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WARNING; sh*tton of words ahead, and maybe possible bad english? couse i mean, i just wrote stuff based on what happened, i dont wanna proof read this either >.>

just check TLDR if you dont wanna read it all

so i couldn't confess to her with words, mainly couse it was a night duty, and she was window, and i was somehow invited to help ER couse they lack man power there, (but so did INPX), so i told the leader "sure, until other guys arrive ill help out here"

so around first 4 hours of duty, i ended up being in ER, being slightly toxic, after that, the "late ins" interns arrived, only problem was, thats when the real toxic arrived, (e.g patient after patient)

and then doctors kept following up something, the staff got a bit mad at the intern's, so i semi sped myself up on duty, she got mad couse all the interns in ER was mass warding, while she was left alone in the ER lab 

when i heard that, i stayed in ER longer and decided to do most of the things fastly (e.g update PC log sheet, charged new patient tests, etc)

basically i toke window role, which is my most hated role in internship...

but i had the fastest writing speed, so i could update it 10x faster than anyone (only problem being, its so hard to f*cking read their hand writings >.>)

so fast forward to 3am, toxicity finally subsided, and i was able to ditch to go to where i really wanted to -- INPX where waifu at

only to be slapped by morning pick stuff, and so many people in there that i cant get a moment of her time (+/- she was toxic, so i didn't wanna disturb her for my stooped reasons)

in the end, i went morning pick with a junior who wasn't confident in extraction, was slow af and stuff, and

basically, everything about me when i was just starting out >.>

though i told her ill do the rest, after teaching her proper collection on ARD bottles (couse ill collect morning pick faster if im going at it alone)

give take i needed to hurry too, couse it was 5am, and i had like 6 extractions, and 12? HGT/CBG (glucose test)

ended up finishing them all by 6:30am, and gave her the samples to less toxify her

after which it was benign-ish for me, like regular, checking trashbins for sharps and pranking new interns that im a "staff" or "a girl" (couse i brought a wig that day, to fool INPX window, and act like a patient -- she saw right through me though, and told me that "the exit is that way" 

i was like

the f*ck ?! how did you know ?

"gut feeling" - qt junior 2019

so yea, in the end, i couldn't confess to her by words; butttttt

i ordered everyone gifts, hers having a special extra one, and i wrote everyone letters (including hers)

outside, i wrote "dont open it with people around"

inside, i wrote i liked her, and the other was me going asdjfhsdfhsajfh couse i was cringing >.>

so yea, other's saw, and was like "yieeeeeee" and others were "how does she get two ?" (couse i only gave one to everyone)

and i was just like "yknow "winkwink""

she incidentally smiled which made my day even though i was 24hours + awake now (couse i went from review center, then home, then straight to night duty >.>)

so yea, TLDR;

1.) confessed to qt by letter/gift, but she has yet to log in since, so idk her answer yet, im expecting to get rejected though if its taken this long, (which could hint she's avoiding me? and probably doesn't wanna make me sad?)

2.) couldn't get to study yesterday, due to over fatigue, lack of sleep, body ache from over working, etc

3.) i ended up going all night duty, when my initial goal was to just give her gift, and ditch home by 10pm

"thats about it; ryu is out, gun go kms after this incident ._."