truly grateful to have found this place and the people in it. Motivation to get better comes from within. And I believe you can get better. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LkfM-UK5BgM Lyrics: I’m not dead I’m not fixed, but I’m not giving up yet I’m sick of saying that I still don't have anything done I hate telling friends I’m trying something just to give it up I’m still unsure of my emotional state I’m still incapable of focusing lately I don’t feel like creating I’m tired of asking Google how to find motivation I don’t think I’ve ever made something that’s as good as I’m capable of I hate not having a reason to look my best I only ever take care of myself with the intent to show the internet If what made me successful was an imposed sense of stress then I am so so glad that I hated myself I didn’t luck into this position I struggle with decisions I wouldn’t be my own friend, I’m too inconsistent without immense pressure nothing ever gets finished If these words make it to your ears it’ll be a fucking miracle. I’m fortunate to know more good people than most do I wish I had more friends I could be physically close to I’m pretty good at like 20 different skill sets At the expense of never being great at any one of them I wish this beat hit harder I wish more syllables rhymed I know 99 percent of people really don’t mind I think collaborating forced me to finish things ‘cause I was terrified of wasting famous people’s time I wish I could focus on what I define priority I wish I was as grateful as I want to be I wish I knew more people who were mentally stable But if I did, I wouldn’t let them waste their time on me while I’m disabled I feel alone I know I’m not I used to talk to lots of people. Lately I’ve stopped They didn’t deserve it, I’ve been a terrible friend. I couldn’t bear to let myself become boring to them I don’t let myself get my hopes up. I love people who do. Ah, I never know if what I say I feel is the truth I wish I didn’t instinctively try to be less specific So more people could relate when they read along with the lyrics I can be happy in the moment I am not when I reflect I distract myself with gaming, waiting to get better I hate it I wanna do the most good, and prevent the most hurt But I've gotta put on my own oxygen mask first I can’t predict what I’ll do. I can never be sure I am terrified of making promises any more I can’t face my work, I feel sick from the word I genuinely believe I’m capable of changing the world I still think I can get better I still think I can create and get pleasure from it I'll keep aiming to make my emotion and my logic agree And become the best version of me I don’t want to stop

There actually is no public transportaton where I live now. It's drive or walk lol. But where I'm from originally, we had metro buses.

I have not tried either to be honest. I probably won't try the patch, as I've heard some negative reviews on it from people close in my life. But as far as the gum goes, I have considered trying it if I get my hands on it but I believe quitting for me is going to require more than just a nicotine "fix." For me, it's not so much just the nicotine I crave as it is the action of smoking. I have the tendency to need to keep my hands busy. It's hard to explain but its more or less the motions of smoking that calm me down. When I'm highly stressed, the nicotine does help the edge in the moment, but it's more so the action that distracts me. This is why boredom also causes me to relapse quickly and so it's important for me to do activities that will keep my hands busy. If I'm doing crafts for example, I find that I'm less likely to pick up a cig and smoke it, even if I do crave the nicotine. My wire wrapping for example, will keep my hand and mind busy enough to forget I want one.

I enjoy both. I use to want to specialize in wild cats when I was younger. But in my older age, I'm a dog person.. And I currently work with dogs every day DOGGY HEAVEN~

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