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This actually looks fairly cool in a Symphony of the Night way https://www.crunchyroll.com/anime-news/2020/06/07-1/record-of-lodoss-war-deedlit-in-wonder-labyrinth-prepares-for-stage-2-update

Finally sitting down to watch Spirited Away

@Ohiotaku You are so right. At this point, I can't think of anything that Akito could even do to try to redeem herself. Releasing Kyo & apologizing to everyone would be a start but even that wouldn't be enough in my opinion because of the severity of trauma that she's inflicted on everyone. Let me use a real world example to better explain what I'm trying to say here. Let's say someone is in an abusive relationship & the abuser apologizes or dies or gets locked up for the rest of their life. None of that is going to erase the damage that this person has done to their victim. It may provide some closure or justice but those things in & of themselves do not equate to healing emotional, mental, or psychological damage. In this case, as you so rightly pointed out, Akito's abuse knows NO bounds. She methodically & insidiously selects a target, studies them, isolates them, & then slowly begins tearing them apart until there's almost nothing left. And if you pay close attention, every single one of her victims eventually ends up lashing out at others because of how she's treated them. They instinctively become distressed when approached with any type of strong emotion whether that's genuine kindness or rejection or engage in unhealthy behavior in general. Akito has effectively destroyed their abilities to respond to stressors in a positive way for the most part. Some examples that come to mind immediately are Haru's rampage after getting rejected by Rin, Rin lashing out at Tohru when in her animal form, Yuki being at an almost complete loss of words any time he tries to express how he feels about Tohru, Shigure's delight at seeing other people in dismay, Kyo's feelings of total helplessness & how he puts up emotional blocks towards any form of love or kindness to the point that he is overly combative, Ayame's overly sexual nature & narcissistic behavior, & Kisa's refusal to stand up for herself yet she bites people when they get too close to her in her animal form, even when approaching her kindly like Tohru did out of just plain distrust & as adorable as this was due to her animal being portrayed as essentially just a baby, this just illustrates how the initial reaction is to protect oneself. This show has deeply impacted me on a personal level due to some things that I've experienced over the course of my life & has made me more determined than ever to find new ways to lend aide to the local organizations here that help abuse survivors. So instead of wasting money on a replica of Akito that I can break to pieces, I'm going to do everything in my power to help those within my community who have dealt with or are currently dealing with real life Akitos.

The way Akito has been portrayed to this point makes it a real challenge for when they finally reveal her backstory & almost inevitably try to convince the viewers that she is deserving redemption. You cannot look at her actions or listen to her words without realizing she is a emotionally/psycologically damaged & miserable individual. But what’s hard to look past is first the number of lives she has tried her hardest to destroy. Secondly that the abuse she hands out is on every level: verbal, physical, emotional & psychological. Which is what made the confrontation between her & Kyo last week so painful. She throws something at him & physically hits him. She calls him a monster with no value. She reminds him of her “generosity” in giving him a chance to win his freedom & taunts him that his failure proves she is right about him.She attacks his relationships by making him remember his mother’s death, that his father blames him for it & suggests that Tohru is a monster for showing him kindness. Akito attacks her victims on every front & does not let up until she feels she’s broken them. I won’t say it’s impossible to make her a sympathetic character but it sure as hell won’t be easy after they have done such a perfect job of portraying her as a truly despicable antagonist.

my dad is teaching me how to drive i think this is the most bonding we've done in years

Almost done with Season 2 of MHA. That’s cool. The Bakugo origin story one sounds interesting. I still don’t understand why people ship BakuDeku

To anyone who has made something or attempted to make something, you know this feeling too well. "Can I really do this? Who am I kidding? I don't know what I'm doing." I dabble in a lot of things. From web development, video editing, animation, web comics, making games, photography etc. But I never called myself a web developer, video editor, animator, artist, game developer, photographer. Because I never really felt I was one. I thought since I was a beginner and not as good as others, I shouldn't call myself a (insert title here). As it would be insulting to the REAL (insert title here). No matter what my accomplishments were, no matter how much experience I got, I was just a wannabe, a fake, an impostor. But then I realized.... you are what you do. Some people talk the talk and some walk the walk. Some think they are cool while some ARE cool. If you made a website, you are a web developer. If you made a web comic, you are an artist. If you took a photo, you are a photographer and so on. Many if not all veteran creatives went through this stage. Where they doubted themselves. But chose to keep going. And in the end, the feeling of being a wannabe disappeared. They became a real legitimate (insert title here). Have you ever felt impostor syndrome? How did you overcome it?

that's actually the reason i deemed myself the title of "lame artist" it's because, i felt unworthy, bad at what i did, and felt like i could never improve besides, i never studied anything in the art-field, (sure, i look at referrences, but i dont look up tutorials, i used too, but now a days i dont TuT anymore), almost all my life has been thrown on playing games, surfing the net, and as of the recent year, just studying -- but i did notice, i got better at drawing, comparing it to my old drawings (i did a 2 year-gap difference on my first OC), the style, the lines, it all feels different from when i started but yea, long short, i can safely ditch the "lame artist" title, couse i feel like a worthy artist but i wont, because its a memento of what i used to be

Yes, I have felt imposter syndrome. Sometimes I look around at the people I work with and think, "damn.. how did I manage to get in with this crowd?!" People call on me for answers that I don't know. Often I get thrown in at the deep end and it is sink-or-swim time. I can identify with people like Jen and Sorata in S1 of "Pet Girl". There always seems to be another problem or deadline that people expect me to be able to deal with, and if the bosses think things are going too smooth they up the ante. (Seriously. The former chief boss at work - a guy who is fluent in half a dozen different languages, has 4 masters degrees in physics and engineering, an MBA, a doctorate in electrical sciences from CalTech, is currently a professor at CalTech, and who basically invented synthetic-aperture radar, at least as it is used in remote-sensing applications - was definitely a Rooseveltian at heart. He once said at an all-hands meeting, "If things aren't breaking then maybe we're not pushing the envelope hard enough".) I don't think you can overcome it, in the sense of getting to a point where you can relax. At least I haven't found out how to do that myself. I deal with it, if you can call it that, by quickly learning what I don't know and answering as if I'd known all along. Sometimes I think my only true skill is Google-fu. (Though sometimes all I find is other people asking the same questions. ) It is stressful sometimes, but it also has its moments of awesome.