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  1. 4 points
    This are some of the chocolates you can find/try here, some became part of my childhood days.
  2. 4 points
    It's been a long time since I've written here in my blog. I really write writing and somehow it's my way of venting out my feelings, emotions and especially my frustrations. Speaking of frustrations let's talk about my frustration about cooking. So if you knew me for like quite some time maybe way back December 18 or something I've written this blog about living on my own in college and so here I am today still unable to cook a single grain of rice for dinner. We all have that feeling heroic moments when you just suddenly woke up from an 8-hour slumber induced by no sleep late last night due to a long quiz that never happened caused by your teacher feeling like, "Oh, I'm not gonna give a quiz today just cause I don't want to." and think that you could do everything you want to do cause you think you're the most capable being on earth. So here you were, washing some rice, readying for your first ever cooking show and humming to yourself while putting it over your rice cooker. You take out your phone taking the most epic picture possible just cause it's your first time cooking rice and its expected in your country to know how to cook rice at the age of 10 and you're already 18 and ambitious enough. You take this little stroll in insta until you smell something burning and this time it's not your hair. It's your nonexistent work of art. You forgot to add in some water and all you had to do was wait for that rice cooker to just say keep warm! So College life is going well for me aside from the fact that I had to buy my Breakfast, Lunch and Dinner from the Cafeteria. Good job self! You're going to survive it all so come at me life! *notice the potato sarcasm* So if you're having a bad day out there cause you're crush can't notice you, or your being bullied by someone who doesn't really know your true self at school, or you're bored all the time just cause you have all the time in the world and time is your slave or you're just plain frustrated with life's problems and hurdles remember there's a girl out there that is supposedly expected to capable of cooking rice at the age of 10 and is now 18 but still can't have dinner due to her own clumsiness, negligence plain old stupidity. Don't be too harsh on yourself. We learn from mistakes but for me I think I'm going to learn from youtube since Mum's not here. Keep Breathing~
  3. 3 points
    In case anyone was coming here hoping to find useful information, turn around, I am not an expert in this subject matter, just thoughtful insights here. If you're looking for someone else's perspective on this subject, well hello! You've come to the right place. I wanted to share my thoughts on mute characters in writing, because until recently I hadn't even considered the possibility of a mute character in a story, or even in life for that matter. Not that I'm consciously noninclusive, it's just that I can only recall one instance where there was a mute person I've been exposed to, and it was in a movie that I watched. She was a very beautifully done character with loads of personality and a huge impact on the story, and it was because she went through this huge change, overcoming her struggle with trusting, and being afraid to the point of not speaking, that the story was so beautiful. However, she only did this because of the help of the other characters in this movie. These characters were also given the heroic honor to notice this young character and help her life change for the better when they could have easily left her alone and chosen to ignore her entirely. She was mute, she wasn't a squeaky wheel asking for attention, yet they chose to take the time to get to know her and to help her, and this made their characters better too. The point: mute characters take more effort, but they can be worth it. Since starting the RP "The Harmony of our Hearts" with @Nova who requested that there be a mute character, I have been concerned that I may have bit off a bit more than I could chew. I was thinking, how on earth will I be able to role play this character, when she can't speak.. What will her contribution even be? I'll admit, its been pretty tough to pull this off, and I hope I'm doing okay, and not creating a character that no one wants to be around... But the thing is, if mute characters take effort, then the other characters in the story will just have to take the time to understand and help my character to truly flourish again. The premise behind her being mute is pretty rough, but basically it was from an accident that she witnessed or perhaps somehow feels to blame for. At the same time, her best friend Kagura is unhealthy, and is prone to getting injured, being around her makes her remember this accident. So i'm hoping that I can eventually rebuild this characters strength and overcome the anxiety and the fear underlying her condition. Communicating with these characters in the story has been challenging, mostly I will be doing facial expressions, body language, and as I recently mentioned in the story, texting other characters. I don't want to add telepathy, because I feel like this story isn't going to include these types of abilities. It's more of a love story, so perhaps Sofias desire for the love interest, or even his future involvement with her will help her to heal and we can see a massive change in the character as the story reaches a climax. Anyway, I hope you've gotten something out of this, or considered mute characters for one of your future stories. Let me know in the comments if you've got any creative ideas for Sofia to be interacting with her friends in this RP.. I'll give you the link below. Looking forward to it. -Seshi
  4. 3 points
    This is the second entry in a series on how to make your own web manga. Now that you have a story idea we can start expanding it. For the sake of continuity, let’s say my chosen story idea is: We have an idea. Not a story. In its current form, it’s useless. It doesn’t give us much information. We have to take it from concept to actualization. We can do this by adding structure. Basic Story Structure Every good story has a beginning, middle, and end. Think of your favorite movie, book, or anime. They all have that. It’s what separates a good story from a bad one. Stories that don’t follow this tend to be incomplete and confusing. Beginning Takeji is a nerdy highschool boy. He’s quite tall and gets bullied for it constantly. This makes him want to quit school. Middle One day he meets a transfer student named Hayato who is also tall. Hayato shows him an NBA game. This motivates Takeji to learn the sport of basketball. With Hayato’s help he gets ready to try out for his school’s basketball club. End Takeji makes the cut and is accepted into the club. However, he also realizes how far he is from making it into the NBA. He has a lot to improve on first. This was only the first step of his long journey. Try reading this story again but skip the middle part. Confusing isn’t it? Club? What club? He wants to make it in the NBA? But why? I thought he wanted to quit school? Try reading it without the end part. It feels unfinished right? It makes you want to know what happened next. Was that it? That’s the whole story? Did he make his school’s basketball club? What is the “Beginning” for? This is where you do the introductions. Where does your story take place? Show the time period and setting. Reveal the main character and side characters. Give a taste of what people can expect. What is the “Middle” for? This is where you tell your story. This part will be longer than the beginning and end. The climax (highlight) of the story takes place here. The middle is the part that people find the most exciting. What is the “End” for? This is where you wrap things up. And provide a satisfying ending. You can also setup a sequel here. Like what I did in my example. Your story’s message should have already been delivered at this point. Our story idea has now been transformed into a complete story. Albeit a very short story. Next stop is to flesh it out some more.
  5. 3 points
    I'm pretty sure you had a sleepless night at least once in your life. If you didn't and you aren't a dead guy like @Wodahs-oto sama, well, I envy you and you're sure to have a sleepless night tonight. Moving on! Sleepless nights are a pain in the butt. When you have a sleepless night and feel sleepy later in the day, well, anyone can get frustrated. Just like I am right now. I feel so sleepy that I'm practically yawning my head off. Anyway, sleepless nights. Sleepless nights. Sleepless nights. Sleepless nights. Sleepless nights. *keeps on repeating "sleepless nights"* Moving on! The reason people have sleepless nights is mostly because of high sugar intake right before bed or looking at your phone/computer/laptop/tablet computer right before bed. But there are times when you get sleepless nights from tension or when you think about something very...weird. Like sometimes before I go to bed I have a lot of weird thoughts. Sometimes i feel like I am the only on in this world who is real. Everyone and everything else is just an illusion. Whenever I think this way, yelp, hello sleepless nights! But sleepless nights aren't all bad. If you have had a sleepless night at least once in your life you'll be safe from the sleepless night I'll give you! So just remember, if you haven't had a sleepless nights even once in your life, I'll make sure to give you one! Always remember, if you can't sleep and are having a sleepless night, just get out of your bed and do something extremely boring. Studies show that you feel sleepy when you do something extremely boring. Oh, and never take sleep pills without a doctor's permission. And one more thing, sleepless nights aren't the same as insomnia. Now, have a very sleepy night! Unless you've never had a sleepless night before, that is...
  6. 3 points
    So this one day when I was laying down in my bed, daydreaming, I suddenly remembered about my childhood passion of singing. I couldn't sing then, and now I still can't, but for some reason I had a thing for music, which hasn't changed yet. I was, and still am, the only one who looked forward to our weekly music classes. For me music was, and still is, the key to life. We had an old busted radio when I was younger. Nobody even looked at it, so I was the only one to listened to the 1970s hits. I still remember that I used to sit in an old rocking chair and listen to the radio with a cup of milk in my hands (I was trying to act like a grownup!) while the radio blared some popular 1970s songs like "How Deep is Your Love" by Bee Gees and such. I listened to the oldies back then because I didn't know about the new songs like "Clumsy" by Fergie (it's one of my favorites now!) or "Bad Day" by Daniel Powter (This one's a golden!). But I'll admit that I soon forgot about all those songs after i tasted my first up-to-date song back in 2009. It was "21 Guns" by Green day and I still love the song. After that I thought that the oldies were disgusting and weird. But my passion for music hasn't changed, even though I have a few picks of oldies that I love now and hate the rest. But sometimes, when I come across "It's My Life" by Bon Jovi or "Summer of 69" by Bryan Adams I just can't help forgetting about all the new pop songs. I just sing along with the song and remember all those good ol' days of my old busted radio. My busted radio was just a start, I have a long journey ahead of music me...
  7. 3 points
    When I was young, around 5th grade, my teacher asked the boys in our class about their thoughts on girls. One boy from the class (which I still know now on Facebook because he went on another school from me) said, "Girls are our Mums! They clean the house and take care of me." It was a sincere answer and I'm pretty sure he was able to say that because it's what he have witnessed in their own home. Women should be like this. Men should be like that. We all offer our each and own opinions on how Women and Men should be. Men should take her bae on dates, or give her a bunch of flowers with a bucket full of chocolates on every special occasions such as anniversaries, monthsaries, weeksaries and even daysaries (if possible) or men should never hold much more think about holding a hand against women or that men should be sensitive enough to care or in other words be a walking possession of women . On the contrary women are expected to be "untouched", a good cook who can do chores, a being that should never express her opinions; summing it all up, a walking possession of men. Watching my Facebook feeds I see a lot of photos expressing gender equality which ONLY highlights the rights of women. Didn't anyone thought about the fact that Men should have their share of shout outs about their rights as well? I saw a guy once who helped this struggling lady with her heavy bags. In a moment I imagined and thought to myself if this said Gender equality exist then that guy could've left that lady struggling with her bags. He didn't need to go out of his way and help that lady. Let the girls carry their heavy bags. Let the girls settle fights with punches and kicks. If it's gender equality then it's every gender for themselves. Gender equality doesn't exist. We have to be honest that each and everyone of us whether you are a man or a woman, a girl or a boy, a lesbian or gay, we have our own opinions about each gender. These opinions can't be changed with a single flick of a magic wand or a single blog entry that is made by a Potato online. It is not our rights that should be changed or implemented BUT our own mindsets. Let's take it easy with everyone. Let's put our standards about each other a little lower.
  8. 2 points
    Ehh, not that anyone's ever really asked me about it, but I do mention MMaM allot, so I thought I might as well address it. MMaM stands for "Me, Myself and the Multiverse"; a series I have been working on for the last 3 years. its been mostly based off of characters and ideas formed within my head-thing (I'm an insomniac, so I spend a LOT of time thinking) so I've been developing an entire universe for the MMaM story-line, as well as other series based in that universe (such as "Memetically Me", which is one I'm working on atm) Without going into to much detail, I thought I might as well say that I will likely be using this blog, as well as the writers archive club, to share some of my thoughts, ideas and tips/tricks I have picked up over my short time of writing. (I will also be covering how to write a comic, as well as how to create narrative for characters in video games, in the writers archive. this wont be for a while, since I am still learning myself, but I will definitely get around to it) anyhow, hope this is at least helpful and informative, and I look forward to ranting on about narrative and ideas in the near future (Oh, and please, if anyone has ANY questions at all, or anything they would like me to discuss or go over within narrative or creative fields, then please ask! even if I don't know about it myself, I would happily research it with you, since it means we can all learn together!!! :D) Thank you for your time
  9. 2 points
    In a previous blog post: I talked about working on a new project. A motion webtoon. (A semi-animated colored manga) I posted that with no idea of what to call it yet. That is until now. Super Detectives is going to be the name of the motion webtoon. It was kind of surprising on how the name hasn't been taken yet. I assumed an anime or manga called Super Detectives would exist. But luckily none yet. According to a My Anime List search I did. So with a name already selected, I proceeded to make a logo. I wanted it to look like a typical anime show logo. And here it is:
  10. 2 points
    Hey Everyone, Happy New Year hope this new year brings everyone happiness. Okay so I wanted to talk about an anime called Megalo Box it's the 50th anniversary of a manga and anime called Ashita no Joe. Its a sports anime involving boxing with a twist they use gear to enhance one's ability. I wasn't sure if I would like this sports anime but it was actually really good one of my favorite sports anime's. The world in which they live in only the rich can have citizenship the rest fight to survive. The main protagonist in the story is poor and doesn't have a name but box's underground with his trainer were the throw matches to pay off a debt. Soon though a top notch fighter shows up to challenge and from there the story really takes off. I feel like if I tell anymore it will spoil. The anime really shows the struggle of wanting to show your worth and fighting for something bigger than one's self. It is a definitely must watch with only 12 or 13 episodes.
  11. 2 points
    Isekai Quartet is one of the anime airing this season. It's not finished yet, but I'd like to give my thoughts about it here. Overlord Overlord is by far my favorite out of the four. I love the characters; they bounce off each other in a way that I find hilarious, especially in the spin-offs like A La Carte and Ple Ple Pleiades. A common complaint I see about Overlord is that the guardians have no/the same personality because they're all loyal to Ainz. This might seem true to an outsider, but as someone who's a bit closer with the series, I feel that the characters are distinct and interesting. Overlord has, in my opinion, carried Isekai Quartet so far. Ainz has done the most legwork interacting with the other characters, which is the point of a crossover show. He even ends an episode in the most comfy way possible, but I'll let you experience that yourself if you haven't seen Isekai Quartet yet. Ainz should also be the most relatable for the average viewer, even if he's a skeleton lich Sorcerer King. KonoSuba For some reason, r/anime and /a/ just love KonoSuba. While I actually used to like KonoSuba a lot, constantly hearing exaggerations about how hilarious or based it is has turned me off of the show. (So much, in fact, that it has made me lower my score of it on Anilist.) My biggest issue with KonoSuba in Isekai Quartet is the repetitiveness of their gag humor. This is especially true of Darkness, who pretty much has one joke in both Isekai Quartet and the KonoSuba anime. I still do like Darkness in KonoSuba, but in Isekai Quartet, she's just outright annoying. Megumin also hasn't done much in Isekai Quartet yet either, so sorry if you're a Megumin fan. Honestly, watching Isekai Quartet made me realize why Aqua is so popular, even if Megumin is the "canon" ship with Kazuma. Aqua and Kazuma are hilarious. Their jokes felt the least repetitive, and in Episode 8, Aqua has a hilarious interaction with Albedo and Shalltear that just made me laugh because of the connection that was being made across the two anime. I still find /a/'s constant praise of KonoSuba to be worrying, but I shouldn't let that stop me from enjoying an otherwise good anime. Re:Zero Oof, Re:Zero has pretty much always been polarizing. A lot of people (including the characters IN the show) find Subaru obnoxious, but I actually like him. He has a wholesome hikki-esque sense of humor that a lot of people think about but don't say. Also, the Re:Zero anime (out of these four anime) is the most compelling to watch on an episode-to-episode basis. I still remember sitting on the edge of my seat watching Re:Zero for the first time and having the ending theme send chills down my spine. As for Re:Zero's role in Isekai Quartet, I personally find it to be the weakest link. Roswaal's voice is grating, Emilia & Beatrice have minor roles, and Rem's character is just "I love Subaru" now. However, I find Ram's smirk to be hilarious, and I still find Subaru's antics to be endearing, even if annoying. Youjo Senki Youjo Senki is by far the most unique isekai on this list. It's ugly, unfamiliar, and features a completely unrelatable protagonist. Because of that, it is the least popular of the four anime, but I would say it has the most purpose to it. Overlord (in the anime so far) has mostly been a power fantasy. KonoSuba is a comedy. Re:Zero has had more meat to it, bringing out the most extremes of its characters to grip the audience, but the ending of season 1 made it feel like the show had no purpose. On the other hand, Youjo Senki has a goal and path to the story with unique themes, settings and power system that're interesting to learn about. However, because of Youjo Senki's heavy focus on these topics, the characters are sparse and extremely boring. A comedy like Isekai Quartet is carried by the interactions between characters. Although Youjo Senki brings a squadron of people, it really has two characters, (Tanya and Viktoriya) and Viktoriya has yet to do anything interesting. But, Tanya has had a golden moment with Ainz where they enjoy themselves, which is honestly a breath of fresh air for me and the both of them. Both of them live stressful lives, feeling alone and disconnected with the people around them due to their leadership status, so it was actually nice to see them become good friends that can relate to one another. Tanya also gets along with Ainz's close "friend" Demiurge, which also brought a smile to my face. Summary - Is it worth watching? Honestly? Is this show worth watching? If you've already seen all four of these shows, then sure, it's a nice filler anime. But if you don't like one of the anime on the list, (for instance, you think Overlord's characters are boring or you don't appreciate KonoSuba's humor) then it may not be for you. Either way, it's not a huge waste of time, as it's only going to be 12 episodes that are around 12 minutes long each. So far, I would rate the show somewhere between a 5 and a 7, but it's not finished yet so it's hard to say definitively.
  12. 2 points
    So I just finished adding genres to all the anime on my website Anime Gauge. It took awhile because I had to do it manually. One by one. I also followed Beocat's suggestion and used Anime Planet genres instead of MAL. Anime Planet just categorized anime better. With that done I can now build an "anime suggestion" feature for my site. I have a vague idea of how it should work. But I would love to hear from you guys. Currently I'm thinking it should go like this: A user can put in anime that they like, for example I type in: Death Note, Case Closed And it would suggest a list of anime similar to those two. You can also type in genres, for example I type in: Isekai, Slice of life, Ecchi And it would come up with a list of anime that are like that. So do you think that's a good enough anime suggestion thingy? What else do you think is missing?
  13. 2 points
    So, it seems for the past 2 years I have been trying to land my dream job (not just preparing for it but applying too). This has been a very very long and painful process, and at this point, I can confess... I have rewritten my resume likely over 150 times in two years...and my cover letters...I have around 120 or so. That's a lot of writing. I remember the Dean of my school once saying "Anyone who claims to enjoy writing is a liar" and I raised my hand and said, "I actually like writing....sir....." Haha! Didn't earn me any points with that guy but ah well. I do love writing stories. I'm still working on my short (the one I meant to be around 15 pages long that has turned into 120 pages and counting) story on the side but writing all of these resumes and cover letters has given me a different perspective to writing. I've even written resumes and cover letters for my friends (I tell all my friends they must expect to spend a minimum of 4-8 hours with me for a resume, and another 8-16 hours for a cover letter - the information you have to drag out of people to write these is insane) and darn....I make those things look great! One of my friends worked as a cleaning lady for around 8 years, and in fast food for another 4 years and I made her resume sound very professional and geared it towards her dream warehouse job with the terminology I used to describe her work responsibilities. Sometimes I wonder though, why it takes so long for me to comb through and improve my own work. I likely turn a blind eye towards my own resume's flaws. In the past, I relegated updating my resume to a yearly task that I set for myself on my whiteboard in my office on New Years Day (along with all my other goals (you know, save X amount of money in savings, attain this or that certification, pay off that loan) things that I wanted to get done that year that I would mark off as I accomplished them). I'm now realizing that doing this yearly, I probably missed some major additions I could've added before that now are just out of my grasp....not to mention...if you don't use it, you lose it (the magic resume touch that is). Well, I've got the touch now. Maybe I should open up a resume/cover letter writing service, charge people by the hour to do it. At least I'd make money from it. So far I've been just giving it away! I'm also a lot happier with my resume than I can say I was two years ago. It is full of interesting information, not just generic stuff, that exemplifies my abilities and leads to enhancing others. It's all building on itself. I seem to be getting better at displaying pertinent information. It isn't enough to just list the robots I've worked with. Now I'm listing what their functions were as well as the software components. Give the random HR representative a shred of information to understand what it means (HR rep must be the strangest job in the world - they get to pick people who get to see the hiring manager, and most of the time they have no understanding of what the person does or how they get the job done). I'm still at a disadvantage. Studies have shown ambitious men get three times the interviews that ambitious women do, but at least this resume is written proof of my abilities. ~sighs~ Well, back to applying for the dream. Some day I'll get there. Not sure when. If I keep trying though, my ticket's eventually got to be pulled. This cat's not giving up the hunt that easily!
  14. 2 points
    So if you haven't seen my signature, I created a website called Anime Gauge. It's basically a Metacritic for anime. It gathers reviews from reviewers all over the Internet and averages their scores into one. Which gives you a good "gauge" if an anime is worth watching or not. The site also ranks the anime from worst to best. Similar to the Billboard Top 100 for example. So I've always wanted to boast that Anime Gauge has ranked 1,000 anime. And I finally can!! Actually I hit this goal weeks ago. Currently, it's at 1,010 anime. And I have no plans of stopping. Now why 1,000? Why not less than that? As far as I know, there hasn't been a website that ranked that much anime. Maybe 500 best anime of all-time. But I don't think anyone has done 1,000 best anime of all-time. Correct me if I'm wrong of course with a comment below. And so the question, now what? Comes into my mind. Well I plan to just keep going. The goal has changed and gotten bigger. Now I want Anime Gauge to rank 2,000 anime.
  15. 2 points
    Bright eyes and quiet stares, moments to admire.
  16. 2 points
    So here we are, Panic! at the disco's High hopes MV. Lets get into it, shall we? Okay, so the video starts off with Brendon stepping out of a car (0:07), well-dressed as usual. His exit from the car is timed perfectly with the music and is the perfect time for his reveal. When first the words "High, high hopes" are sung we can see the camera moves upward and focuses on the sky-scrapers; this makes us think of how high sky-scraper's are immediately and prepares us for the rest of the MV very well, a great start. The on-screen text fades but not before we see it pass behind Brendon (0:23), this serves better for the camera angle chosen seeing as otherwise we would merely see the tree behind Brendon; simply, it is more aesthetically pleasing. While Brendon sings "High, high hopes" we can see that he is looking upward, again, its the small things that make all the difference, this was very well choreographed. As Brendon sing the line "I was gonna be that one in a million" (0:32) the shot is just perfect, with the people passing him by right in front of him and the cars and numerous people in the background it really shows how many people their are, yet he is still the main focus of the shot standing precisely in the middle of the shot; perfect. As Brendon walks down the side-walk we can see him getting shouldered by many people (0:37); we can attribute this to the many hard-ships he has faced (many of which we can see in "Hey look ma, I made it") such as losing his other band members and many more hardships. We can see he is distressed as he turns around because it is written all over his face yet as he continues walking he takes yet another shoulder, this time however he does not look back at all and yet continues walking forward confidently; this shows us that he has taken control, he doesn't care what people say or what hard-ships get in the way, he is doing this. As the lyrics state in "Emperor's new clothes", "I see it, I want it, I take it" and as Brendon said in an interview on said song: "I wanted a song that says, 'this is mine. I do what I do because I feel that its my right. I own this, and I've earned it, and I deserve every bit that I put into this work". This is the kind of transformation I feel like we are witnessing in the music video for High hopes. At 1:03 when Brendon sings the words, "Momma said, don't give up" he looks upward at the towering building before him, obviously symbolizing the challenges he would have to face in his career; Brendon looks intimidated at first but immediately gets down to it and begins scaling the building just as the Chorus breaks in again, simply fantastic! The entire scene of Brendon's walk up the building is fantastic, this MV fits perfectly with the Lyrics and is just really beautiful to watch. As Brendon nears the end of the climb he slips and nearly falls (2:13) just as he start's singing "They say its all been done but they haven't seen the best of me", he then conquers the climb and makes it to the top of the building, solidifying his victory and new beginning. Again, just wanted to point out how wonderfully choreographed and performed this MV was, Brendon could honestly be an actor. After he has reached the top of the tall building till the end of the video (just as the whole video was) is perfect. We can see his logo stapled atop the building, I believe this tells us he was always destined to make it to the top, like his momma said "Fulfill the prophecy" he has done it and accomplished his destiny. Okay guys, so that was a rather quick and to the point review, I hope you liked it! Feel free to comment below and be sure to appreciate the beauty around you so you will realize just how beautiful your day truly is! ~♥
  17. 2 points
    So, like many of you out there, I do enjoy a good book and some day, I hope I can sit down and enjoy reading a book I wrote on my own. Does anyone else out there have a dream like that? I've been writing stories ever since I was in middle school and I am forever thankful that I had an AMAZING mom who took the time out of her busy days after work to sit down with me and teach me to read all by herself, just because I asked her to. Yep, I was reading before I even got into kindergarten and by the time I hit first grade, the teachers were parading me around to read to the other students (in hopes I would inspire them). Back then, reading to my fellow classmates, I was on a fifth grade level and my love of reading has only grown since (along with my level haha). Reading stories inspired me to excel and think and by the time I started writing my own, I had some pretty stiff convictions about what a good story would entail. Character development. No plotholes. A setting and world so vivid you could see it around you as you read the page. Like many people, I started out by writing fanfiction. In actuality, fanfiction is GREAT practice for writing an actual novel. It takes the world building component and the character building component out and lets you practice fleshing out a story. The rise and fall of the plot, the subtle changes in the characters as they grow through a story, and the sculpting of a conclusion, wrapping up the story in a tidy bow. Then, around five years ago, I decided to take the plunge and write my own story straight from my brain to the keyboard. To create that world in its entirety and sculpt the characters from the vision in my head. Sounds easier than it really is. Needless to say, I wrote a great first chapter. I've gone back and done some minor tweaking to it but that's where I'm stuck. I've introduced one major character and now I need to introduce another. The rest of the story I've jotted down in notes throughout the years. I've researched different types of weapons and armor (it's a medieval fantasy type story), I've written background biographies for the various characters in the story, the main villain has been augmented so many times she is no longer recognizable from her first incarnation. I know how I want it to start and I know where I want it to be, it's just the getting there that seems to be tripping me up now. That and life pretty much stole all my motivation for the past four years...but that story is a tragedy that no one wants to read haha... So, with all my extra time recently, I've started back writing. I've tweaked my novel's first chapter and now I've started on a new story. This new story is more of a "short story" meant to grease my writing gears again and man did I need it. In just a few short days I burned out 37 pages of material (yeah...short...I know...) and that was just chapter one of my short story. I could tell with every four to five pages that my writing was improving as well. I think at this point I might be back to the skill of writing that I stopped with last time. And now...the delimna....to continue writing my short story (and hopefully finish it...was planning four chapters).....or instead work on my old novel. I think I've finally figured out the proper way to proceed (I need an actual introduction of the main group and protagonist before my other protagonist meets them...I could never figure out what was missing before but I suddenly see it for what it is now.). I've already gone back in and revised the new story's first 20 or so pages..... Decisions....decisions.... Doesn't help that now when I fall asleep at night I dream of two different stories meandering about in my head.... I might have to just drink some shots tonight and flip a coin to decide on this one. Wish me luck, guys!
  18. 2 points
    I was really happy on Valentine's Day even if most of the single friends I knew were so bitter about it and started calling it Single Awareness Day. I actually forgot that it was actually Valentine's Day because I got so busy with my requirements at school and it turned out that I passed for my College Entrance Exam so I was really hyped up and I didn't have the time to think about a certain holiday that obviously have nothing to do with me. I'm going to live without calendars and watches now I think. Looking back at all the Valentine's Day that passed me by I wasn't really concerned about romantic gestures and having dates. I was much more concerned with the part that I should buy chocolates for my parents and make cards for them so that they'll take us out on a date. I'm quite family oriented probably because of how my Mum grew us up. This concern went on and on until the recent occasion and I don't feel anything bad about celebrating Valentine's Day with my family. I think there are two perks about it. One is that I don't have to be labeled a loser about being single by those Valentines Stereotypes and Second I can help my parents from not making the decision in adding to the total number of the human population by November. I'm actually a superhero. Lels. One thing that happened on Valentine's day that changed my perspective about love was the poem that my teacher in Literature shared with us about someone relating love to an onion. When we talk about love we always picture out romantic stuffs and gestures such as Chocolates, Cards and Roses. Instead of a typical Valentine's Day filled with Chocolates and Cards my mind dove deeper with the onion. "I give you an onion. It is a moon wrapped in brown paper. It promises light like the careful undressing of love." When we indulge ourselves in loving someone we hurry on the loving part and forgot about the details. We hurry like our life depends on it. Like if I don't hurry now I might let a 1000 year chance slip out of my hand. We aren't supposed to hurry. Opening an onion is the same as encountering love. Quickly undressing it to discover it's core can make your eyes well up with tears resulting with you getting hurt. But taking a steady hand with a slow manner of slicing it, making your hands introduce themselves layer by layer can somehow lessen the tearing effect. In love we always get hurt and that is inevitable but suffering for that pain and letting it take over you is an option Keep breathing everyone! Kampai~
  19. 2 points
    I feel like I have a lot to get off of my chest and I don't have an outlet. I've done it all- I've gone to therapy (was I forced? Yeah, maybe a little bit.) I've read the self help books. I've been on medication before and it only makes things worse, so I refuse it. I've been told to spend time with family, but family doesn't help either. I have a rocky relationship at best with most of them as it is. I write and I write and I write, I plug in some tunes and beat the stink out of a punching bag at the gym. It feels great. But nothing gets 'fixed'. And I wondered: why? I've lived most of my life feeling like nobody can relate to me. I've had PTSD since I was twelve. Try explaining to another twelve year old why you're having a mental breakdown because you saw the school's custodian open a closet door. It won't work. And though I've taught myself I shouldn't try to compare my own experiences to everyone around me, I wish I could, just so I could scope out somebody to talk to who won't think I'm just looking for a pity party. I've wanted so badly someone around who is just as messed up as I am. That's when it hit me. You don't ever fix things going on in your head. Maybe there isn't a cure. I think, this whole time, I've been trying to accomplish the wrong goal. We don't need to learn how to overcome these things, but learn how to live with them. They are a part of who you are. Everything that happens to you in your life, the good and bad alike, shapes who you are. Everybody on earth has had their own unique experiences and lead lives just as complex as your own. That in itself to me is amazing, and hard to wrap my mind around, but true. So I've been to some dark places before, and sometimes I still go there. It's part of my every day. But it's the same reason I have all my little quirks, why I do the things I do, like the things I like, listen to the music I do, and beat up that inanimate object. If I can look at all of that and still like myself, then I can turn around and give my demon the finger. I'm just another human on this big spinning rock, and if me and this demon are going to survive, we'll have to just find a way to cooperate.
  20. 2 points
    Now, I've never been the one to share my thoughts on certain things. But I decided to step out my comfort zone give it a go at a blog. I'm not the best writer, so bare with me. I want to share some facts about me. 1. I'm 16 2. I'm a loner 3. My top 3 favorite anime shows are; Inyuasha, Fairy Tail, & Kuromukuro 4. My favorite color is black 5. I love reading mangas, and comics 6. My first ever manga was a book called "Emma". 7. I like playing video games 8. I have 4 sisters, including me, 5. 9. I love supernaturals and horror shows (like The Walking Dead, & Supernatural). And lastly 10. I love junk food. So that's about it for my Introduction, I still have many things to say but that's for a later post. Till next time, Peace.
  21. 2 points
    You know, I never realized how jealous I am as a writer of other people of the arts. Like, I know a lot of people write, and I know people still make books, I know that. I know a lot of people enjoy writing, and I know any people appreciate writing and understand what a task it is to do. But I don't get why it's kind of... pushed aside compared to the other arts. Liike, there's drawing, sculpting, painting - you know, the visual arts where you can see things, and perhaps feel something. You gotta really give it to these guys because it's so hard to blend different colors and find good color schemes.. all that stuff, y'know? And then if it's well drawn, then they get a lot of recognition and positive vibes coming from their classmates and other people. Everyone really recognizes their talents at a glance, and they really get appreciated - which is great, really! The more attention each community gets, the better, right? It's wonderful they get the recognition they deserve. And then there's the preforming arts - you know, music and all that jazz. I'm in this, too, actually! People listen, and if you're good, they congratulate you and give you a lot of support and recognition. If you play in public, a lot of people are amazed you can even play a clean, crisp note. I might have exaggerated that last bit, but you get what I mean. You can write music in your book, or compose in public, and a few people could come up to you and chat you up and say how cool it is to be able to understand music. You can carry books that teaches you how to harmonize well or how to create emotional melodies, and no on really judges you. You can come up with catchy beats that hook people in an instant, or maybe preform and earn a lot of recognition. Again, props to everyone in this community. I know how hard it is to get good at your instrument, and how passionate you gotta be and all that jazz And then there's writing. For a while, ever since I started, I always felt below everyone else in the arts community. Sure, I've got my pros, like not having to carry around an instrument or big art supplies to create things- just a small notebook and pen, that's all. And I don't have to deal with people crowding around me when I'm working, which is really good because I like to concentrate. But of course, like every other thing, there are cons. I don't immediately get recognized because writing isn't exactly eye catching, you know? There aren't any colorful things going on, or any soothing music coming out from my ink worn pages, just words on the surface. Nothing to see. And in a way, it's good, and it shouldn't bother me all too much, because why should it, eh? But it does, because you see all these young, very talented visual artists budding and getting a lot of "wows" and "you're os good", and a lot of gifted musicians being praised for their work, and then, you're kind of.. there. Notebook and pen in hand, with a lot of people thinking it's your diary because you don't let anyone read it, hehe. A lot of kids, including my teachers, think it's my own personal diary since I hate it when people touch it, and I'm always writing in it. That shouldn't bother me either, but it gets kind of annoying when you realize that a lot of people in your class think you're super emo and edgy since you've got a "diary" with you at all times, y'know? And when teachers come around and your friend is drawing, they're always congratulating them and saying how good they are, and when they look at me scribbling ideas in my writing journal, they always assume I'm working on homework or classwork, or I'm documenting my feelings for the day. Which is extremely annoying, since they give me that look that says, "Wow, no need to tell us you've got problems, sweetheart." I always carry a writing help book with me. They're what they are, books that help you with writing, like creating characters, making good dialogue, all that stuff. I'm young and I want to be able to understand good methods and a good process for writing, so I read them often whenever I can - usually in public. When people ask me what I'm reading, the chuckle a bit and say how stupid it is to be reading a book about writing, how silly it is to read about something that everyone know how to do. Once, when I told a younger kid on the bus what I was reading, he thought I was reading how to have better hand writing, which was really stupid, so now he thinks that I read books that teach me how to perfect script. I get a lot of different reactions from people when I tell them that. A lot of them say it's silly, and it's really bothersome, because how can they just assume that writing is just.. is just an intro, body, and conclusion? How can they think that and expect themselves to be great at writing. I once told a girl I was reading a writing help book, and when I explained to her why I need to read it, she called me stupid because writing was so easy. She said all you had to do was come. up with a character, a story, a beginning middle and end and that's it. No heart, no nothing. No emotion. When I asked her what about emotion, she said to write whatever the character was feeling, and she added, "No one reads anymore, anyways." And it honestly just pissed me off. Like, how can you say that - how can you say us writers don't need help because "everyone already knows how to write and no one reads anymore"? If a visual artists read a book about how to sketch better or been colors more vibrantly, not a lot of people would tell them they'r stupid for doing it because "everyone already knows how to draw." Like, no, not everyone knows how to draw. Maybe everyone knows how to draw, actually, but no one knows how to draw well. Same goes for writing. Some people like that girl just think they know how to write because they've gotten an A on a creative essay once. And it really bugs me. How can you say that? Writers shouldn't be treated like that. Shouldn't all people in The Arts be treated equally, despite their chosen Art? Why do a lot of people just assume writing is easy - why do they just assume that it doesn't take a lot of effort to write? Why do they think us writers aren't just as good and don't work as much as everyone else? Why do so many people just throw us to the side? We work just as much as everyone else to perfect our craft. We should be treated equally. Why can't writers be recognized for their talents just as quickly as the other people in The Arts? I know everyone else works very hard, I know that. I know there are different pros and cons to each thing, but it's just.. it's so annoying, almost unfair that writers can't get the same recognition as other people. We can't just show anyone our manuscript and ask us to tell us what they think because it'll take too long, or no one would want to read it. Writers only get a handful of compliments here and there because it's just.. Ugh, how do I explain this? Oh, here's an example: I once shoed one of my stories to a younger kid on my bus last year, and she started laughing at it because she thought I was writing about some with long fingers, when I really was just writing about someone weaving and sewing. I've been told that my writing leans toward the more descriptive and 'deeper' side, and I know each person has a different taste, but this same girl started oo-ing and ahh-ing at my artist friend's latest drawing. Her drawings are extremely detailed and intricate, very abstract. Almost like the visual representation of my writing. So it's kind of disheartening hearing that from a little kid, but seeing her run off and praising my friend. I just.. ah, I'm sorry. It's just really bothering. Anyway, those are my thoughts and experiences. I'm not sure if it's just where I am, but that's how I've always been treated. there are of course a select few at my school who don't treat me like that, but you know, majority rules, eh?
  22. 2 points
    Been feeling fine for the most part these past couple days. Nothing has really brought me down lately, sure I do get times where I do feel down but those times are not many nowadays. Nice to have met someone new today and talk all day with them that was fun! School's been going well I guess too, kind of being lazy and not doing work which is bad because I won't pass if I don't do any work. Just a bad habit I have, still need to work on my sleeping schedule too that needs to be fixed. Health wise I'm good. I just thought I'd start with something simple before I get into other things. So yeah this is my first blog here.
  23. 2 points
    helloooo! welcome to my new blog, as you may have already figured out I have no experience in this kind of stuff, but I hope you can enjoy reading this as much as I enjoy writing it. as an introduction I'd like to say that I'm a cosplayer and my favourite anime is Charlotte (I'll make a review on that later). I have a normal life but I don't really have anyone to talk about anime (sad I know) I'll try to write something interesting weekly, make reviews and show you stuff I draw. please leave a comment, I would really like to know your opinion about this future blog. !
  24. 1 point
    In the profession of history, often times we encounter a few choice sayings that the general population has grown accustom to hurling our way. Each and every time I heard one of these sayings, in school, I would get agitated. Every time I hear the other, now, I get even more irritated. 'You're studying history? So, you're going to teach then!' I know this is hard for some people to grasp, but the history field has one of the most dynamic skillsets of any profession. You require knowledge of literature, ability to conduct academic research, ability to write in an academic format, have organizational skills, have problem solving skills, be able to form theories with miniscule quantities of information, and - anymore - we have to be computer savvy. We'll ignore for a minute that History B.A.'s are also a favorite path of law schools for perspective students. So, that means I could teach (if I liked being underappreciated and spit on by students and probably the administration). But more likely, I could be a librarian, be a researcher, work in government (local, state, or federal), aid in archeological research, aid in academic research, write, office automation, office administration, secretarial work, archive, work at a museum, work at a historic site, work as a park ranger, be a lawyer, go into politics, work for a publishing firm, work as an appraiser, work as a historian or historic advisor...do I need to go on? But this doesn't bother me near as much anymore (mostly because I'm employed and am now at a graduate level - that question is easily shot down), so much as this: "You guys only have to study history though..." In my undergrad, I worked in the archive where I currently work (though I wasn't getting paid then). Rather, I just worked in the archive and I don't just work there now. Anyway... Part of my job then was to do the basic historians duty of making heads and tails of what was in front of me. In my case, that consisted of reading through extremely elaborate and detailed technical reports on various weapons systems. I read about ballistic studies, engineering reports, studies on digital azimuth's, fire control platforms, and various forms of climatological impacts. That's just to name a few. I was tasked with sorting these into a database in a searchable format that people could read and understand. So, of the 2,500 entries, I had to read them all, make sense of them, and then parse them into something the general public would actually search for. Chances are you aren't going to be looking for a ballistics study on a gun, but you might look for the firing range or angle of that gun. I had to make sure that data was programmed and available. Likewise, when a historian takes on a subject, they have to assume specialty expertise on that subject. For example, I could not write a research paper (25-50 pages) on the P-51 Mustang unless I assumed some sort of expertise on the subject. I may need to know things about the Army Air Force, the Air Force, North American Aviation Company, aviation as a subject, and engineering - to know what the P-51 did that was better or worse than its contemporaries. If I'm writing on the history of heart surgery in the United States, I am going to have to have fundamental knowledge on the processes and history of surgery and heart surgery (and treatments) in the United States. That information isn't just present in the realm of history, but to the realm of medicine as well. A historian's duty, in a dull sense, is to know "stuff", and report on it in such a way that it remains replicable or applicable. It is our job to preserve a period or issue in time and ensure it isn't forgotten, whatever the reason may be. That means we learn history - not as a profession - but as a skill. To a historian, our degree certifies a skill, the knowledge and specialty comes after that skill is procured.
  25. 1 point
    So my website Anime Gauge uses the MAL API to get pictures of a show. And at first everything is fine. It's working perfectly. Then one day, maybe 2 out of 100 shows will have a broken image. It seems MAL keeps changing the picture of their anime or the link of the picture. And today, voila! All of the anime images are broken. Did MAL decide to change all their anime pictures? Or change all the links? I don't even know why they keep changing them. I know MAL got hacked some time ago so they completely stopped people from using their API. I guess it's time to find a new API where I can get images for anime. I'm open to suggestions. Please comment below. UPDATE: I managed to fix the broken images. It seems MAL changed their CDN url. I hope its the last they do that. So for now things are OK again. I'm still open to suggestions though for an API where I can get images of anime shows.
  26. 1 point
    ...Gold. Everywhere she looked, her vision was laced with the vivid yellow, only offset by the delicate shades of shadows cast through their wavering sways in the wind. The canvas of blue gave seperation to the ocean of wheat, showing her the direction onward. To where exactly, she didn't know. With laboured breaths, and a weak step, she took a few breif moments to collect her thoughts. Wandering had been all she had ever known. As an urchin who had spent her younger years growing up in one of the major city districts, the monotone shades of grey and black where bleak by comparison to the spectacle that she was now a part of. Exhausted from her travels, she searched the horizon for a place to rest. To her suprise, it was as if by some stroke of luck that a small, unwavered tree sat just above the wheat on a small mound of dirt. Swimming through the gentle swaying storks, she emerged at the base of the mound, it's spongy orange moss engulfing her boots as she stepped out into the clearing. Cautious at first, she took a few steps forward, before the comforting bounce of the moss made her strides unlabored as she reached the base of the old oak tree. With her back to its bark, she set herself down, accepting the trees support and the mosses soft, gentle embrace. She had left town so, so long ago. She couldn't remember, nor could she care to remember. All she knew was that she was hungry, thirsty, tired... Through glazed eyes the young girl smiled as her vision once again fell to the feild of Gold, the sky of blue and the soft, orange glow of the moss. The sound and the gentle rush of wind, the creaking of the oak wood, her own shallow breath fading. ...it was so beautiful...but she was so tired... ...so....tired....
  27. 1 point
    Events like that makes me excited even if i have to wait in long line but still worth it just to see cosplayers,watching contest like battle of the bands,eating contest cosplayer competition,buying a few merch and our con tends to get international guest cosplayer but the meet and greet has separate payment ,we also have guest performer too ,mybe someday i will be back to experience it. Some of the anime merch i bought before sorry for my pic bad taking quality
  28. 1 point
    TL;DR I like Saitama more than Midoriya, and the themes of One Punch Man appeal to me more than My Hero Academia's. Also, hype culture is bad for any media. I will try to make this blog post spoiler-free, so no worries about that. However, I can't guarantee anything I source will be spoiler-free, so discretion is still advised. This blog entry was inspired from @Seshi and me talking on the Introduce Forums, found here. I tried to condense a lot of what I was thinking there, so hopefully it sounds more fluid here. Just to note, I'm going to call One Punch Man "OPM" and My Hero Academia as "BnHA" So, Seshi is not the first person to ask me why I rate BnHA so lowly. I admitted that 3 and 4 might be a little harsh for something that actually feels like it has heart poured into it, (and that I plan to change these ratings when I read/watch more of the show) but I still heavily prefer OPM over it. I find it interesting that these two are lumped together pretty frequently. Other than being action anime about hero organizations and ranks, I don't find them anything alike structurally. At their core, OPM is a meta-comedy with an overpowered main character that doesn't really get any stronger and BnHA is a battle shounen about progressively and constantly getting stronger. Anyways, the question I get a lot is "why did you enjoy OPM, but not BnHA?" Answering this question means explaining why I like anime to begin with. Compared to western shows and movies, (where I find the characters completely disconnected and shallow) I can relate to anime characters in the weirdest ways, and the more I slowly understand about a character, the more I can appreciate who they are. To give an example of this, Koyomi Araragi from the Monogatari series seems like a shallow character at first. However, as the series continues, more of his motivations and ideologies get revealed, which really made me admire his character and thought put into him. As for Deku, I felt like we knew everything about him from the beginning. He's kind of a timid kid who works hard because he wants to be like All Might. For the two seasons I watched, he's kept this same personality throughout both seasons, and it doesn't seem like he's going to change. I don't think this is necessarily bad writing, (many great works have no character development) but because of what I appreciate in anime, I don't like it when characters are shallow and unchanging. Conversely, I love when characters are deep or develop throughout the story, as it's showing that everyone can either change for the better, or is simply misunderstood. To move the topic onto OPM, I actually found Saitama's character to be more than "I'm bald man that kill in one hit". There are actually already videos explaining why Saitama is a representation of a depressed worker that feels nothing due to the harsh nature of the Japanese workplace, but I won't go into that in this blog post. Instead, I'm just going to mention that Saitama has an enthralling relationship with the other heroes, particularly Fubuki, Genos, and King. The dichotomy he plays with these other heroes is something unique and unlike most anime I've seen. The last thing I'd like to talk about here is the themes the two shows portray. From the first two seasons of BnHA, I found the theme to be "we shouldn't be afraid to follow in our predecessor's footsteps", especially in the second season with Todoroki. OPM, on the other hand, has a theme of "you should focus on improving yourself rather than comparing yourself to others", which is made apparent with characters like Genos and Glasses. I can appreciate both of these themes, but OPM's appeals more to me. I hope this a lesson that everybody takes to heart, as many people (including myself) don't feel confident because they're not as good as others' at doing something. I say screw that, be your own person. Are you a better person than you were yesterday? If so, then that's all you need. That's all for this post. Have any thoughts, questions, suggestions on this post or the next? Feel free to let me know, since I love talking and listening to others about anime. Don't be afraid to say something controversial, if it's what you truly believe.
  29. 1 point
    As suggested by Archie-kun I will be moving this blog series into the Forums. To be specific, under the Tutorials section. I think it's a great suggestion so it can reach more people. And others can even pitch in with their own tips. So thank you for reading this. I really appreciate it. I will be blogging about something else now. Mainly about how my creative projects are going. I hope you can find the time to click on those as well.
  30. 1 point
    It’s been some time since I wrote here, four months? My presence is fading a bit on AF. But, believe me, it’s been some busy times. There’s been some frustrations, excitements, and of course, some big changes coming my way. I thought it might be fun to share some of that, in case anyone happened to be curious about me (not that I expect anybody to be, but damn, I’d be flattered!) I'm sad to report that all attempts at putting a baby in me have been yet unsuccessful, but heck I’m still trying. I can’t wait to be able to actually break that news for real. Instead, my latest involvement has been concerning my career, and where I’m taking things from here. Guys, I don’t want to be a dietician anymore. It wasn’t what I signed up for, I just ended up doing it. And although it’s not the worst occupation, it isn’t what I want to do. And I’ve been mulling it over all summer, but I think I owe myself better. I want to take the plunge and shoot for something I love. I need to try and be happy, and I’m feeling good enough lately to put my big girl pants on and do something about it. A few months back, I was offered a job at a dental office, but I ended up not taking it. I just couldn’t see myself back in that position. I quit my second job. I’m worn out from the unpredictability and I just want to focus on other things. That said, for the first time in like, eight years, I’ll get to work a consistent schedule. And, wouldn’t you know it, I’ve got something lined up. It’s a year or so out, but I am so excited about it I just can’t keep it to myself any longer. I’ve been in talks with one of my brothers (10+ years older than me, grows medicinal cannabis for a living,) and he’s been in the process of marketing himself to some investors. Once he gets enough money together, he’s moving south to start a supply business of his own, and he asked me to come work with him. He’ll even teach me the trade. Move?! YES Well-paying career? YESS Something I LOVE? YYYEEEESSSSS Am I banking a lot on this working out? Possibly. But what the hell, maybe this can be life-changing. What’s not to be excited about? I’ll take the slight pay cut for now. I think I know what’s more important, and that’s my mental wellbeing. Feels good to feel loved. And damn does it feel amazing to break away of my depression for once. In other news, riding on my good spirits lately, I entered an in-person LoL tournament this weekend, and my team actually placed second. Not. Bad. Not bad at all. The prizes were pretty swell for placing top three, so I’m quite content with the results. I won a new Razer Trinity mouse, Kraken headset (which I’ll probably sell tbh,) some in-game digital goodies, and a cash prize. I even won a raffle prize, which was a TV (ummmm holy sh*t?) More importantly, I met some really awesome people there. Everyone was super cool to each other, and no matter who won or lost, everyone usually came together after their games and gave constructive feedback on their plays. I ended up adding everybody I played against and felt like I made some new friends. Overall, it was an exceptionally fun experience and I’m so glad I got to compete, even if I was the only woman playing. And now, for the… bad news… It’s getting cold here again.
  31. 1 point
    Hello All So this is totally my first blog so I'm sorry if it is not up to par. I thought about as my first entry that I would share my current watch list. However there are some not on my list that I watch intermittently. I like to think some of us do this. Where we start to watch something and then the new shiny thing starts so we take a break from what we are watching to watch the new thing. I tend to do this quite often So I have quite a few shows that are waiting for me to come back to anytime I feel like it. Mainly when I am watching the current season and have to wait for the new episode to come out. With that here is my current watch list. (FYI) I feel it's very long so without further ado: A Good Librarian like a Good Shepard Free: Dive to the Future (Finally first episode out super excited about this one) Ace of the Diamond The Disastrous life of Saiki K. Kakuriyo no Yadomeshi Senjuushi Back Street Girls: Gokudolls Sunoharasou no Kanrinin-san Phantom in the Twlight Isekai Maou to Shoukan Shoujo no Dorei Majutsu Shichisei no Subaru Satsuriku no Tenshi Chio-chan no Tsuugakuro Kyoto Teramachi Sanjou no Holmes Tenrou: Sirius the Jaeger Lord of Vermillion Guren no Ou Grand Blue Yune Okoku to Nemureru 100 Nin no Ouji-sama Yes I know this is a lot at one time. Some of these new shows have not started and I have a few shows that already have lots of episodes to keep my busy while I wait. Some of those I didn't put on this list that I periodically go back to watch. It really depends on my mood. There you go so many shows so little time.
  32. 1 point
    So... @SoullessMarshmallow already did an entry on this topic, but thank god it wasn't copyrighted. So here I go. There was this guy I met online. He's an AWESOME friend, and when it comes to anime we're basically best buds. So I finally met him in real life after discovering that he was in the same school as I was in. So we kinda started talking, but the convo lasted only a minute. Afterwards I literally ignored him and he ignored me too. All he would do was stare at me. Finally, one day I couldn't take it anymore and asked him why he only stares at me but doesn't talk. And he just responded that he doesn't stare at me, but somebody else. Seriously, I mean, who DOES THAT?! After that we kinda just ignored each other at school but online I was literally telling him EVERYTHING that has been going on with my life. And yeah, we were literally awesome friends online, but in real life... Well, it gets really awkward when he's even ten feet near me. Then this one day at school I confessed to him and like everyone, and I literally mean EVERYONE, heard my confession. Now I'm literally being laughed at and it's really hard to avoid those guys. So I kinda lost my Instagram (aka I cannot DM anyone anymore since I use Instagram on PC instead of my phone) and now I got "someone" (*cough* @I.Zara2006 *cough*) to talk to him. Now this "someone" told him that I want to talk to him in school. And... Things got REALLY out of hand. Everyday I'm LITERALLY playing Hide 'n Seek with him after we're done with our exams and everyone's just, like, milling around the campus. This was really embarrassing for me. After he rejected me I kinda backed out. But now, I feel like I'm not in his "friend circle" or "trustworthy circle" anymore. I just want to be good friends with him. But now, I'm so stressed out about this situation that I CAN'T. THINK. STRAIGHT. I did not put any "important" details in here, since he MIGHT be reading this. Who knows?
  33. 1 point
    Ok so maybe we all had been ignored by someone or at least once. Or maybe some people never got ignored ( those who are luck). Sometimes it feels like i am the only person on earth. Sometimes It seems like no one can't even see you!! Or they just don't know you. The reason why i am writing this to tell you all how a person feels when someone ignores him or her. So there a girl who writes about me in her diary. My read her diary before so they told what was going on.... she Wrote that i am weird..ok so maybe i am little bit weird and she wrote that i i have a wicked plan. People just think that i am just annoying! Well sometimes people play jokes and that goes a bit too far. Ok so Once i went to one of my friend and said, "hi whaat are you doing?" She just ignored, then i waved my hand in front of her face but it seemed couldn't see me... I FEEL LIKE I AM JUST INVISIBLE NO ONE CAN SEE ME! people who are having the same problem i want to say that if someone ignores you should ignore them too! Cause someone doesn't give you credit! You are you no one has to tell who you are! Love yourself and others who are kind hearted!
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    I'm driving on the motorway, a friend and two acquaintances with me, and as a rule, I'm in charge of the tunes because I'm behind the wheel (everyone insists it's the copilot's duty, I disagree.) For the most part, all is well. We're jolly and joking, passing the time with conversation. I'm just listening to my music, zoning out a bit to everybody's antics, when suddenly I hear: 'Eww, is that Tegan/Sara? Skip that!' A grab for the iPod. Song skip. Confused, and very miffed Wedgy is awakened. But I keep my mouth shut, because it's stupid to argue about something as subjective as music tastes, and I've got about 2,000 more songs on there I can enjoy. Better everyone is happy with the music. Or, I would have moved on, had it not sparked a conversation about how mainstream is trash, how you have to be a tool to listen to such-and-such, something something Chainsmokers, insert some band name you've probably never heard of. Who cares? Seriously, who gives a flying rat deuce? Almost 9/10 times I am listening to something by myself, and if I'm only listening to what I enjoy, why do I have to worry about what others think of it when they aren't even listening with me? The only reason I didn't make a big deal about it was because in that instance, I was not listening alone. I like plenty of music that you can't even find an album for, I have some tunes you can't even find with a google search. But if I happen to like something that might be popular, that makes me an unintelligent ape, right? How dare. What's this about making assumptions about others based on the things that make them happy? It's not just music tastes- this can apply to anything. There are animes/books/games/tv/films I think are trash, but I don't look down on anybody for liking them. There's no reason to. Can't we all just live and let live? Where does anybody find the energy to spend hating everything so much? So, everyone: Do what makes you HAPPY and stop being worried about others thinking less of you for it. You don't have time for their bs, you have a life to go live!
  35. 1 point
    Here's something a bit different! How about I show you all some neat tricks I've learned? I've used photoshop and others like it for about 17 years, and am mostly self-taught. Somewhere along the line, I figured out how to animate as well, and had a bit of fun learning how to make some interesting effects. However, I've never actually written a tutorial before... but I thought why not, haven't seen any on AF yet, I'll be a pioneer here. So I'm going to explain how to go about making this: Pretty cool, huh? You can use it to make avatars, signatures, icons, whatever else. I'll try to keep this fairly user-friendly, but expect some semi-advanced stuff once we get to actually animating it. I recommend you at least familiarise yourself with Photoshop and its tools before diving into this. You will need: Adobe Photoshop CS2 Adobe Imageready CS2 Both can be downloaded 100% free and legal here. (Serial numbers are provided.) Note: You only really need to download Photoshop CS2; Imageready should come bundled with it. Choose your base image. Pick something cool that would look good on a broken monitor. My subject for the purpose of this tutorial shall be Genos from OPM, because cyborgs are cool and stuff. I cropped it down to a signature appropriate aspect ratio. To begin, we are going to need to make a pattern to emulate a screen. To do this, create a new image (File > New) and just make a simple 1x2px with a transparent background. Set your foreground colour to black, and pick up your pencil tool, set it to 1px and fill in just the top half of the image. Zoom in if you need to. (Ctrl+0) Go to Edit > Define Pattern. Name it whatever and hit OK. No need to save, you can close the window if you like. Now you can open up your base image. I'm going to go ahead and start by desaturating it first (Image > Adjustments > Desaturate) because it just looks better as a black and white image. Right click your Background layer and Duplicate. Name the new layer simply 'bg' and hide the Background layer. Just in case. Create a new transparent layer on top of 'bg'. Go to Edit > Fill and select 'Pattern' from the dropdown. Then choose the newly created scanline pattern. Click OK. Set that layer to 'Overlay' and then right click and 'Merge Down'. Ta-dah, we now have the basic image. Make a new transparent layer, name it 'line'. Take the pencil tool, set it to white, 5px. Drag it across very top of image while holding the shift key (this keeps the line straight.) Set that layer to Overlay. Run a Guassian Blur on it (Filter > Blur > Guassian Blur), about 5.0 radius. You can now hide 'line' for now. Select 'bg' and duplicate it until you have 10 of them. Name them in ascending order: 'blur' 'motion' 'gradient 1' 'gradient 2' 'gradient 3' 'gradient 4' 'noise 1' 'noise 2' 'noise 3' 'noise 4' Then hide them all. Your layer panel should look like this: Hey, I didn't say there wouldn't be some work involved here. This is the part where we build up the animation frames! (Yeet!) Select and show 'blur'. Filter > Blur > Guassian Blur, set the radius to 10. Done. Hide it. Show 'motion'. Filter > Blur > Motion Blur. Set the angle to 90 and the Distance to 15. Done. Hide it. Show 'gradient 1', set foreground colour to black and use Blending options > gradient overlay like so (ensure the gradient selected is Foreground/Transparent, NOT Foreground/Background!: ) Boom hide that layer. Show 'gradient 2', repeat gradient overlay settings, except set the scale to 100% instead. Hide it. Show 'gradient 3', select the Gradient Tool (G) and set it black to transparent. Make two gradients by holding down the shift key and dragging it in the direction you want the gradient to go until you have a horizontal line still visible: Hol' up, don't hide it, we're not done. Open up the Liquify tool (Filter > Liquify) and select the Pucker Tool on the left. Adjust your settings and then click the middle to 'pinch' it. Ok, now we're done, now you can hide it. For 'gradient 4' we will use the gradient tool again, except this time we are going vertical, so just shift+drag the gradient left and right instead of up and down. Run motion blur on this after you do the gradient at 0 degrees, 15 distance to get this: Hide that one. Show 'noise 1'. Run Filter > Noise > Add noise. Check 'Monochromatic' and set the amount around 130%: You can repeat this for the other three noise layers using Ctrl+F. The goal is to get varied results. Now save your work as a .psd file and back it up. It's time to animate this bad boy. Go to File > Edit in ImageReady and it will open the programme. You can close Photoshop now if you like. When IR opens, you will probably want to open up your animation panel and adjust your workspace. Go to Window > Animation. I recommend setting it up like this so everything is nice and snug: On the Animation panel, click 'Duplicate frame' to add a new animation frame. Note the numbers above the frames, I will be using them for reference so we don't get lost here. On frame 1, you should have ONLY 'bg' showing. The layer 'bg' should be showing for ALL frames. On frame 2, you should have only 'bg' and 'blur' toggled as showing. Add frame 3. Hide 'blur' and show 'motion'. Add frame 4. Hide 'motion' and show 'gradient 1'. Add frame 5. Hide 'gradient 1' and show 'gradient 2'. Repeat this until frame 11. Add frame 12. Show only 'bg' and 'line'. Ensure that 'line' is still set to Overlay; if not, fix that now. Add frame 13. Using the layer move tool, hold down the shift key and drag the line from the top to the bottom of the image. Now click the tween button with frame 13 still selected. Tween with previous frame, add 10 frames and ensure all parameters are checked. Click OK. If you did it right, you ought to have 23 frames. Add frame 24, hide 'line'. Only 'bg' should be showing. Now add more frames until you have 30. The more of these basic frames you add now, the more space there will be between the screen blip animations. You can press the play button on the Animation timeline here if you want to preview what you have so far. Now would be a good time to add text or a border if you prefer. Any new layers you add now will automatically be present in all frames. =] When satisfied, you can save the GIF using File > Save Optimised As. Feel free to play around with settings, frames, even add a few more effects to get different results. And that's all! Let me know if anyone wants to see more tutorials in the future. And of course, questions and comments, requests, etc, are all welcome here. Slightly unrelated: Anybody know what I'm supposed to be using for tags? I suck at this.
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    So in my experience of watching anime I have been deemed a feels addict. I have been all over the battlefield that is anime. These are some of the titles I have seen that will make you think about things you never thought you would think about by the end of them. 1. Your Lie in April Without spoiling anything, this anime is about a boy who plays piano and the things he needs to overcome to keep playing. The setting is amazing, the art is wonderful, and the story it tells is one that you will remember. By the end of this anime, you will have rolled through so many different emotions that you won’t no what you are doing any more. I Highly recommend Your Lie in April. 2. Say I Love You Say I Love you is about an outcast girl who meets the most popular guy in school and he falls for her. At this point you are thinking greeaaaat, another romance anime, but this title is more than that. It tells the story of how an outcast is able to make new friends, build trust in others, and forge new relationships and feel things she has never felt before. This anime will take you on a 13 episode emotional roller coaster and leave you smiling at the end. 3. Love, Chunibyo & Other Delusions! Love, Chunibyo & Other Delusions is a very light hearted anime that delves into some interesting topics to say the least. This anime starts off nice and easy and then brings you into the feels zone. You will laugh and cry with the characters and generally be glued to the screen. This anime will make you feel very happy at the end and it will also teach you some lessons, such as to accept people as they are. And so ends this list. If you like this list and would like to see another please let me know. I had fun writing this and I would very much enjoy writing another. See ya! Sincerely, Paladin Lunchmeat
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    Serial Experiments Lain Episode Layer 01 Weird "And you don't seem to UNDERSTAAAAAAND!!!!!!" *cough cough* sorry. So this is my third viewing of Serial Experiments Lain and since I'm gonna be completely unemployed for the next two weeks I figured 'Hey what better way to spend my time then writing an episodic analysis on one of the most mind-fucky shows out there!' (yay) I almost made this blog entry about how terrible Fate Apocrypha is but given that I was complaining in my last entry, I've decided to change the mood a little. (Fate Apocrypha can wait) oh and uh here's a quick Synopsis if you don't know the show for some reason. Synopsis (from MAL) Lain Iwakura, an awkward and introverted fourteen-year-old, is one of the many girls from her school to receive a disturbing email from her classmate Chisa Yomoda—the very same Chisa who recently committed suicide. Lain has neither the desire nor the experience to handle even basic technology; yet, when the technophobe opens the email, it leads her straight into the Wired, a virtual world of communication networks similar to what we know as the internet. Lain's life is turned upside down as she begins to encounter cryptic mysteries one after another. Strange men called the Men in Black begin to appear wherever she goes, asking her questions and somehow knowing more about her than even she herself knows. With the boundaries between reality and cyberspace rapidly blurring, Lain is plunged into more surreal and bizarre events where identity, consciousness, and perception are concepts that take on new meanings. Honestly to understand this blog post I seriously recommend just watching this episode first. (edit: I have added a plot summary) But James why are you doing this? 'Well I'm glad you asked hypothetical nobody.' You see Serial Experiments Lain is not quite as loved as most of it's fan-base would have you believe. No actually a lot of "anime critics" Random ppl on the internet* Believe that this show is fucking garbage and I cant really blame them. I've given it a 9/10 on MAL but I'm not sure I could prove that Lain isn't an incoherent piece of shit if someone confronted me with that argument. So here I am. Does Lain actually make any sense at all? Well we're about to find out. So far I've re-watched the first episode and taken a shitload of notes categorizing them into three types of information. Stated Info, Implying info and interpretive Info. All my notes will be presented in italics below. Don't worry you don't actually have to read it. I'll be making my points below it so I can reference it every now and then. (so in order for this to make sense you are going to need to look at my notes whenever i reference them.) But shit you can probably just skip to my analysis summary at the end and still get it. Anyhow... Let The Analysis Begin! Notes (with time-stamps) Stated infomation [1A] (02:10) Spoken: “Why? Why won’t you come? I wish you could come here…” (by who?) Text frames(TF): [2A] (03:03) “Why you should do that is something you should figure out for yourself.” TF [2B] (03:53) “I don’t need to stay in a place like this.” TF (These are possibly Chisa’s words based on the fact that we see her lips moving without sound before the second text frame appears. It also makes sense as something she would say before she kills herself.) [3] (05:00) “If you stay in a place like this you might not be able to connect.” TF [4C] (06:52) “Everybody, hurry…” TF [3.5] (05:46) Lain tells people on the train to shut up (uncharacteristic of her). More text frames: [6] (09:28) “What’s it like when you die?” “It really hurts.” Yomoda Chisa’s email to Lain: Chisa: “Hello, how are you? Lain I walked home with you just once. Do you remember?” Lain: "Yes" Chisa: “I have only given up my body. By doing this I can explain to you that I am still alive. I wanted to let you know this, Lain, so I sent this email to you. Do you understand? It’s okay if you can’t right now. You will all understand soon. Everyone will.” Lain: "Why did you die?" Chisa: “Rumour at school has it that this is a prank email. But I want you to know that it isn’t, Lain.” Lain: "Why? Why did you die?" Chisa: “God is here.” Lain: (only spoken)"Huh?" [7A] (15:54) Lain’s Fathers Words: “You know Lain, in this world. Whether it’s here in the real world or in the Wired, people connect to each other, and that’s how societies function.” *looking at headless people on computer* Lain’s father goes on to reassure her that she can make friends easily and that there is nothing to be afraid of. We see Lain silently mouth something with one syllable. She then says. “I’m not scared” She also says that there is a friend she wants to see. Implying infomation [8A] (17:11) Lain is on a train when suddenly it stops and the train driver announces that there has been an accident. [8B] (17:38) Lain looks out the train window to see blood dripping from the power-lines. [9] (20:31) Again Lain’s vision goes blurry as she stares at the blackboard. However, this time the board’s words change into a message to Lain saying “Come to the wired as soon as you can.” The message although she views it on the blackboard appears to have come from her Navi. Interpretive infomation [1B] (02:55) Chisa is surrounded by black and red shadows before she goes to kill herself. [4A] (06:30) Lain staring at her shadow (shadow is not black and red. Instead it is green and blue.) [4B] (06:40) Lain looks at other students in the courtyard when her vision begins to blur and the students disappear as her vision fades to white. [5A] (08:45) Once again while Lain is in class her vision goes blurry and the words on the board become illegible. [5B] (09:18) This is the scene where steam seems to emerge from Lain’s fingers and trails throughout the class. [7B] (16:55) Lain’s father makes weird laughing noise. [8C] (18:03) Cut to a dream sequence where Lain is standing in the middle of the road, she then appears in a subway; then an empty school grounds; then what seems to be an empty classroom. Finally after a flash-cut of a red train-crossing light she appears on an empty road. Fog swoops in from outside the frame surrounding her as she finds herself on a train track. She then sees a girl walk in front of an incoming train and gets hit. Lain wakes up in her classroom afterward. [10] (21:08) In the final scene Chisa appears before Lain in the street and Lain asks “Chisa? Where are you?” Chisa just stares at her weirdly and disappears in a green spiral. Plot Summary Okay fine I suppose I'll do a normal episode summary before I do my analysis and analysis summary. I can't expect people to watch the episode before reading this. Alright so the show begins with Chisa killing herself. After that we meet Lain and pretty much immediately we know something's not right. On her train ride to school Lain hears voices that aren't there and once she arrives she begins to have vision problems. Lain learns from her classmates that apparently Chisa has been emailing people from the dead. Once Lain arrives home she finds that she herself has received one of these emails and what she learns is that apparently Chisa has found God in the Wired. Intrigued, Lain asks her father for a new Navi(computer) so that she can better interact with the Wired. The next day Lain is on a train to school when the train grinds to a hold after an accident. Lain quiclky falls into a dream sequence where she witnesses a person getting hit by the train. Once Lain wakes up in her classroom at school she experiences more visual problems which twist the words on the blackboard into a message. The message instructs Lain to come to the Wired asap. Finally in the last scene we see Chisa confront Lain. To Be Continued. Analysis OKAY! I am fucking ready for this. So the first thing you hear in Serial Experiments Lain (aside from that godly op ) is a strange bit of dialog(see [1A]) and we have no idea who says it. Luckily though I have a theory. I actually think this voice is one of Lain's other personalities trying to convince Yomoda Chisa to kill herself. She want's Chisa to leave her body and come to the Wired. Now I'm no connoisseur of Japanese voice acting but I'm pretty sure that it was Lain's voice. Also Chisa's suicide scene is shown soon afterwards so I'm almost positive that these words are directed at her. This is supported by the next cut where we see Chisa out of breath and seemingly upset.([1B]) This is a little bit strange because when we see her leap from the building she appears to be at peace. Real quick this is what I mean when I say text frame: Given my last assumption we could interpret the next cut to a silent text frame([2A]) as Lain's words to Chisa telling her to figure out why she should come to the Wired, why she should kill herself. And the text frame right before Chisa jumps is obviously her Dialog “I don’t need to stay in a place like this.” ([2B]). In all honesty this theory is a little bit of a stretch, because if they wanted to represent Lain's Dialog again in [2A] surely they would just have her speak them like she did 53 seconds ago in [1A]. However, as it is, I cant imagine these words([2A]) being from anyone else. (these could totally be Eiri Masami's words) On a side note I am going to refer to this version of Lain as 'Lain 0' from now on so as to not get her confused with normal Lain. (If you have no idea what I'm talking about with this multiple personality shit then don't worry, all shall be explained in time.) The next thing I noted was a text frame that appears just before Lain leaves for school. “If you stay in a place like this you might not be able to connect.” ([3]) This can be interpreted as a message to Lain from Chisa. A likely assumption because if I'm not mistaken I'm sure Chisa tries to convince Lain to come to the Wired later in the series. Given these motives it is not hard to imagine these as Chisa's words. Even if this is not the case it is almost certain that these words are for Lain regardless of who they come from. Lain is riding a train and she is sick of the people on the train talking so she tells them to shut up.([3.5]) However what's interesting about this is the way people look at her when she says this. They look as if they have been silent the whole time. This likely means the voices she is hearing are coming from the Wired. Now I am still unsure what exactly is the significance of this scene, the different colored shadow([4A]) particularly eludes any explanation of mine.(I just thought I'd note it anyway) What I am sure of however is that it is somehow connected to Lain's partial loss of vision.([4B]) And the following text frame “Everybody, hurry…” ([4C]). Honestly I might have to just let this one sit until I start researching more episodes. This is actually pretty important because one of the biggest complaints I saw in negative reviews is that many scenes are pointless and don't go anywhere. I guess we'll just have to wait and see. But fuck I'll be surprised if I get through this whole show and everything connects to everything else with no plot holes.(But this tangent can wait) Okay so this is the second time Lain begins to lose her vision([5A]) which means there is clearly some sort of meaning behind this. Then again I had vision problems all the time in school and there wasn't any meaning to that. What happens next however, happened to me slightly less often.([5B]) And I'm afraid I'm going to have to disappoint you again because I have no explanation for this. But to be fair like who the hell does? Even the most knowledgeable Lain fans will tell you 'Yeah we have no fucking idea what this is.' It's certainly cool don't get me wrong but I'm not sure we will get far narrative wise if we waste time randomly guessing at what this might be. Moving on. Luckily these text frames([6]) are pretty straight forward since we know there's only one character who's died so far. Although we don't know who's asking the question. My first guess would be the next girl who kills herself. Perhaps she is asking what it is like to die before she goes and kills herself. Even though this makes sense there really is no evidence for this so far. Again I will have to come back to this part later. Okay so now I'm going to talk about Chisa's email to Lain which is the blue writing in my notes. At first it was difficult to tell whether this was a conversation or just one email because Lain spoke all her replies. It is only when Chisa answers Lain(not even directly mind you) that it becomes evident that this is a conversation.(It's not hard to assume that Lain's Navi converts her words into messages because her Navi was shown to be voice operated to some extent earlier.) Most of what Chisa says is pretty self explanatory, not much to analyse there except for her reply to Lain's question. "God is here." Now I have a pretty good idea of who she is talking about. After all there really are only two people she could be talking about, Eiri Masami or Lain 0. Here is my current hypothesis: Chisa is referring to Lain 0 when she says God. First evidence for this is that it makes sense as a reply to Lain's question "Why? Why did you die?" If Lain 0 is the one who convinced Chisa to kill herself, saying that Lain 0 is here(God) makes perfect sense. There are other reasons as to why I think that Lain 0 is the God Chisa is speaking of but I'll cover this later when I analyse the relevant episodes. So this is where Lain speaks to her father about getting a better Navi.([7A]) What can we learn from this interaction? Well most obviously Lain's dad is a big Navi(computer) enthusiast. However, I'm not sure how much significance any of his dialog actually holds. If nothing else I'd say it's a kind of foreshadowing for the themes the show will be exploring. Actually given Lain's father's true identity his words may have more weight than I'm giving them credit for. However, I think it's still a bit too early to discus this. As for Lain we can see that this scene shows a bit of a turning point for her, because up till now she has had no interest in technology. So finally her father asks her why she has taken a sudden interest in Navi's and Lain simply replies "There's a friend I want to see."(Obviously Chisa) But before she says that, we see her mouth move silently forming only one syllable. This could be anything from Lain wanting to say something else or a mystery word that the audience isn't supposed to know yet. Regardless there's really not much we can do to figure this out right now. So what happens next I honestly have no words for.([7B]) This crazy ass laugh is weird as fuck and out of nowhere. But it's actually not the strangest thing in this scene. If you look at Lain's father's computer while he is talking to her, you'll find that he is clicking through moving images of headless people. yeah... weird right. The scene doesn't seem to put much emphasis on this but it's just far too bizarre to just mean nothing. So I looked closely at what he was entering on his Navi and this is what I found. He types into a bar under 'application cya_iiization(illegible word) system' and he types "Think Blue Count One To".(probably a password) I'm not really sure if this means anything but I'll record it just in case. There is also some writing in Japanese next to the headless people so I will see if I can get my friend to translate it. I'm not really confident that it means anything significant but better safe than sorry. Honestly ([8A]) and ([8B]) don't really need much analysis. The bleeding power-lines are cool visuals for sure but other than representing someones death I don't think its alluding to anything else. Speaking of this person I'm not sure we ever find out who it is that gets hit by the train. We find out in Lain's dream sequence([8C]) that it is a high school girl but other than that i don't remember the show ever bringing this up again. But I suppose we will have to wait and see. So Lain wakes up in class after her dream to find herself having problems with her vision.([9]) With this I think we can understand the meaning behind its previous occurrences as well. Lain's loss of vision is likely a result of someone trying to bring her into the Wired. Although at this point in the story there's only one person we know to be contacting Lain from the Wired, in the grand scheme of things this could actually be quite a few different people. For now though I think it's still a question between Yomoda Chisa and Eiri Masami. That is one thing that has been bothering me actually. Both my main theories about Lain 0 contacting Chisa and Chisa contacting Lain could just be replaced by Masami and still make sense. FINALLY WE MADE IT. In this last scene we see Chisa finally confront lain([10]) in person(sort of). This encounter is nothing if not weird and all we get from it is Lain asking questions and Chisa just staring at her weirdly. It doesn't help much. Analysis Summary So the only unique idea I really got out of this episode was my Lain 0 theory wherein Lain's Wired personality was the one who convinced Chisa to kill herself and is the one Chisa refers to as god. Other than that I think my interpretations were pretty standard. Lain's recurring loss of vision is likely Chisa's doing. To be honest there are far more lose ends then I would have liked there to be but It's really not surprising. Loose ends: Lain's colorful shadow That "everybody hurry" text frame.([4C]) Steam erupting from Lain's fingers.([5B]) Who is asking Chisa what death is like?([6]) Why Is Lain's dad interested in headless people and why does he laugh like a maniac.([7A]) and ([7B]) Who gets hit by the train?([8C]) Alright I'm done. This is about all I can get from this first episode. Hopefully we can see this loose end list diminish as time goes on and I analyse more episodes. Or it will just go up in which case the haters are right. I think either way Serial Experiments Lain is predominantly an aesthetic show. It's not about what you know is true, it's about what you think you know is true. Regardless I've always wanted to know if SEL's Narrative actually holds up and you know what they always say, if you want something done right do it yourself. Thanks for reading if you got this far and if you have anything to say you know what to do.
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    1. Kaichou wa maid-sama Kaichou wa maid-sama or just maid-sama is one of my favorite anime. It is about a high school girl named Misaki who is sexist and is in no way looking for a boyfriend. Then along comes Usui … the guy who every girl likes. Now that Usui has developed an interest in Misaki he will do anything for her, including keeping her after school job a secret from their entire school, And who knows… maybe Misaki just might be interested in him too. Definitely recommended for newcomers , I hope you enjoy this comical romance…I promise you will love it! 2. Peach Girl Peach Girl is an amazing anime. It focuses more on the drama leading up to the romance than the romance itself. Momo is a very tan girl who hates her tan , she feels that all guys including the guy that she likes would prefer more fair skinned girls. Due to this she non stop applies sun screen and doesn’t swim anymore, even though she loves to. Her best friend Sae ( The palest girl in school) is starting to get on Momo’s nerves when she begins spreading rumors about Momo that aren’t true (And believe me these are some NASTY rumors). Then … Momo has had the last straw when Sae tries to win over Momo’s crush Toji. Now the competition begins! Who will Toji fall for!?!?! Will Sae and Momo ever make up?!?! What kind of rumors are Sae spreading?!?! FIND OUT IN PEACH GIRL!!! THE ROMANTIC DRAMA WHERE 2 GIRLS FIGHT FOR ONE GUY’S AFFECTION, BACKSTABBING! RUMORS! LOVE! REVENGE! AND ALL FOR TOJIS HEART! This anime is the only anime that I have seen that has such an extent of backstabbing. In other anime they would just stop being friends or something like that but in Peach Girl just like in the real girl world , you cant get rid of your enemies’ that easily. Also another guy enters the picture… but I will let the part he plays be a surprise .Even though the animation isn’t all that special THIS IS A MUST SEE!!! 3. Toradora Toradora is about the relationship between Taiga Aisaga and Ryuuji. Taiga is a very small girl who looks cutesy and nice but in reality she is violent and hot headed . Meanwhile Ryuuji is cursed with a mean looking face that makes everyone scared of him when in reality he is a caring , cooking, cleaning, well kept goody two shoes. When their paths meet they find that they have more in common than they thought including rough home lives and insecurities about how their school mates think of them. Then over time they become great friends and change each other for the better. This anime is a beautiful story about two people who learn to find happiness in each other’s company and make friends along the way. 4. My Little Monster (only available in English sub) My Little Monster is about the relationship between two highschoolers : Haru and Shizuku. Haru always resorts to violence first when trying to fix a problem ,meanwhile Shizuku the study bug doesn’t associate with other people because she doesn’t believe that anything but her grades are important. Due to Haru’s violent nature he has never had any friends since everyone is afraid of him , this has made him socially awkward and longing for friends, with no idea how to make any. Shizuku on the other hand has always been an outcast and has learned to love being alone and hate talking to people. Haru has decided that he no longer wants to go to school and starts skipping so the teachers send Shizuku (their most trusted student) to give him his homework. Shizuku reluctantly agrees in order to stay on her teachers good side. When Shizuku and Haru meet Haru gets the idea that Shizuku wants to be his friend and decides to go back to school. Now Haru is always with Shizuku which she is not a fan of .but with time Shizuku warms up to Haru and they soon discover feelings they never thought they had …3 CHEERS FOR THIS SOCIALLY AWKWARD COUPLE AND THEIR WEIRD RELATIONSHIP!!! 5. Brothers Conflict In this reverse harem a girl named Ema Hinata lives with her father and her pet/best friend Chi, but when her father marries Miwa Asahina things take a sudden turn . With 13 new step brothers and a pet squirrel to protect her Ema becomes the center of attention to every one of her new siblings. Some love her as a new sister and some …love her as something more. The question is WHO WILL SHE CHOOSE? Hope you enjoyed part 1 of my top 10 list!
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    Dattebayo! (Hi!) Tiny introduction! My anime history: I started watching anime since I was 10 and 1 year ago I started my anime regime. Few episodes a day (if I was able to of course) and few episodes at night, usually night anime marathons are over when my phone dies. This year I have watched over 80 animes and I don't regret the time I spent on it (even hours I should have been sleeping). My very first anime was Pokemon and I still have my cards (around 1000). Then Naruto untill today. I read manga usually shounen ai. My anime report today: I was ill these past few days and thanks to that I finished Attack on Titan. It was amazing! I am looking forward for Season 3! The only thing that I didn't like that the names weren't Japanese, but the characters are gorgeous. Since I have nothing to watch right now, I decided that I going to try Tokyo Ghoul and I am going to watch episode 4 today (at night). ANIME ATTACK ON TITAN I loved the idea of Hajime Isayama. It totally differs from the anime I have watched and it is very unique in my opinion. I heard that anime version has left some of the parts in manga so I decided that I going to read the manga too, but it's going to be a bit unconfortable reading the manga after watching the anime! I am going to write more about it when the whole series end. TOKYO GHOUL I have seen similar animes to Tokyo Ghoul, but I still loved the idea! I just started so I might write something later. I hope Sui Ishida's work will continue! MANGA KEEP OUT in my manga book it's category this is Yc (Yaoi cute - no hentai) and J (job - it concerns a work) It is about a bodyguard called Fuyuki who is always harassed by his boss Kagami. The story is interesting and very gripping. In the begining it's one sided but Fuyuki falls for him at the end. I hope Kisaragi Hirotaka nad Hichiwa Yuka will continue making good mangas!
  40. 1 point
    Now, if you're not really interested about music, don't read this post. I'm not going to persuade you that music is brilliant, because you won't believe me and that's not what this post is about. Also, I will warn you, in case you haven't scrolled down. This post is LONG. It has had countless hours pumped into it. (Actually, not countless, more like 3.) If you aren't comfortable reading loads and loads about music, why I like it and what examples I can give of music I like, then this isn't the blog for you. If you don't mind, or are instead smiling at the thought of reading Nectar's very detailed thoughts on music, then do please continue. I would love for you to hear what I have to say. Nectar - Music Part One (of two) I want to talk, in this post, very generally about Music. Notice the capital 'M'. Just "Music". It's a wonderful thing, and it also plays a massive role in my life. I've estimated that I spend around 13 to 14 hours a day with Apple EarPods inside of my ears on a weekend. That is a massive portion of my day. And yes, this does mean that there is music playing in my ears most of the time. It is rare for me to not be listening to music. I'm not listening to anything right now, because I really wanna focus on this post. However, I still have the earphones in my ears, though I'm not listening to anything. I mean, why remove them? I'll probably listen to something soon anyway. What all this means, is that I listen to music a hell of a lot. You may be wondering because of this, why does Nectar spend so much of his time listening to music? What does it mean to him? What does he listen to? Why that music? Is there anything he doesn't like? These are all perfectly reasonable questions. I discovered halfway through a reply to a thread that my reply was too long for a forum post. This is my third attempt and rewrite to actually respond to that thread, and it has taken me 19 days to make any kind of response at all. But I'm free from the confines of a thread here, so I'll address all of these questions without feeling guilty. Why does Nectar spend so much of his time listening to music? It has become a sort of habit, recently. I've been having trouble being productive for the last few months, actually. Music has become one of the few driving factors that have actually improved my productivity, and I had may as well mention why. I spend so much time listening to music because... well... it interests me. I like listening to stories. Music is the ideal medium for storytelling in my opinion. A good musical story has very few dependencies. You don't even have to be able to play an instrument, be able to sing, or read musical notation to tell a story with music. You don't have to be able to read, write or be literate in any meaningful way. It's easy. Here are the simple requirements for composing music: You understand the concept of pitch. Some noises have a higher and lower frequency to other noises. You understand timings. You understand that if you make a few noises, it sounds better if you leave equal or divisible gaps between them. You have a story you want to tell. You might hate society, you might really really like the female anatomy, or you might just want to tell someone you love them. You have a thing that makes noises. There was that one song that got around this rule, but generally you're gonna need to either use your voice, whack a thing, or twang a string. That's all you really need. There's nothing in there about what language, if any, you speak. You don't need me to tell you that it doesn't matter what background you're from. Practically everybody is capable of appreciating music and creating music. Not everybody can write a book, not everybody can paint a picture. There are more people in the world that fit the above requirements than there are people capable of producing any other art form. That is why it is the ideal storytelling tool. Let's get interactive for a moment. (holy shit) Imagine grass. You know grass. Imagine a 1m square lawn. Try to imagine how many blades of grass there are in that lawn. It's hard to imagine even 1m squared's worth of grass blades. Now try to imagine how many blades of grass there are in the whole world. You done it? No? Failed miserably? Same. Well, here's a little secret for you. There are more songs, written, unwritten, imagined, and unimaginable, than there are all of those blades of grass. Now that's a fancily huge amount of music to listen to. Try fitting that on your iPod. Good Lord I've strayed away from the topic. I like stories, and I find that music is the best way to access great stories. (anime is fun too) You can express so much more in music than just your thoughts. Here in this post, it is difficult for me to convey much tone. I find myself putting slants on words, making some words have thicker letters, adding emoticons, and all just because there is only so much you can do with writing alone. Plain text bores me far faster than music does. I can read a book, but then that's it. I don't read it again unless it's fucking Harry Potter. If I watch a film, it is very rare that I'll ever watch it again, unless it's fucking Harry Potter. Music, on the other hand, can last me weeks, months of replaying. Now, my mileage varies with what I'm listening to, but I'll discuss why later on. The stories that music can tell you can be so complex that replays are actually necessary in order to get the full experience without it. The first time I listened to The Dark Side Of The Moon, an album by Pink Floyd, my first impression was that it was hugely unremarkable. It wasn't catchy, it wasn't clever, the lyrics were boring, it just kind of droned on and finished. I went to sleep the night I heard it, thinking exactly that. It was the following few days that I actually went back and listened again, and it was on around the 3rd complete playthrough that I realised how great it is. Good music often takes time to get into your head properly. And that's because it's sneaky. Music is a massive tease. It plays with your head and your heart, and it only gives you small amounts of the full story in each play. The reason you listen to songs more than once, and in rapid succession, is because you want to hear more. When you finish a book, you have the same feeling. You just want more. But do you read the book over and over, 10, 20, 30 times? No, of course you don't. But you'll listen to your favourite song again. Why? Because every time you hear it, you hear more of the song than you did last time. If you listen to your favourite song on repeat for too long, you'll get bored and it won't be your favourite any more. No song that I've ever found is indestructible when faced with the replayability test. They never last forever. But they last longer than other mediums do. So back to the question. Why indeed do I spend so much of my time listening to music? The simple answer now is that I have the means to, there's plenty of it and it's damn interesting. That answer isn't long enough. There are more reasons than that. Looks like I had better keep talking. What does it mean to him? Music is a very expressive medium. I think I've probably said that enough times now that you understand what I mean. It is cheesy, but the music that I listen to is both the soundtrack, and content, of my life. If you watch a movie that contains not a single second of musical score, it doesn't have nearly as much life as one that does. The Dark Knight is a good example of a movie made 10x better with it's soundtrack. TRON: Legacy, is another one. Hans Zimmer and Daft Punk use music to symbolise every emotion in the movies that they composed the score for. Every thought can be made so much more apparent when paired with a musical sequence. Imagine a bird's eye view over New York City. Straight away, if you imagine the camera moving slowly over the city, you can hear music. Of course, the pigeons that orbit the city don't have earphones in, listening to dramatic movie scores. And yet, it is natural for us as humans to imagine an orchestra scratching some strings with horse hair in a lot of different circumstances. This shows that music has very deeply established itself in our subconscious and our culture, that there is a soundtrack buried deep within everybody. And there's a soundtrack buried deep within me also. Hans Zimmer doesn't compose it for me, I discover my own. I am very aware that the music an individual listens to forms a soundtrack of their life. Something I have more recently realised, however, is that that soundtrack is a fairly accurate mirror of the content of that person's life also. The music that I listen to represents me. I gravitate towards music that is relatable to my exact circumstances. Sort of like how humans tend to fall in love with people that are similar to themselves and their parents. I know that I've listened to wowaka's UNHAPPY REFRAIN because I've had direct frightening experience with depression. I know that I've listened to Wintergatan because I dream of life in a peaceful Eastern European style village full of bicycles and cobblestone roads. I know that I've listened to Pink Floyd's Wish You Were Here because I've had to deal with the loss of somebody I love very dearly. I could point at every album in my iTunes library and tell you why it's really there. It has taken me a very long time to understand that, but I know now that there is something that subconsciously draws me to certain music. And it's probably because I recognise that that I spend so much of my time with EarPods in my ears. Sometimes I go outside, late at night or early in the morning, with a coffee and an album/song. I'll sit and listen to it, and reflect on the parts of my life that it reminds me of. Music that is visually engaging really shows you a lot about who you have been, who you are, and what you want to be. That's what it means to me. It's a tool I use to gain a deeper insight into my life that no person's words could possibly provide. It only takes a few minutes of my attention to learn about entire years of my life. If you've read this far, you're interested in what I'm saying. I encourage you to go look through your music library. Look at the album covers. Look at the titles, remember the lyrics and the music. Think about why it got into your library. Think about what it shows about you. When I did that, I woke up the following morning knowing more about myself than I ever had before. I intend to post Part Two at some point. It could be soon, or it could be a while. I wanna cram as much content into it as possible. So yes, a part 'three' might end up coming to be Regardless, I'm gonna talk about specific bands, their stories, and what they have shown me. I will talk in detail about the precise things that I look for in music. I'll talk about what I don't like. I'll talk about the music industry, and my thoughts on it's direction. And more. Thank you a whole bunch for reading this so far.
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    Nice to see you again, and hello. The anime this time around is Ramen Daisuki Koizumi-san, which translate into Ms. Koizumi Loves Ramen Noodles. Before I delve into it I would like to recommend that you watch the first episode yourself as this is a slapstick comedy, these types of anime unfortunately tend to repeat the same joke over and over again and can get old very quickly and considering I'll be focusing on the comedic elements I will spoil what few jokes this anime has to offer as a result. With that in mind I feel you should watch at least worth checking out a single episode before reading any further. So the series is written in about as basic of a manner as the name would imply, since the jokes come across as equally barebone it's a shame not much effort seems to have been put into the writing, not just in the scenarios but also the characters as a whole and I can likely summarize their personalities in a few short sentences. Koizumi-san loves to eat and is very passionate about the ramen she eats at ramen shops, but ignores everyone around her. Yuu Oosawa wants to hang out with Koizumi, and even though she is constantly turned down she looks at whatever positive thing one could when she is. Misa Nakamura doesn't like Koizumi, probably because she's afraid she'll take Yuu away from her. Jun Takahashi didn't really leave a impression on me. The main thing is that Koizumi-san loves her ramen and eats them incredibly fast and smiles, then is immediately back to her old self afterwards. The problem with this is that Yuu reacts in a predictable manner every time. If you preset the same joke every time and the characters reacts the same every time then the audience is going to see it coming for a mile away. There is actually a bit of a lesbian undertone to this anime with Yuu seemingly falling in love with Koizumi the first time she sees her to the point of calling her cute and continues to chase after her to the point of becoming a stalker, furthermore, Misa is jealous of Yuu calling Koizumi cute instead of her. As I mentioned before, Yuu is constantly rejected by Koizumi and the thing she says may be different each time but it is essentially the same joke as five minutes ago, there are a few unique ones here and there but I feel as if this series will overstay it's welcome long before it ends. One other thing is a melody that plays which I first thought was the intermission but it actually plays every time the scenario changes and I found it to be a bit jarring. In conclusion it's simply another series based off of one joke with little variety beyond it, I personally think that my time would be best spent elsewhere but I don't think slapstick comedy is necessarily a bad thing, it would work well if there was more to it then a single concept being repeated time and again as no matter how absurd it may be it's still just a single concept. That's it for this post, but if you haven't already then please check out my impressions of Yuru Camp△. And tomorrow I will take a look at Ito Junji: Collection as well as Toji no Miko, until then I hope you have a wonderful day.
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    Nice to meet you, and hello! Today I am giving my impressions of the first episode of A Place Further Than The Universe, otherwise known as Sora yori mo Tooi Basho, the basic premise of which is four highschool girls embarking on a journey to search for Shirase Kobuchizawa's, one of the girls', mother who went missing somewhere in antarctica. The main character is Mari Tamaki, an airheaded girl who oversleeps and stumbles upon a old notebook of her's that mentions all of her plans for once she entered highschool which includes keeping a diary, skipping a day of school, going on a trip without a plan and getting the most out of her youth. Much to her dismay she has accomplished none of these things and tells her friend that she usually talks herself out of trying new things, which isn't something someone would just straight up say but it does offer insight into her character. Megumi Takahashi is Mari's friend, she doesn't think of Shirase as weird for wanting to make good on the plans she made before she entered highschool and instead simply encourages to do those things, telling her there is nothing wrong with skipping school. I think she's a very good friend for these reasons. And then there's Shirase Kobuchizawa, the last character to be introduced in this episode. Mari notices her drop a envelope on the ground while Shirase rushes to check and train, after Mari loses her and she looks inside the envelope, she realizes it contains ¥1,000,000. The next day she sees her entering the bathroom at her school and after a probably unintended jumpscare, she returns the money to her and Shirase explains why she has that much. She has been working a part-time job in order to earn enough money to travel to antarctica to search for her mother, it's all she talks about and everyone at school makes fun of her for it, but that just fuels her drive. She asks Mari to come with her, she has people about it before and their friends talked them out of it or they got scared, so she wants to make sure that Mari is serious so she asks her to come with her to look at a boat she's been looking it on the weekend. Thus begins Mari's journey to both fulfill her own wishes and to become stronger as a person. So far it has been presented in a cute way, but also written in a beautiful manner. So expect to see a anime with plently of laughs but also some more warm, touching moments. The right balance between a light-hearted and serious tone. That's it for now, please join me next time when I take a look at Yuru Camp△, have a wonderful day. = )
  43. 1 point
    So this might be considered a rant. Not really sure how to categorize it, but we'll just say it's a rant. This girl I've known since kindergarten - let's call her, ah, Stephanie - has recently brought me to the very last straw. Now lemme give some background on Stephanie. She's a really good artist, makes amazing art. Likes anime... a little too much. She's always been overweight (No offense, but it's true. And I'm not saying you're a bad erson if you're overweight, I'm just giving some background, here). Enjoys to complain a lot (rich coming from me, I know), and enjoys accusing people of hypocrisy when she herself is the biggest hypocrite in my very grade. Like I said earlier, we've known each other for a while. She was "bullied" often as a kid. I say "bullied" because she never really was. Of course, there was a mean thing said to her every now and then, but who doesn't experience an insult as a kid? We're friggin kids, of course we're going to insult each other. But she always exaggerated that people would rub poison ivy on her and kick her out of our "friend group" - which was not true in the slightest. She was always invite to parties and to hang out with us, and no one ever bullied her. That's not even it. She's always pitying herself and trying to guilt trip other people. Stephanie always tries to complain about how hard her life is and how her parents never pay attention to her and abuse her. She always says that she can't even say "I love you" to her father, but honestly, that's complete bullshit. Because one day, we were at the mall and she saw some really expensive markers she liked (almost $100), and her dad bought it for her, and she wrapped her arms around him and kept saying how good of a dad he was and how much she loves him. Her parents have never abused her and never ignored her, and I know this because I always see her parents pampering her and in fact, ignoring her older brother instead - who she claims draws the attention away from her. And the different personalities this girl has... gosh, it's unreal. I get that there are different facets of your personality, but hers is... it's not even a personality, I don't know what it is. You guys know who ditto is, right? Like the pokemon. For those of you who don't, he can copy any pokemon, basically. Well, this girl's personality's like ditto. Although she doesn't copy a personality, depending on who she's talking to, she changes her personality in order to appear more likable to the person she's trying to please. I get that you can't completely be yourself when meeting someone new, but Stephanie completely flips her hobbies, likes, dislikes and current personality. For example, she could be very lazy, introverted, cold, hate anime, and hate working out, but when someone new comes along, oh boy, it's the exact opposite. She immediately screams how amazing anime is and how great it is to work out, become super extroverted and warm to people. Look, I get you act differently towards different people, but the way Steph acts is to the extreme. She even occasionally changes her religion to appease the person she's talking to! And she's a weeaboo. I know this is really ironic since I'm posting this on a site dedicated to praising anime, but that's not really what a weeaboo is. Yes, it's okay to like anime, yes it's okay to cosplay, yes it's okay to go to cons and have merchandise, it's okay to learn Japanese and want to move to Japan, but it's not okay to be a weeaboo. For those of who don't know what that is, it's basically a non-japanese person who wants to become Japanese. They learn the language through anime, but Japanese people and anime on this pedestal, and worship it. They show no respect towards the culture, and pretend to be Japanese even though they aren't. Like I said, it's okay to like anime, Japanese culture, Japanese, and praise the people and whatever, but you should do it with respect. This girl has no respect for it, and badly wants to be Japanese because she thinks that it will magically make all her problems go away. She pretends to act like she's in an anime by sticking out her butt and showing a lot of cleavage, and even trying to eat like they do in animes. Like this. It's really annoying after a while. And then her talking about her body. Yes, it's great to love your body. It's and extremely important part for you to love yourself. But Steph's always talking about how big her boobs and but are, and how she's already a Double D in cup size. Like I said, it's great to love your body and it's wonderful she loves her boobs. Honestly, it really is. But when that's all you talk about.. It's really annoying to have to only listen about how big your boobs are. Like fuck, can you stop? Lastly, the one thing I hate the most about her is about how much she made me hate myself. In the last paragraph, I talked about how all she discussed was her cup size, and that made me feel inferior to her. I... I don't have big boobs. They're really small, and I felt very inferior towards her because she kept flaunting her chest everywhere and kept telling me how small my boobs were, and how no guy found me attractive because of my breast size. Of course overtime, I learned to love them (as strange as that sounds ). I know it sounds really trivial, but at the time, it really hurt me how she always told me that I'd never get a boyfriend because my boobs were too small, and how no one would ever care about me. She always criticized me over my bust, so I developed some body issues because of it. Of course, I'm over it like I said before, but it was still really rude.
  44. 1 point
    Well, here we are again... I would like to start this off by simply saying that at times being down really, really sucks. We've all been through it, since its just human nature. But tell me why it has to be such a great weight, huh? Now, I always try to stay as positive as I can, but sometimes things get to me. Recently I have been going through some stuff, and in all honesty I just feel unhappy all the time. While its not exactly apparent on the surface, it feels as though there is a little part in the back of my brain that's rotting. Like a nagging doubt and decay. Either way, I just tell it to stuff it! I'm not giving in to some nagging mournful voice of doubt. I've had this before, and i sure as hell am not having it again! Anyway, regardless, the point in this was not for me to complain. In fact, I actually wanted to vent about why I love the anime forums so damn much. Over the, well, I would like to say two years as a a cover, of being on this forum, it has slowly become much like a home to me. Everyone here is like family, and I wouldn't change that for the world. So, thank you so much Optic, and everyone who has been along for the ride. it's wonderful to have such an amazing community, and I look forward to seeing where we all end up in the next few years. So yeah, just know that you are all amazing people, and you all deserve to know that. Here, we are family. Anyway, like I said, thank you so much for allowing me to feel welcome in such a loving community. Without it, I don't think I would be as happy as I always am now ^w^ (P.S: Don't worry about me either I will be fine in about a month or two. I cant stay unhappy for long. I'm too positive...... )
  45. 1 point
    5. Death Parade Okay, I know this isn’t exactly what you would call a Survival Game, but it’s somewhat similar to it. – Genre: Drama, Mystery, Psychological Episodes: 12 Aired: Jan 2015 – Mar 2015 The anime plays in the bar Quin Decim and follows a bartender, who makes his guests play games for their life – well, that’s what they think. But in reality they’re already dead and in the afterlife, competing against each other to see who deserves to go up or down. The 2 competitors are always related in some way, but they lose their memories about how they died and can only gain them back, if they play the game. This gives the anime a good dose of drama and you notice how you start feeling with the characters after just one episode. 4. Deadman Wonderland This anime stayed in my memory mostly because of the character designs – not only did they have very unique looks, but their personalities also differ. – Episodes: 12 Aired: Apr 2011 – Jul 2011 Genres: Manglobe The teenage boy Ganta is sentenced to death after he was the only survivor when a mysterious man killed every student of his class. He then has to go to the craziest prison you’ve ever seen – Deadman Wonderland. The prisoners of this disturbing place are forced to compete against each other in many different death matches. 3. Danganronpa: The Animation I never thought this anime would actually become one of my favorite animes so far. The mix of mystery and survival game is great and makes you want to continue after you’ve finished an episode. – Genres: Mystery, Psychological, Thriller Episodes: 13 Aired: Jul 2013 – Sep 2013 Naegi Makoto was invited to enter a high school for people with special talents – even though he has none. Soon enough this school turns out to be a survival game: 15 students are captured and the only way to get out is to kill someone without anybody noticing. But if someone finds out, you die. 2. Mirai Nikki The anime, that is famous for its yandere character, Yuno Gasai. – Genres: Action, Mystery, Psychological, Thriller Aired: Okt 2011 – Apr 2012 Episodes: 26 The story follows the student Yukki, who writes everything he sees around him in his phone diary. One day he gets a strange message from his imaginary friend, that he is supposed to participate in a survival game. If you’re the last participant alive, you become the God of time and space. Later he finds out, that his diary can suddenly tell the future – but he’s not the only one who owns something as powerful as that; Every participant has their own unique diary, that gives them a different advantage or disadvantage in battles. 1. Btooom! No matter how often I watch this anime, it never gets boring! – Genres: Action, Psychological Episodes: 12 Aired: Okt 2012 – Dec 2012 Ryouta is a NEET – he doesn’t go to school, doesn’t have a job, the only thing that is on his mind is the famous game Btooom. In this game you try to kill people with different types of bombs. Suddenly Ryouta finds himself on an island with many people trying to kill each other. He then finds out that somebody he knows sent him there to die. But there is still one chance to get out of this survival game: You have to kill seven people. And the only weapon you have is bombs – just like in Btooom.
  46. 0 points
    "...Ya know, it's kinda strange to think how they change like we do, sat up there, doing whatever stars do... Kinda poetic, dont'cha think?" Silence answered him, accompanied solely by the gentle sway of the wind and the drab tones of the crickets he had grown accustomed to during the long nights of restlessness. "Heh, you never were one for talkin. Nor where ya ever really one for ramblin...But I can't help myself, not now. How did ya do it, all these years? Go through all-o-that with nothin but a grunt and the odd evil-eye? Heck, I remember when we faced that big-ass bear when I was little, and it took a massive chunk outa your arm, yet ya still managed to scare it off without so-much as a tear on ya face or a curseword or nu'ing..." Trailing off, he gently brushed the short, mangled hair beneath his heavily brimmed hat, leaning back against the wasteland floor to stare up into the night sky. "...maybe you were just doin it for oll ma. Maybe for me. Heck if I know...." Turning his head, he faced the shallow grave beside him, it's loose dirt darker then the rest of the surrounding landscape. The gentle outline of stones surrounding it's borders only disrupted by a small pistol and hat placed beside it, Allong with a bundle of wild-flowers picked that morning. With wet eyes and a small, meek smile, he sighed. "...I'ma miss you, Pa..."
  47. 0 points
    𝓗𝓮 𝓽𝓸𝓸𝓴 𝓶𝔂 𝓹𝓪𝓲𝓷 𝓪𝔀𝓪𝔂 𝔀𝓲𝓽𝓱 𝓸𝓷𝓮 𝓴𝓲𝓼𝓼. 𝓑𝓻𝓲𝓰𝓱𝓽𝓮𝓷𝓮𝓭 𝓾𝓹 𝓶𝔂 𝓭𝓪𝓻𝓴𝓮𝓼𝓽 𝓸𝓯 𝓭𝓪𝔂𝓼. 𝓗𝓮 𝓶𝓪𝓭𝓮 𝓶𝓮 𝓯𝓮𝓮𝓵...𝓵𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓭. 𝓗𝓮 𝓽𝓸𝓾𝓬𝓱𝓮𝓭 𝓶𝔂 𝓱𝓮𝓪𝓻𝓽 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓶𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓭 𝓸𝓷. 𝓗𝓸𝔀 𝓫𝓲𝓽𝓽𝓮𝓻𝓼𝔀𝓮𝓮𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓼 𝓵𝓸𝓿𝓮 𝓼𝓽𝓸𝓻𝔂 𝔀𝓪𝓼. - Written by Alley Cat and edited by Hubby
  48. 0 points
    So, lately bad luck just seems to be stalking me...like a yandere nipping at my heels. Well, now my car won't start. I suppose the silver lining is that I wasn't 400 miles away. Doesn't make the cost to fix it any easier to swallow. This seems to be one thing after another for me. What could happen next? Guess I am home bound until my husband is done teaching class. At least the kittens are loving this turn of events.
  49. 0 points
    Wow, today was a really long day. First, I woke up and assisted my husband with a rescue diving class. Usually I am in the water as a victim, but since my last box of contacts had some issues (I think they were contaminated. I got eye infections from using them twice. Had to be a bad batch. Never had an eye infection before in my life till then!), and he had another divemaster in the water, I instead stuck with surface support and shore work. Even so, I almost stayed behind to listen to lectures for the next class he was teaching after the dives. Instead, I skipped changing my clothes and just went home (because I left my phone at home to charge). Upon getting home, I immediately get to changing into some dry clothes and while putting on my jeans, I hear a kitten screaming. My head shot up (and all the girls were in the room with me). I immediately opened the window by me and saw nothing. Juliet was in the other window watching so I peered out of her window and saw Nighthawk and her kittens with Squint and Sniper walking out of the backyard. Yet I could still hear crying... I headed out the back and to my horror found a little black kitten stuck in my chair. Somehow, he had falled with his arm between the slats of my chair, with his arm pinned inside. Nighthawk abandoned him in less than 2 minutes from the time it happened. He was wedged so deep with his arm all twisted that I couldn't pull him back up. I called my husband, distraught and interrupting class, to ask him where the saw was (I was already in the garage looking through toolboxes and workbenches) and the only one I saw was a tiny handsaw...which was ineffective. He decided to leave class to come help me...but he was thirty minutes away. I tried again with some clamps I found (using them in a spreading manner) to lessen the pressure and pulled him up and out. The arm was completely limp and useless. I ran him inside and grabbed a carrier and off to the emergency vet we went (telling my husband to stay and teach class). Thankfully the xrays didn't show a fracture but he still can't use his arm. If I had taken him to the Humane Society...well the best case scenario would be that they would have just amputated (but with the terrible one we have I'm sure they would have simply euthanized him). With some anti-inflammatories and pain medications, I'm told he should be walking on it in a few days (or nerve damage would be the culprit). He's actually the other kitten I saved bigger brother.... looks like we're caring for two now. Almost time for his next dose of pain medication. Oh man I'm tired. =/ I can't stand to see a kitten in pain. I'm just so relieved he's going to be alright. I hope... time for more expensive vet visits tomorrow....
  50. 0 points
    Lately, I've been thinking a lot 'bout how I've changed in the past few year, and even though life's been pretty crappy so far, I think I've progressed pretty well. Although I'm definitely not the best possible version of myself, I've realized that through all the shit, I'm really getting there. But what I've really been thinking about was my first... "relationship", I suppose. It happened two years ago, but it feels like forever. Whenever I thought of that moment, I always questioned myself, asking myself why I'd ever date such a jerk. Why I'd ever date someone who could care less about me. Why I was the victim. And after two years of thinking, I've finally come to a conclusion. I was scared. I remembered holding my phone, rereading every last part of the conversation this boy and I had. It was Halloween, I remember that. I was just going over to a friend's house for a party. I remember feeling a rush of excitement as I got another text from him, and then, most of all, I remember reading those words. It was a confession. Pretty cowardly way to confess if you ask me - especially since he goes to my school. But of course, I was pretty dumb, and pretty damn naive. Yet, before I responded, something in my gut stopped me. I can't explain it very well, but it's like a heavy blanket that tightens around your heart, squeezing it in a strange way that makes you feel as though you're about to do something wrong. Now, let me just say, I never really liked this guy. I barely talked to him. I mean, I guess he was kinda cute and pretty cool, but other than that, I didn't think much of him. The logical route would have been to reject him, right? Tell him he's okay, but I don't feel the same way, right? Well, no. That's not what happened, because I remember, so very, very clearly, that all I could think about was how I was going to waste a happy moment of my life, a potential happy ending, a potential partner who might fill in the hole that my dad left in me; someone who I could share a happy ending with. Yeah, I know. I was really young to even be considering these types of things, but remember: I was dumb and naive. So I did the smartest thing a person could ever do, and I told him that I liked him back. Big. Mistake. As if I hadn't thrown myself into a pit already, I decided to dig my grave even deeper. Because the thing he texted me right after that was: "I love you so much." This immediately made me feel uncomfortable, and even a little violated. I never thought of him that way, and my gut was telling me to tell him to buzz off. But I didn't. I fed his ego and I told him I loved him back, even when I didn't. And you know what? It gets worse. As this continued, I began to convince myself I loved him. I began to think that we were meant for each other. It's so weird, but it's so true. I think it's because in some strange way, he made me feel nice. Pretty, even. Maybe worth something. Or maybe I felt bad and I never realized it. But he made me feel pretty, and that's what fueled my ego. He made me feel nice, and when he put his arm around me, he made me feel great. Amazing. Like I was being protected - yet, at the same time, I felt uncomfortable, guilty, un-confident and ugly. It was the strangest thing I've felt for six months. But it only got stranger after we had our first kiss. I'd never kissed anyone before, so I... I didn't know what to do. He just came up to me and asked when we were gonna kiss. I kept telling him we just got together and there was no rush, it just had to happen. But he kept coming and coming, and asking when I'd kiss him. I told him no every time, but eventually, eventually I just forced myself to. And it was horrible. Let me tell you, having a tongue clog up your throat is the worst feeling ever. But it didn't stop there. He wanted to make out everyday. And of course, I said no. And then the cycle repeated. Everyday. Some days they felt good. Other times they were a chore. Most of the time they were horrible. But I couldn't stop, because I thought I "loved" him. I thought I knew what love was. I thought he "loved" me. I thought this was going to be okay. At this point, the lovey dovey stuff didn't happen as much. Pet names stopped, compliments were rare, him putting his arm around me was rare. He only ever complimented me when he wanted something, and of course, I let him have it. And it was even funnier, because he was flirting with other girls at the same time - and I was totally in denial of it. The only place I drew the line was when he asked for nudes - and you want to know something else? 1) I almost did send him nudes, and 2) We still stayed together. My best friend at the time told me how unhealthy this was. I didn't listen to her. I didn't listen to anyone. But eventually, she convinced me to fight back. And boy oh boy, did that backfire. First day, he told me I was being rude and weird. Second day, he was pissed off. Third day, he accused me of not loving him anymore. And the cycle repeated. The only good thing that came out of this shit was one of his friends. That friend of his.. a good listener. I'd talk and play video games with him often, and we'd screw around with each other, and... it was nice. Of course, that friend of his developed feelings for me. And of course, my boyfriend got mad, and told me that I couldn't talk to him anymore. And of course, I let him have his way. I never talked to his friend the same way again. Then he told me that my best friend was trying to break us apart. I believed him. And the cycle repeated. ... We stayed together for another two months until I finally realized what I was doing to myself. By the time we broke up, I had already lost my best friend, the guys in my class thought of me as a whore and as a cheater. My ex spread a rumor that I cheated on him with his friend, and that I played him. Honestly... Next year, though, out of the little good karma I had stored, my ex left the school and never came back. Now, two full years later, I look back on this and in some strange way, I smile at it. It's comforting to know that I've straightened myself out; nice to know that I know I'll stand my ground when I say no next time. Nice to know that I'll never have to see him again. I haven't dated since then, but it's only because I feel like I needed to focus on becoming whole by myself and to truly love who I am. I'm really thankful for all the horrible things that boy caused me to do, and all the horrible things I did to myself. Because one day, when I love myself and when I find someone who truly loves me just as much, I'll know what it feels like to truly love someone else - I'll know what it really means to love happily.

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