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I'm not sure if any of these that I'm about to talk about qualify as being a talent, but just in case they are, here goes: Talent #1: I'm good at playing games and figuring out various things in them. I still tend to use online guides just to make sure I don't miss anything as I play the game though. lol I'm kind of a completionist sometimes, though in some games more than others. Even though I'm good at playing video games, guides still help me out a lot so I don't miss stuff and have to go back to an earlier save file after wasting like 10 hours of progressing the story. lol Oh, and I can memorize a number of things in games that's always stunned Mom and I think big sis', too. Like, for example, I memorized every character's moves in Tekken 3, even the Ten strings (well, some of them), an awesome grapple combo using King, and how to effectively use each characters' moves. That's just an example of how I'm good at games though. ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ Talent #2: I can memorize details from anime and movies or shows I like that pretty much no one else remembers. So, when I bring up any details like that, everyone else has forgotten it. lol If I'm not into something though my memory tends to subconsciously half-heartedly try to remember things if I even pay attention. XD Talent #3: I've got an artistic eye with GFX and, according to friends and others, am actually good at it. I thought I was subpar though, but if friends and others say I'm good at it then I must just be struggling with self-esteem issues even these days.

Esdeath used to my waifu because of how sadistic, destructive, consumed by battle lust and slaughter she was, and how much of a psychopath she was, how she was the ultimate Yandere in my opinion. There were all sorts of reasons that I chose Esdeath as my waifu, but all of those reasons were dark. Except for her softer side which could love someone intensely and romantically. However, as she continued to be so, my darker thoughts kept getting amplified and worse. So, I changed my waifu to Sheele for multiple reasons. Like Sheele, I'm very much an airhead. lol I'm not good at anything I try to do (with the exception of playing video games, watching anime, and GFXing which I equated to Sheele's natural affinity for killing people to compare the two of us and how similar we are to each other even more). She's kind-hearted, her heart was always in the right place, and she's a genuinely good person. She seemed to be the better choice so my mental state wouldn't spiral like it would've if I would've stuck to Esdeath as my waifu. lol Sometimes I don't make the best decisions, but I don't regret switching my waifu to Sheele whatsoever. My mental state is doing better with Sheele as my waifu as opposed to having Esdeath be my waifu. Is it strange that a waifu can influence one's mental state so much? I'm seriously asking because I don't want to seem too weird or anything. ;.; ;.; ;.; ;.; ;.; ;.;

Villain I'm Not - Three Days Grace

Hmm. I could always experiment and see what I can figure out through trial and error, too. ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ You'll want to laugh, but I didn't actually think about renaming the layers what they are in case I forget. lmao Being autistic can be seriously frustrating. >< >< >< >< ^^; ^^; It's understandable that you haven't had much, if any, motivation for GFX projects lately. I felt the same until I talked back and forth to Pessi. ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ There's nothing wrong with not feeling up to working on GFX projects or your heart isn't in it. I personally don't think one should force oneself to do things like that or anything, just if they feel up to it. Otherwise that might lead to one not enjoying it as much as they used to. < 3

Thanks, dude. ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ I always appreciate the feedback from you all. ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ I still don't know how to use like overlay layers and stuff like that, but at the least I can still change the colors, brightness, and other elements of the projects I experiment with, so I'm relieved that I can do that at the very least. ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ I might also forget which layer was which if I started to experiment with different layer edits like overlay layers. Y'know how bad my memory is, not to mention my astoundingly short attention span. ^^; ^^; ^^; ^^; ^^; ^^; ^^; I really want to try it out, but I'm afraid I'd get mad and abandon the project if I did try to use layers like that. ;.; ;.; ;.; ;.; >< >< I totally agree that things have a way of looking better when they are personal, too. OH!!! Before I forget to mention it, I still have all 3 desktop wallpapers you made me~~ < 3 Oh yeah, I added the same text to the 2nd Yu-Gi-Oh! desktop wallpaper you made that the first one has. I really love what you put on that first wallpaper so much that I wanted to add it to the last Yu-Gi-Oh! wallpaper you made for me. Thank you so much again, li'l sis~~ It's well beyond anything I could ever do. ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ < 3 I bet you thought I didn't have them anymore, huh? ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ < 3

I'm not as paranoid or depressed as I usually am, so I feel better than I normally do.

Thanks, li'l sis'~ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ I like it, too. I can't actually remember all of the editing I did to the .PSD file for the sig, but I remember I increased the vibrance and brightness in the avy gif combo. ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ It took a while to get it to where I was happy with how they looked. ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ I loved how the sig came out though. It's because a big part of me died when big sis' passed away that I was happy with how it looked once I reordered the template to the front layer and messed around with blending options for it. So, with the sig I basically experimented. But that seems to be what I do best. lol

Holy crap. lol Even though you braced me for how @Eris is, @Sakura, I still see curve balls in his posts compared to what I expect him to say. Maybe I should stop trying to predict what he's going to say? lmao

Watch Me Burn - Atreyu

A Key to Nothing - Mudvayne

Mistrustful, paranoid. I suppose I might be worrying too much about people's intentions. This house isn't my "home" anymore.

Dancing With My Demons - Atreyu

Resuming my Yu-Gi-Oh! The Sacred Cards save data on the Early Days Collection cartridge for Switch.

I've gone back to Yami Marik/Ishizu/Marik from Yu-Gi-Oh! since I've been thinking about siblings lately.

The Night - NOXATRA, KYLTURE, Victor Borba

Dååth - Purified by Vengeance (feat. Mark Holcomb of Periphery & Mick Gordon)

Unconditional Love

Live

Torment

I'm so lost. ^^; ^^; ^^; ^^; ^^; ^^;

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