I love coffee as well, but I've stopped drinking it for the time being. I had to, because I tended to drink two to three cups first-thing in the mornings back-to-back, often without eating breakfast, and that only exacerbated my anxiety (I totally get what you mean by saying it's like cocaine). Now, I drink black tea in the mornings, and maybe a cup of green tea in the early afternoon. Still getting some degree of caffeine, just not an overload like I was with coffee.
I used to like grinding whole-bean coffee to brew in a French press when I had the time. There was nothing better to start the day with, IMHO. I miss it every now and again, but I got tired of having bad days because of highly anxious thoughts and feelings. It can be bad enough without the help of caffeine sometimes. Who knows? Maybe sooner or later I'll drink it again, but I really must stay aware of how much I consume.