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remember when i would draw everyday ?

me either, i miss drawing mia, miyu, kaeda, especially kaeda, kaeda was my favorite, couse of how i had so much imagination on her character

yanderes are for real, one of my taste probably >.>

next being fox girl

then kimono

...and then maid

but nothing beats long haired girls, mhm

hands down, best fetish 2019

also, 

obligatory song post, YES MAH MASTAH~!

Im window today

Fuck help me im scared

i-i got nothing

wait no i do, i got my allowance, and a little extra for my birthday, but i need to ive some for my brother too, so i gotta do stuff right

this gun be tight

oh and, i "borrowed" some empty urine bottle strips from our CM, during my night duty, to make into a dispose-syringe-trash-place when we ward on our tackle box/tools box'es, ima send a pic, its generally not really hard to do, im just cutting sh*t up

i mean, this thing is kinda better, than, say, leaving used syringes in a small disposable place on the box-box (i call the tackle/tool box "box-box" xD)

also, excuse my dirty table, i cant be assed to clean it up, not when i dont know where to throw my sh*t at >.>

or folders, seriously i can use them one day, probably never though

aced my exam, with not flying colors, but with moderate score, doesnt matter couse i barely studied it, so SUCK IT AHA~!

though, to be honest, even if i failed, at worst my grade would be around 2.50 or something, but since its still at 1.75...i can go ahead and not care for finals, couse, at worse itll be 2.75 >_>

#propergradeplanning

though, knowing me, id probably still study, even if its just skimming through, i somewhat have a overpowered memory ever since i started meditating and jogging >.>

also, today was somewhat toxic, maybe its couse i was awake 27hours >.>

i mean kinda sucks i couldnt extract blood from that 7month old baby...and show of to my junior <.>

now that i think about it, i could have extracted blood BELOW hematoma'ed area, i blame being awake for 27hours on that part, i clearly was not in the right mind tsk

give take, she's like me, but semi better, she's scared of extracting on kids, makes me wanna protecc her, especially since she a qt >.<

oh and im reminded, someone centrifuged IODINE, rather than blood, they sure f*cked that one up, but no harm was done, sooo~

obligatory inspirational song,

for some reason, this song is hitting me hard, especially knowing how much i used to act, being alone and shiz

give take, undertale is still fap, #genociderouteisbrutal

was processing so much blood, couse, well, two of my partners was "pulled out", aka they have school seminar, thus cant work, meanwhile me and my other partner was stuck

the sucky part is, the machine is kinda, it kinda doesn't have the reagent needed to be ran ?

thus we kind of, had to do sh*t manually ? (i.e smearing blood on slide, and then centrifuging HCT(hematocrits) and reading them, which kind of takes time ?

allot of time, rather than just letting machine stab on the tube, and reading sh*t

couse i mean, after smearing, we have to let it dry off, fixate it, and then safranin red/methylene blue/wash that slide (its not safranin, i just cant remember the red stuffs term)

and then off to reading via microscope >.>, luckily staff seems to do whole reading, though i kinda wanna learn how to read using microscope ;s

dozo pics of work and my partner, total qt imouto-ish partner by the by

wonder if she would be mad that i posted her pic here

(iz request forms i did, blue-ish one is fixated, while red one's havent been processed yet, i know its not organized, but bite me, i know where everything is during that time, aslong as no one touches it)

also my partner, that i toke a pic of, dont ask why i toke a pic, couse i can probably explain

just finished this horror game, which seems to have its own anime? (didnt look it up, but i assume its got an anime too), and my god, did the story, somewhat remind me of that one horror game i played, but was more brutal/fanfictioned than this

lowkey dont blame the doctor though, ray's eyes were...kinda neat >.>

#thedoctordidnothingwrong

this resulted in me not drawing though, but hey, that was a fun story to read, so bite me >.>

#totallyrecommendthistorpgplayers

also incase anyone else wants to know what that other game im talking about, check out pocket mirror, shiz was funsiz

also spoiler-ish, so open at your own risk

GRAB LIFE IN THE BALLS - protag-kun, a quote i will from now on, use >.>

gonna catch up on story on FGO, then, probably do some artwork, couse i got no schedule on hospital till night duty babyyyyy

is this a break i see after all those years (read: days) of working in hospital ?!?!

holy shhiiieee****

i am, fine with this

obligatory, post of the song >:o

tf was all that spam on forums >.>

just got back from exam, and boi was it, not fun really

i think i aced it though, not sure

ara ara ?, is that a gift, or are you just happy to see me ?

happy new year~!

felt slight cold, thus i must recover and regenerate myself

so much sh*t happend today though, and so much dizzying, but one thing i know is, i probably wont be helping anyone in my group, aside from my partners, and some individual

i mean, i just tried to help that person, and give her idea's on where to extract blood, but it seems, as usual, i was misunderstood >.>

and then i got sent a PM from her about not to do such things, in a very rood way, which pretty much means, i should respect her wish, and just not babysit her at all

she'll be fine, experience breeds best results, afterall, the skill i got from extracting patients, was all due to the self-experience i got from my senior's brutality, she probably needs to experience it too

but i may, babysit and guide, help, and etc my partners more often, than random collegues

give take, one of my collegues is daijoubu af, one is same as me, maybe better, and one is imouto-type that i wanna protecc

maybe its couse she's the shy-type?, idk, kinda cute if you ask me

but nonethless, its time to neppu, OYASUMI's ! 

forgot what i was gonna

oh wait i remember now,

that feel when, a student knows how to extract blood better than a doctor

tfw a patient thinks a doctor's are better in extracting blood, than med techs

i find this relatively funny >.>...

i mean, to be honest, some nurses/doctors actually, lowkey dont know how to extract blood from patient, they know other stuff, like diagnosing the disease, but extraction is, kind of hard for them ?

unless that specific doctor studied extraction atleast, but from my time in the hospital, some of those doctors aint really a professional in extraction of blood

major respect for those doctors that have "RMT, MD." in their names tho', that generally means they are doctors, and a registered scientist >.>

in which case, that also means they are hella professional in blood extraction, aside from being able to diagnose disease's

exchange gift happened last night, after our duty, the girl gave me death note book

i mean, its cool and all, but i coulda went for someting, yknow, kawaii af >.>

it sure doesn't work though, wrote my name, and still waiting to randomly get a feel of running outside naked, then get hit by a truck, and transfered to an isekai world

i can only #dream

also, i got the girl that i exchange gifted with, a sweater and lipstick, couse that was in her wish list, and god damn, did i feel like a noob buying those things

the f*cks a sweater, i just wear comfy clothing in house lmao

merry, merry, jingle, jiggle, bells, bells~

have a happy christmas eve everyone~!

and for all you single guys/girls out there (mostly girls) that have no one to spend with

im single, call me "wink wink"

just kidding, but yea, lets all have a fun christmas time

song of obligators~ 

so yea, phone's screen broke, and then i was sad, and then my secret (god) santa came to me and said

LET THERE BE CASH

and the mad man, actually sent me 80eur's to order sh*t to fix my phone, like holy shit dude >.>

initially, he actually planned to send me 100eur, if he got rin (from fgo, aka ishtar-in), but i sort of forgot my paypal account...or to be precise, I DIDNT KNOW PAYPAL HAD DIFFERENT WEBSITES, HOW WAS I SUPPOSE TO KNOW USA WAS DIFFERENT FROM ASIA ONE ?!!?!?

but yea, big thank's to my best friend, who actually sent me cash to help fix my busted up screen phone, find yourself a friend you can trust ^

and here i remember, in the past, like 4 years or 5 years ago, i said the line to him, "id buy him anything he wants when i get a job, aslong as its not too expensive and within my pay-range"

look who'se been doing that so far, i am such a worthless friend >.>

also pic of him sending it, but censored name couse, security or privacy reasons ? idk >.>, his pretty much a secret santa at this point jesus christ

also, not a post, where theres not an OBLIGATORY SONG POSTOOOO~!~!~!

was cooking noodles, when i saw a korean bot attack AF-forums

needless to say, i have fixed the problem, and reduced him to ash

the only problem is, i forgot i was cooking noodles, and my noodles was also burned to ash

f*ck you korean bot, that was my only food god dangit

as usual, obligatory song post~

after computing my money, i have thus calculated that

i am broke af boi

atleast, buying stuff/ordering will cost around 3k php, and i have like 3.5k...

how to GG

be me

someone donate to my ______, and ill love ya forever

obligatory nightcore song tho'

got extremely well in terms of extracting blood from patient's, i mean, i remember my first week, where i somewhat hesitate on even doing HGT/sugar testing, and now im extracting blood within 5 minutes >.>

i mean, i toke 30minutes last time i was morning pick (morning pick is where we extract blood from people that are fasting, and need a test for fasting blood sugar/FBS, it btw, only toke me 30minutes to extract 8 patients >.>, though to be fair i was with a senior, but i was the one who did all the extracting, and he mainly did "pre labelling", which is labelling the tube, while i extracted blood, sh*t was sonic fast)

but yea, feeling like a senior, especially soon now that, hospital is getting new interns, i feel ill be one of the guys who they will rely on

gotta step muh game up, and look like a pro senior on my kohai's ~

on the side note, obligatory english old song, couse i have no idea why, iz remorsing and stuff

well that was sh*t

did so much and she seems to have either 

A. not noticed my gifts

or B. is ignoring me 

or C. hates me

idk, but that's kinda balls, i worked hard and didn't get any recognition, hurts right in the feels man

good thing im semi used to depression, thus making me immune to this sh*t

incidentally, obligatory OLD SONG POSTOOOOOO >:O

we listening to west life songs now boi's, #backstreetboi's

After fighting my inner self, ive decided to buy the 1.2k sharpie, no food december is launched, did put a sort of game in here tho, lets see if you guys can solve it

Ill translate the non-english lines too btw

*change to... once you solve it xD*, is what it translates too, ill tell you guys if you manage to solve it

It aint rocket science tho :I

(Also theres a hidden message on *tho* part, made it so it would still be readable, but also not, assuming you dont know whay the numbers mean xD)

I am, a shy boi

Done

finished doing this thing, pouch? thingie, i made from scratch, had no idea what i was going for, i just wanted to do something using my own hands, hope she will appreciate it

also did some wierd stuff on the black vacutainer, and made it into a keychain, had a wierd idea, of placing a note inside, where its hidden (on the black top), where she can read it when she notices it, or opens it, but i dont wanna bother having to do whole process again >.>

all the stuff placed on that pouch thing, was 100% stack items in my room, that i keep hidden for this very day

heck, that white clothe ?, its just my old shirt, thats kinda tattered, i just cutted it and reused good clothe and knitted stuff, 

clothe touch is even sasuga af~

though, incase she doesn't like it, also ordered this thing, a "keychain" of sort, with their name (though to be honest, i only really wanted to give stuff to "marose" girl, couse shes been nice to me since day 1, also i secretly kinda, like her,like, yknow..>.<, kiana girl is...kinda been rood to me, but shes my partner, so it would be unfair if i gave marose stuff, but not my partner

and incase she still doesn't like that...

im waiting for my monthly allowance to buy the stuff i heard she likes, "sharpie", aka...gimme a sec to upload it

so thats the "sharpie" thingy i heard she likes...which is why i made stuff, couse i felt, a marker for a gift?, kinda bland and boring dontcha' think ? also kinda expensive, like seriously, wtf

but since im betting on those two, ill probably just get her the blue colored one (which cost's 250 php...4.20eur or 4.77$)

i wanna get her the green circled one but..man that shit costs 1.2kphp (22.90$, or 20.20eur), and man, my wallet, just look at it man, just look at my wallet >___>

yep, thats right, my wallet has nothing but coins in it, not even enough to feed me food for christmas lmao

someone send help and donate to me ;_;

well anyway, probably gonna still try to get her the green one, unless too much wallet complaint, ill get blue

i mean, counting and evaluating expenses...id just have to not eat food in hospital for 22 days..or one month, to compensate for using 22$ for a gift...

(since im basing on 50php food a day, or 0.84eur, 1$, and this is, mind you, just for my food needs, ill be depriving myself of food just to see "dat smile")

my stomach is already complaining, and so is my wallet, ugh x.x

well anyway, i got until 30th of november, or 2nd of december to give her stuff, so till then, i have to plan this right, probably leave a message using periodic table

my dude~ happieth biruthdey~

have a fun cake, and probably water to help relief from excess

sugars~

me when i pressed "order now" on an online shopping site, and the shipping fee is 100php (while the actual price is 150php)

i am conflicted, but f*ck it

anyone up for some chats ?! dm me or some shet, tho' i will be nepping soon, like 2hours from now or so ?

now then...time to meditate, get my thoughts together, and then eat, after eating, prepare for our saturday presentation, and then study on exam ill take on thursday

after all, im having an adrenaline momentum rush, and having a rush is bad if im studying, i gotta go slow, if i must do things right

worse comes to worse, ill jog and get tired again, worse comes to wrse comes to worse, i end up playing games to relieve this god damn stress jesus christ im so stressed

obligatory crazy psycho lesbian yandere post ?

decided on, rather than buying my senior a gift for her grand duty, i would rather "use my talent" and "craft something" out of junk i collect in house

and none-the-less, i've decided something grand and fun to do, a sort of puzzle

since she likes "highlighters", ima put a puzzle game of sorts on the highlighters ill buy for her, and see if she can notice it/solve it, its gonna be fun, atleast, in my brain

itll end in two ways, she solves it, and i go "oh shit she actually solved it and found out my secret message", or "she wont notice a thing and thank me" >.>

oh and the, crafting stuff im doing is, this thing, though its incomplete, gonna probably finish it tomorrow, or continue on it tomorrow, couse for now im gonna jog~

though to be honest, im just gonna add a kitten (keychain) somewhere in this thing (whatever it is lawl), and a bell