It's like that on everyone's first try. I was boarding since I was 5 with my dad and uncle. Let me know if you take it up I got all the worst advice and bad habits. XD
I feel like a man baby for complaining about my mood when everyone is overworked and stressed. Hitting the slow season atm but I know when life picks up and I wouldn't wish that stress on anyone. Take care and catch a breather.