How are you feeling right now?

[Zeref]

I feel good today the weather was okay and nice and I slept well. 

[Colu]

I feel quite nice, not quite sober

[CornedBeef]

6 hours ago, Colu said:

I’m doing pretty good overall. It’s raining a lot today, so I’ve been enjoying listening to it and watching it, though I probably won’t go for a rain walk, in the mood for a cozy day inside today. 

 

I would go for a rain walk but the puddles here are gigantic.

[Sakura]

Sometimes I just feel like deleting everything, deleting my discord, removing all my contacts, deleting everyone's phone number, deleting all social media, and cutting all contact with everyone I know.

I feel like I bother absolutely everyone and no one really wants to talk to me. I usually have to call or message people first and when I'm talking to them I feel like they don't really want to be talking to me and they just kind of humor me for a few minutes before they go back to ignoring me. I don't want to make any of my friends feel bad by saying I feel like no one cares about me, but somedays it feels like that.

I know it's just me in my head and I'm aware of that, but I don't know how to get out of that mindset some days and a lot of the times lately it feels like it wouldn't matter if I was here or not & it would probably take people days or weeks to even realize I wasn't here anymore. There are some days such as today that I honestly don't feel like trying anymore and being around just feels like it's pointless. 

[Soramee_]

35 minutes ago, Sakura said:

now it's just me in my head and I'm aware of that, but I don't know how to get out of that mindset some days and a lot of the times lately it feels like it wouldn't matter if I was here or not & it would probably take people days or weeks to even realize I wasn't here anymore. There are some days such as today that I honestly don't feel like trying anymore and being around just feels like it's pointless

Honestly if we hear nothing from you for a day we probably would get worried LOL. I mean we did last time lol. Hope you get better soon, idk if i can play games today or tommorow but I’m mostly free anytime 

[Sakura]

1 hour ago, Soramee_ said:

Honestly if we hear nothing from you for a day we probably would get worried LOL. I mean we did last time lol. Hope you get better soon, idk if i can play games today or tommorow but I’m mostly free anytime 

Yeah I know what I think has no basis in reality and it's more of a me-problem with overthinking. But thanks, having you around means a lot <33

[Animedragon]

2 hours ago, Sakura said:

Sometimes I just feel like deleting everything, deleting my discord, removing all my contacts, deleting everyone's phone number, deleting all social media, and cutting all contact with everyone I know.

I feel like I bother absolutely everyone and no one really wants to talk to me. I usually have to call or message people first and when I'm talking to them I feel like they don't really want to be talking to me and they just kind of humor me for a few minutes before they go back to ignoring me. I don't want to make any of my friends feel bad by saying I feel like no one cares about me, but somedays it feels like that.

I know it's just me in my head and I'm aware of that, but I don't know how to get out of that mindset some days and a lot of the times lately it feels like it wouldn't matter if I was here or not & it would probably take people days or weeks to even realize I wasn't here anymore. There are some days such as today that I honestly don't feel like trying anymore and being around just feels like it's pointless. 

I think everyone feels like that at sometime in their lives and it's often easy to think that your friends aren't interested in you any more and when you're talking to them you feel like their minds are actually somewhere else and they're not really paying attention to you. This often happens to me and when it does I usually find out later that they had something going on in their life at that time that was occupying their mind and while they appeared not to care about me any more it's just that they'd got things weighing on their mind at the time.

You're not alone in sometimes feeling that it wouldn't matter if you weren't there and no one would miss you if you left, and would only miss you when they wanted you to do something for them. I get like that sometimes, but I know it's not true and that it's just me being miserable, I think it comes with being single in a world geared to couples.  Anyway, enough of my rambling, we would miss you @Sakura and we did get worried when you went totally off-line a few days back.

[CornedBeef]

9 hours ago, Sakura said:

Sometimes I just feel like deleting everything, deleting my discord, removing all my contacts, deleting everyone's phone number, deleting all social media, and cutting all contact with everyone I know.

I feel like I bother absolutely everyone and no one really wants to talk to me. I usually have to call or message people first and when I'm talking to them I feel like they don't really want to be talking to me and they just kind of humor me for a few minutes before they go back to ignoring me. I don't want to make any of my friends feel bad by saying I feel like no one cares about me, but somedays it feels like that.

I know it's just me in my head and I'm aware of that, but I don't know how to get out of that mindset some days and a lot of the times lately it feels like it wouldn't matter if I was here or not & it would probably take people days or weeks to even realize I wasn't here anymore. There are some days such as today that I honestly don't feel like trying anymore and being around just feels like it's pointless. 

 

I feel the same.  My friend never initiates contact but strangely enough he often replies.

 

And it hasn't been long since I got here so no one knows me deeply and I feel left out sometimes.

 

But I would worry if you stopped posting here.  I hope you feel better, Sakura.

[Sarada]

9 hours ago, Sakura said:

Sometimes I just feel like deleting everything, deleting my discord, removing all my contacts, deleting everyone's phone number, deleting all social media, and cutting all contact with everyone I know.

I feel like I bother absolutely everyone and no one really wants to talk to me. I usually have to call or message people first and when I'm talking to them I feel like they don't really want to be talking to me and they just kind of humor me for a few minutes before they go back to ignoring me. I don't want to make any of my friends feel bad by saying I feel like no one cares about me, but somedays it feels like that.

I know it's just me in my head and I'm aware of that, but I don't know how to get out of that mindset some days and a lot of the times lately it feels like it wouldn't matter if I was here or not & it would probably take people days or weeks to even realize I wasn't here anymore. There are some days such as today that I honestly don't feel like trying anymore and being around just feels like it's pointless. 

Yeah no as Soramee said we noticed within hours last time and went into full meltdown mode and would do it again :V I get how it's easy to feel this way because I do it too sometimes. Just gotta keep reminding yourself your head is lying to you. Listen to what @Animedragon wrote because he is wise and knows what he's talking about.

24 minutes ago, CornedBeef said:

And it hasn't been long since I got here so no one knows me deeply and I feel left out sometimes.

We are enjoying getting to know you here Cornedbeef

[CornedBeef]

1 hour ago, Sarada said:

Yeah no as Soramee said we noticed within hours last time and went into full meltdown mode and would do it again :V I get how it's easy to feel this way because I do it too sometimes. Just gotta keep reminding yourself your head is lying to you. Listen to what @Animedragon wrote because he is wise and knows what he's talking about.

We are enjoying getting to know you here Cornedbeef

Thank you.  I like it here.

[Sasuke]

14 hours ago, Sakura said:

Sometimes I just feel like deleting everything, deleting my discord, removing all my contacts, deleting everyone's phone number, deleting all social media, and cutting all contact with everyone I know.

I feel like I bother absolutely everyone and no one really wants to talk to me. I usually have to call or message people first and when I'm talking to them I feel like they don't really want to be talking to me and they just kind of humor me for a few minutes before they go back to ignoring me. I don't want to make any of my friends feel bad by saying I feel like no one cares about me, but somedays it feels like that.

I know it's just me in my head and I'm aware of that, but I don't know how to get out of that mindset some days and a lot of the times lately it feels like it wouldn't matter if I was here or not & it would probably take people days or weeks to even realize I wasn't here anymore. There are some days such as today that I honestly don't feel like trying anymore and being around just feels like it's pointless. 

We'd notice. Probably immediately. I hope that what I said before when we argued didn't start any of these doubts in your head and if it did then again I'm sorry, I really could never express to you how sorry I am. If you need anything I'm here to talk. Your messages don't bother anyone and it makes my day when I see I have one from you as I'm sure it does most. 

3 hours ago, CornedBeef said:

Thank you.  I like it here.

You're a big part of the community here and we like you being here. 

[CornedBeef]

1 hour ago, Sasuke said:

We'd notice. Probably immediately. I hope that what I said before when we argued didn't start any of these doubts in your head and if it did then again I'm sorry, I really could never express to you how sorry I am. If you need anything I'm here to talk. Your messages don't bother anyone and it makes my day when I see I have one from you as I'm sure it does most. 

You're a big part of the community here and we like you being here. 

 

Thank you, Sasuke.

[Sakura]

13 hours ago, Animedragon said:

I think everyone feels like that at sometime in their lives and it's often easy to think that your friends aren't interested in you any more and when you're talking to them you feel like their minds are actually somewhere else and they're not really paying attention to you. This often happens to me and when it does I usually find out later that they had something going on in their life at that time that was occupying their mind and while they appeared not to care about me any more it's just that they'd got things weighing on their mind at the time.

You're not alone in sometimes feeling that it wouldn't matter if you weren't there and no one would miss you if you left, and would only miss you when they wanted you to do something for them. I get like that sometimes, but I know it's not true and that it's just me being miserable, I think it comes with being single in a world geared to couples.  Anyway, enough of my rambling, we would miss you @Sakura and we did get worried when you went totally off-line a few days back.

Thanks <33 It is very easy to slip into that mindset, especially when you're an overthinker like I am lol I can be having the best time with someone and they can literally tell me  how much fun they had with me but then that night I'll be laying in bed thinking that "they looked at me strangely for 0.5 seconds during our time together and I'm certain that means they hate me" @.@ I know it's not true but it still gets in the back of my mind sometimes. 

6 hours ago, CornedBeef said:

And it hasn't been long since I got here so no one knows me deeply and I feel left out sometimes.

But I would worry if you stopped posting here.  I hope you feel better, Sakura.

Thanks, also you're the coolest corned beef I know and yeah we do like having you here too

 

6 hours ago, Sarada said:

Yeah no as Soramee said we noticed within hours last time and went into full meltdown mode and would do it again :V I get how it's easy to feel this way because I do it too sometimes. Just gotta keep reminding yourself your head is lying to you. Listen to what @Animedragon wrote because he is wise and knows what he's talking about.

We are enjoying getting to know you here Cornedbeef

Yeah IK you're right and honestly I feel a little bit better today so thanks <33

1 hour ago, Sasuke said:

We'd notice. Probably immediately. I hope that what I said before when we argued didn't start any of these doubts in your head and if it did then again I'm sorry, I really could never express to you how sorry I am. If you need anything I'm here to talk. Your messages don't bother anyone and it makes my day when I see I have one from you as I'm sure it does most. 

Nah it's fine no worries Orion ~

[Animedragon]

1 hour ago, Sasuke said:

Your messages don't bother anyone and it makes my day when I see I have one from you as I'm sure it does most. 

I agree, I'm always happy when I receive an email saying "Sakura has sent you a message"

[Zeref]

3 hours ago, Sasuke said:

Your messages don't bother anyone and it makes my day when I see I have one from you as I'm sure it does most. 

Everyone loves talking to you @Sakura. You're fun to be around. We all overthink  sometimes but don't let it consume you. 

[CornedBeef]

4 hours ago, Sakura said:

Thanks <33 It is very easy to slip into that mindset, especially when you're an overthinker like I am lol I can be having the best time with someone and they can literally tell me  how much fun they had with me but then that night I'll be laying in bed thinking that "they looked at me strangely for 0.5 seconds during our time together and I'm certain that means they hate me" @.@ I know it's not true but it still gets in the back of my mind sometimes. 

Thanks, also you're the coolest corned beef I know and yeah we do like having you here too

 

Yeah IK you're right and honestly I feel a little bit better today so thanks <33

Nah it's fine no worries Orion ~

Thanks.  I am glad to have met you and your friends in here.

[Sakura]

5 hours ago, Animedragon said:

I agree, I'm always happy when I receive an email saying "Sakura has sent you a message"

That made me smile to read that : D 

3 hours ago, Zeref said:

Everyone loves talking to you @Sakura. You're fun to be around. We all overthink  sometimes but don't let it consume you. 

I think the #1 thing I keep overthinking is the fact that some people only message me when they want something and it's starting to make me feel like the only time anyone wants to be around me is when they want money or whatever ~ 

[Sarada]

9 hours ago, Sakura said:

That made me smile to read that : D 

I think the #1 thing I keep overthinking is the fact that some people only message me when they want something and it's starting to make me feel like the only time anyone wants to be around me is when they want money or whatever ~ 

Because your love language is "gift giving" you always give and give things to your friends and people you love, then they start expecting it. I know you can't change it because that's how you are and how you express love for someone but it's important to realize when someone is taking advantage of it and tell them no. It's fine to give but when they start expecting you to be an ATM shut that down.

 

[Sasuke]

3 hours ago, Sarada said:

Because your love language is "gift giving" you always give and give things to your friends and people you love, then they start expecting it. I know you can't change it because that's how you are and how you express love for someone but it's important to realize when someone is taking advantage of it and tell them no. It's fine to give but when they start expecting you to be an ATM shut that down.

 

The wrong kind of people will always take advantage of this trait, you have to be careful and make sure you don't let them. Never feel pressured to give someone anything either. 

[efaardvark]

Feeling more than a bit trepidatious after hearing that NASA will be facing heavy budget cuts.  Like most government agencies NASA overall is facing 25% cuts, with some areas looking at double that.  Yikes!

Even before the current Administration money has always been tight at NASA, especially in the DSN communications area where I work that supports NASA’s robotic Deep Space science and exploration missions.  (Think Voyager, Juno, the rovers on Mars, etc.)  Now Ars Technica has a story that NASA's Science Mission Directorate may be facing cuts of up to 50%, something the Planetary Society and many scientists are calling “an extinction-level event” for deep-space planetary science.  

[Zeref]

Sleepy and ready for bed. 

[Sakura]

14 hours ago, Sarada said:

Because your love language is "gift giving" you always give and give things to your friends and people you love, then they start expecting it. I know you can't change it because that's how you are and how you express love for someone but it's important to realize when someone is taking advantage of it and tell them no. It's fine to give but when they start expecting you to be an ATM shut that down.

Yeah I know I need to start really being more careful x.x 

6 hours ago, efaardvark said:

Feeling more than a bit trepidatious after hearing that NASA will be facing heavy budget cuts.  Like most government agencies NASA overall is facing 25% cuts, with some areas looking at double that.  Yikes!

Even before the current Administration money has always been tight at NASA, especially in the DSN communications area where I work that supports NASA’s robotic Deep Space science and exploration missions.  (Think Voyager, Juno, the rovers on Mars, etc.)  Now Ars Technica has a story that NASA's Science Mission Directorate may be facing cuts of up to 50%, something the Planetary Society and many scientists are calling “an extinction-level event” for deep-space planetary science.  

Hopefully this isn't going to affect your job is it? 

~

I feel mostly happy, a bit nervous about taking a plane tomorrow evening lol 

[efaardvark]

42 minutes ago, Sakura said:

Hopefully this isn't going to affect your job is it?

It is too early to know the details yet but unfortunately I'm almost sure it will.  Certainly if the cuts are as large as 25-50%.  Thanks to SpaceX making access to space so cheap there has been a huge increase in the DSN's workload over the last 5-10 years.  Personally I would not mind a bit of a slowdown in that regard.  But at that level of cuts it will be more of a shutdown than a slowdown.  We've already had 3 rounds of layoffs amounting to about 10% of the workforce in the last year and a half at JPL where the DSN is managed.  We're already stretched pretty thin in the manpower department.  Most of the robotic deep-space planetary science missions are planned and managed here as well.  Any additional cuts will mean existing missions will have to be shut down and plans for future missions will be put back on the shelf.  Hardware upgrades such as plans for new ground antennas or network bandwidth increases for the DSN will probably not happen now.  One or two flagship projects like James Webb will likely be kept running, but they will have to be funded by cancelling older, ongoing projects that have finished their primary mission.  This would likely include most if not all of the half dozen spacecraft and landed assets at Mars, the two Voyager probes, and older space telescopes such as Hubble and Chandra, among others.

[Animedragon]

18 hours ago, Sarada said:

Because your love language is "gift giving" you always give and give things to your friends and people you love, then they start expecting it. I know you can't change it because that's how you are and how you express love for someone but it's important to realize when someone is taking advantage of it and tell them no. It's fine to give but when they start expecting you to be an ATM shut that down.

 

On a related note, when I was at work I had to be careful in what I offered my customers as I found out the hard way that once you show you can do something people expect you to do it all the time. And sadly this is also true outside of work and kind hearted generous people can easily get taken advantage of and while it can be difficult and awkward to say "sorry, no" it's something that sometimes you have to do.

[Sarada]

5 hours ago, Animedragon said:

On a related note, when I was at work I had to be careful in what I offered my customers as I found out the hard way that once you show you can do something people expect you to do it all the time. And sadly this is also true outside of work and kind hearted generous people can easily get taken advantage of and while it can be difficult and awkward to say "sorry, no" it's something that sometimes you have to do.

People get entitled real quick once you do them one favor. I have no problem telling people no but I feel for people like my sis who try to be nice and get involved with this type of situation later on.