Hey all, first time on here since 2020 and well, I've certainly had better times in my life lol
Just broke things off on a relationship that I'd been in for 8 or 9 months, it was... messy.
Ultimately, the girl I was with was literally a self-described "tyrant"... her words, not mine. She never once compromised on anything, kept me at arms length, essentially made it my job to move things along as she would sometimes go weeks without replying to me and never once made the first move on anything.
The only reason it lasted so long was because we had deep conversations that told me I was misunderstanding the parts of her that felt distant, and I felt in reality she was accepting me more than anyone ever had!
But in the end she wasn't accepting anything about me, she was just indifferent, at least by my definition. And the shitkicker is I had suspected it from the beginning, but all of our conversations told me I was just acting insecure and that it wasn't true!
But I learned a lot about love and myself from the experience. I'm trying to re-educate myself on self-respect for starters, and I learned that the types of people I can feel love for are far more varied than I had thought!
I'll be alright, it hurt at first but ultimately I was being mistreated and even what I felt for her was just what I felt for who I THOUGHT she was. I'm better off getting out of that relationship rather than trying to make things work with someone that won't go out on a ledge for me as I would for them.
On a positive note, that experience has brought me back here! Of course I'm not just looking for love in a place like this, I also just feel super super guilty for abandoning this place back in 2020
I miss just being able to talk about anime with people lol